Drip
Drip
what's that sound?
Drip
no, never mind that, why can't I see.
Drip
and. . .breathe?, it feels like I can't breathe. . .
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I start panicking, why can't I breathe!?
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I try to think back to what happened but it's all a blur.
Drip
My heart starts pounding and suddenly pain shoots through me.
Drip
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Drip
Drip
the dripping and pain intensifies with the pounding of my heart
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I start hyperventilating and the pain skyrockets.
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I try to scream but my throat feels all wet and sticky and all that comes out is a gurgled mess.
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and it's at that point it finally dawns on me.
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I'm. . .
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dying
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my struggle dies down as the realization sinks in
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what is one supposed to feel when in a situation like this, panic? defiance? acceptance? I don't know. My emotions were a mess and I couldn't find out before flashes went off in my head.
it took me a while before I figured out these flashes were my memories, not in any particular order of importance just random flashes, like times I tripped and was comforted by the orphanage caretakers, or when I climbed up a tree and got stuck.
I start crying as the flashes of memories continue, of the good and the bad. All of them just keep coming and I cry harder if that's even possible, I don't want to die, I'm only 17 danm it, I still have my whole life ahead of me. why do I have to die!?
I kept asking but never got my answer, and soon enough I just felt tired, really tired. I don't even think I'm breathing anymore.
so, there I lay, alone and dying with no one by my side to comfort me. with my final moments edging closer I started to contemplate my life, of how i spent long hours studying for a good future refusing invites to parties, or making friends. all that studying paid off eventually when I was able to get into a good college. I was so excited, my life was finally going to begin.
but then tragedy struck and now here I am. I would have laughed if I could, at the hilarity and joke that was my life.
if I could have a second chance, I want to have a calm and peaceful life, without the complications of studying for a future or living through a pandemic. I wouldn't mind just being reincarnated as a koi fish, maybe having my own little pond. ye that's it, I want to be a koi fish with my own little pond, just relaxing and swimming freely. heh, wouldn't that be a dream.