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Chapter 16 - Willfulness

Chapter 16 - Willfulness

The teenage girl was at a loss and unable to decipher the meaning behind Niu Chang's words.

Niu Chang calmly watched over her reaction. But when he saw that a glimmer of hope raised in the depth of the teenage girl's eyes, he was disappointed.

Having qualification didn’t mean she could be one.

‘She lacks determination.’

If not for the system, Niu Chang would already behead this teenage girl. He didn’t want to waste anymore time in this place.

If it was before he asked the teenage girl. The system wouldn’t be triggered as both parties already reach an agreement.

But now, the teenage girl already has hesitation in her heart. Killing her now, means making a karma with her.

The teenage girl didn’t know anything since she didn’t see any change in Niu Chang.

‘Since you can’t do what you want, just do it out of generosity.’ Niu Chang made up his mind.

Although the chance she became the same species as Niu Chang was very slim. Maybe one out of ten, if Niu Chang gave her some advice it will only increase to two out of ten.

“If you have any question just ask. I will help you reborn into a new person.” Niu Chang said softly with a kind smile.

“Wh- what do you want?” The teenage girl said in stutter.

“I want to give you an alternative option instead of dying in this rotten place.”

“May I ask why?"

“Because I think you can be a better person. Standing above an endless amount of people and proudly walking on this earth.”

“....”

This was the reason why Niu Chang was no longer interested in her. If she was the one, she wouldn’t bother asking such useless questions.

She would lose all normalcy and saw the world through a different lense.

“Tell me what you want in this life.” Niu Chang tried another approach.

The teenage girl opened her mouth in reflex, but didn’t utter any words. Then she closed her mouth without saying anything in the end.

“Do you want endless wealth? Do you want a warm family? Do you want to be surrounded by people you love and who love you? Do you want to not be worried about sickness and old age?”

The teenage girl thought for a moment before finally nodding.

“Then, do you think it is possible for you to have all of them?”

“Endless wealth? Will you work day and night to gather them?”

“Warm family and people? Will they stay the same after a decade? What about another decade?”

“Longevity? Can you guarantee your life from the bad intentions of others?”

“Ridiculous. All you want to be happy with mundane possession. The wealth can be stolen, the relationship can be broken, and longevity can be killed.”

“Now tell me, what do you want?”

Niu Chang thought he would use the three questions of life.

Where are you from?

What are you doing?

Where are you going?

But then he thought it was not in the way of his method. He prefers something unexpected and surprising.

Each of the questions he asked to the teenage girl was unprepared and impromptu on the spot. He, too, wanted to have some expectations.

The teenage girl then began to recall her life.

Born into a poor family. Stupid parents, egoist siblings, broken house, disgusting food, and tattered clothes. The day was hot and tiring while the night was cold and hard.

The only thing she could be proud of is her beauty was acknowledged by the whole village. But because of this, the richest man in their village wanted her to be his concubine.

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He was fat and ugly, not much different than a pig. The reason he was rich was only because of his family background.

He spent money on useless things and boasted about his wealth to other villagers.

Despite never hearing any stories, the teenage girl also dreamed about a good life. Where a handsome and kind man will find her one day and have a family together.

There was no need for a lavish lifestyle, being together in good and bad was enough for her fantasy.

But when she was captured by the bandits and had her first time with the big and brutish Yan Tan. That fantasy crumbled apart, everytime Yan Tan moved his lower body, the shattered pieces only shattered more into the finest dust.

At that moment, she no longer wanted a good life with a good husband and warm house. She only wants to be with her family.

Then it changed into wanting for a safe place.

Then it kept changing according to which bandit used her body as a pleasure reliever object.

In the end, she only wants to stop caring and have a good sleep to forget everything.

The teenage girl looked at Niu Chang. He was younger than her, shorter than her, and physically seems weaker than her.

But why did this person look more human than any people she saw in the past?

Walking among corpses, hand washed in blood, cold and indifference. But his words and demeanor were kind and warm. Such contrasting characters only increase the mystery of Niu Chang.

‘Why is he better than anyone?’

‘If he is a human… Then what are we? What am I?’

The teenage girl looked at the surroundings, she saw the ground stained with blood, the corpse cutted into pieces and the person she feared the most suffered the most painful death.

Unable to hold her curiosity, she asked after swallowing her saliva. “What are you?”

Instead of asking who Niu Chang was, she was more interested in what kind of person Niu Chang was.

Seeing Niu Chang didn’t have any change of expression. The teenage girl in fear apologized. “I’m sorry, I don’t mean to-”

“It’s okay. Since you already have questions naturally you also have your doubts. Only when doubting something can you question whether it’s true or not. So tell me, what am I?”

Standing there for a long time for this kind of conversation, Niu Chang didn’t feel too comfortable.

He looked around to find a good place to sit down and had a casual talk.

After looking left and right. He found a good spot.

A long bench made of wood just right under a tall and lush tree.

The teenage girl followed Niu Chang's gaze. She saw a slight laziness in Niu Chang’s face turned into a bad one for a moment and thought she made some mistakes.

But seeing Niu Chang was nonchalant walking towards the wooden bench, she let out a breath of relief.

“Follow me.” Niu Chang called.

Walking behind Niu Chang, she saw the small back view of Niu Chang. So small but it contains endless strength.

“Sit.” Niu Chang sat down and pointed to the place beside him.

But seeing the trembling naked teenage girl, he suddenly realized he made a mistake.

“Go find yourself some clothes first.”

After receiving permission from Niu Chang, nodded and turned around.

Seeing the naked teenage girl in the open space, the small and round butt, clear and wet back view, Niu Chang felt sad. ‘When can I have fun with women in this world? This body is still immature, waiting for it to grow naturally takes too long. I think I will create some body modification or a growth acceleration martial art. But the problem is I can’t force my way with any woman thanks to the system being strict. It's either I find myself a woman that willingly offers her body or go to a brothel.’

‘That’s one thing to do in the future though, for now just enjoy life to the fullest.’

Niu Chang was aware of his willful tendency. Although he swore to only have one goal and could discard anything just to reach that one goal, he was too inexperienced.

Just like someone who lock themselves inside the library all year long and gathered enough information and data then walked out to start their journey.

They couldn't help but be distracted by the hustle and bustle of people's lives, the myriad colors of the world and numerous encounters and separation.

That's why Niu Chang wanted to create someone that was similar to him and watched them grow to be a replacement for him and also learn from them.

Only after numerous failures and setbacks could one mind mature from seeing what's on the surface and what's hidden inside everyone's heart.

Only after countless joy and sadness could one grow tired of the mundaneness of mortal life and seek for a better and meaningful life to have.

All lives are limited by their nature. Whether it's humans, animals, and plants.

The only innate goals of life was to survive and reproduce.

Such was mortal life. They even spread the idea of life being meaningful because of the people around you.

Such a shameless claim.

If this was a world where extraordinariness was impossible, naturally Niu Chang wouldn't bother to have a grand dream of achieving supremacy.

But now there was a chance