their number is frightening. in case I fought them I would just look ridiculous. Wait. I remembered for a moment just now. they didn't seem to pay attention to me while they immediately rushed and surrounded Akasha. there is something wrong here I will try if my suspicion is correct.

" just be here for a moment, I'll just need to find out something."

"Don't leave me here."

" why?"

I noticed she looked very scared. She just hid her feelings but the trembling of her knees was obvious.

She clung to my arm to restrain me but I smiled at her and said.

"don't worry, I'll be gone in a moment"

and I immediately stroked her hair very carefully. And smile to her.

"What's that smile? It looks like a dog .."

and she smiled.

what's wrong with my smile? never mind It made her to smile so it's just okay ..

She hugged me in response and I felt I had soothed her with her feeling of fear and she told me while she still hugged me.

"Be careful."

at the same time she looks at me as if she wants to hear something from me.

I was suddenly startled and I turned my gaze.

"yes, I'll be careful. so just stay here and don't make any noise okay."

"okay .."

when I jumped in the middle of so many fallen demon's.

I could feel their next gesture seeing me or their reaction.

as I predicted. they do not consider me as an enemy but a creature like one of them.

I gestured thumbs up to Akasha with a wide boasting smile from me while I pointed the tunnel towards Aragorne.

She waved her hand but epic fail. She fell from one of the big trees where she was hiding.

I covered my face in extreme frustration.

I've been very serious lately. So many problems, but i forgot them when I saw her situation.

I laughed at her. because her head was in front and her legs were bent, I don't know why I suddenly laughed. She was immediately noticed by the Fallen demons so I decided to immediately pick her up again and put her back on top of the big tree.

the fallen just stared at her as if laughing. so I laughed again.

She looked at me disgusted with a flushed face.

"What's so funny?"

"ehem. nothing but look at the fallen Demons they are smiling at you."

I turned away because even fallen demons laughed.

"Hey! Demons below! What's so funny?"

I turned around because the demons were already laughing at Akasha ..

while the fun was over. I immediately returned to our situation.

Akasha is still shivering from the reactions of the demons to her ..

Erina never mentioned to me the emotion of a fallen kind. all I knew was that they were brutal.

but as I watched the fallen I noticed something strange.

their eyes seemed to be weeping.

And at this point. I wrapped the chameleon cloak este jacksonii cloak to Akasha.

She was surprised because all of a sudden on what I did because I didn’t even tell her my intention.

the fallen was no longer laughing.

their reaction was different. and the former habit is gone.

meanwhile.

I prevent Akasha from speaking or making any noise with my hand covering her mouth as we walk slowly.

Wait! why do i have to do this? while I can enter here alone.

maybe I can't leave her here alone so it would be better if she was by my side to protect her as well ..

we have already entered the large tunnel made of natural structure.

as we walked I stepped on a dry leaf.

I sweated a lot because we almost noticed by many fallen walking towards outside. And akasha seem so nervous.

we finally got into it safely. but earlier I noticed that Akasha was staring straight at me.

am I nervous or just shy.

how does it make me feel like it's not me anymore. as time goes on my beliefs in my life change.

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it can't be, I don't want this emotion anymore.

I don't want anyone to hate and laugh at me.

why.

" Do you have a problem?"

she whispered ..

" Nothing, why?"

I answered her question as if I was hesitant.

I avoid anyone noticing my emotions because I am afraid of being judge for who I am and what I am.

it started when I was very young in my previous life.

I was still in elementary school.

I can easily learn from even anything that is taught to me. I also easily understand all those things. and because of that my parents as well as our teacher were happy.

but to my knowledge many of my classmates were jealous of me so they decided to create a situation where I was their target.

because I can easy to understand everything and I was so confident in myself so that I brought what they wanted.

they wanted to make me look like a fool in the eyes of our teacher and my classmates by one word.

words ruined their character because the opposite happened. they are the ones I have embarrassed and I am so happy that I have won my battle that I will crushed anyone who wants to ruin my character.

but my teacher was angry, because it was wrong to embarrass others. I explained that they planned that. but they denied it to our teacher and said that everything I said was just a fabrication. so our teacher called my parents because of that. and since then I have had no friends and my fake classmates talked about my reaction while our teacher scolded me.

I was deeply grieved at the shame I had enjoyed. so from then on I decided to hide all my emotions even though in my heart I was hurting a lot but the result was good because they were tired of playing with my reaction to any judgment. since I met Maria all my facial reactions have returned and disappeared since she passed away. now my situation is repeating itself. I don't want this anymore.

but Akasha cut off my recollection of my past life. by tapping on my back.

"What's up. I thought there was no problem? I can see the opposite of your answers."

I almost forgot my previous life.

maybe Akasha was just pretending she was nice to me. and maybe they just plotted it to embarrass me and make fun of me.

I smiled and let go of her hand.

I saw that she was shocked when I let go of her hand that I had been holding before ..

I ignored her reaction as if wondering, but I said ..

"don't pretend anymore. I know everything you're planning on me. you want to give me to luthien to transfer his soul to this body of mine."

at this point Akasha didn't know what to say because she was shocked by what I said and also because of this the fallen seemed to feel that there were other people around so they immediately watched as well.

I could see the fear on Akasha's face as she still looked at the fallen and me as if confused by the situation. but she still answered so the fallen realized our whereabouts.

I removed the Jacksonii cloak from her body which she was so terrified of.

She can't see me anymore because of the bind connection associated with the unique ability I put on the jacksonii cloaks.

she was already crying. because of her condition.

She is also surrounded by demons. but she still struggled to defend herself despite her injury.

when all her resistance had ended in the great cut on her side.

She looked up despite her injuries. She sees many fallen who have already surrounded her and waved their weapon towards her body.

a faint sound in her voice she spoke briefly.

"help."

while all this I watched in the distance.

I realized to myself that I was a very bad person.

no matter what her plan is, it should not reach the point that she will die.

so even though I was disgusted I saved her from the brink of death before she lost consciousness.

in a part of the cave where I used earth magic to hide ourselves.

I removed her body coverings so that I could treat her.

because my body is still not stable I am not allowed to use power associated with healing magic.

fortunately and I passed the Brebarb potion shop at belva village

where they sell medicinal herbs.

my use of an element other than the life element does not affect me. the mage explained to me without a name.

just in case a part of her breast was affected so I had to remove her bra.

I was nervous because it was unconscious and then for the first time I removed a woman's bra. my hand trembled as I slowly brought it closer to her chest.

aptly I hesitated and withdrew my hand.

Akasha held my hand as it had tears in her eyes as she uttered this word as her hit points slowly decreased.

"thank you, you're a good person. if my life is the payment for what we've done to you. I'll be happy to accept it. You can't just forgive us but I hope you save Aerin. That's my only request."

She coughed up a lot of blood.

her lifeforce is dwindling.

there is no other way, even if it is dangerous for me I will gamble just to save her. this was my decision despite my stupidity.

how many times have I been in this situation. First it was Mary then Avery and now Akasha. when will I ever learn from my mistakes.

first is okay second is just right third is stupid.

I remember the feeling of using divine healing.

I succeeded healing Akasha's fatal wound but I suddenly fainted and everything around me seemed to be dancing.

before I fainted I heard a voice.

"Do you want to save them?" question in a voice similar to that of the demon lord trial of ascension.

"Yes"

the only thing I could answer before everything went blank in my memory.

and the only place where I am present is.

someone was sitting in the chair in front of me. She was looking at me and the surroundings were very white.

She watches me as if studying.

just a moment and the distance between the two of us narrowed even though I wasn't approaching.

I was asked because my situation and my previous life seemed so real that I look like what I used to be.

spoke the one sitting in the chair.

I'm certain on this voice.

"Do you really want to?"

" which?"

"I guess you're becoming forgetful. or you want me to remind you again."

"Yes! but how?"

"If you agree to an agreement, I will help you even if the cost is heavy."

"What cost?"

"My question is whether you agree to the agreement and not the cost that has nothing to do with the agreement."

"okay. but how can I agree to an agreement that I don't know yet .."

"this is the content of the agreement. I will return your body to this world and I will remove your demon core that i just given you. And rescue my angel that has not yet returned."

"what do I have to do with that and how do I get your angel back to you?"

"Defeat Divas who is hiding my angel."

"I agree but who is this Divas?"

"toinks .. you agree without you knowing .. is it right for me to entrust this very important information and power to someone like you who is selfish."

"it's all coming back to me now. I have to be selfish because no one else can help or understand me but me and nothing else. and others are just pretending. if you think I'm selfish then why do you want me? chosen now? "

"hahaha. of course, maybe you're selfish. but you helped an Elve who is on the brink of death so I think you have hope to change."

"I can't change because I'm like this."

"Just a piece of advice, let go of the resentment you harbor there in your chest and accept the people who care deeply about you."

"cares about me? are you kidding. not once does anyone care about me."

" that's what you thought."

" What do you mean.."

"Our conversation is changing and as time goes on your chances of winning with Divas diminish."

"Wait, who is Divas?"

"he is a Demon God .."

"outstanding .."

"Are you giving up already?"

"give up? the one who can make me give up hasn't been born yet hahaha.."

"then go and agree to the law of this world. until we meet again Alicia."

after she said that I returned to the current situation. though dizzy, I forced myself to approach Akasha.

She just looks asleep. thank you then.

I lay down next to Akasha and placed my hand on my chest to find out how I was feeling right now. and what exactly is the reason why I am like this.

however.

why does my chest seem to grow.

not so because it was with that woman’s given power that my chest grew. okay that would have been the case, but I noticed my arm shrank.

Shrank!!

so I got up from where i lay.

to my surprise I made ice that could be mirrored.

what is this!

This can't be happening..

why did I become a woman again.

damnit.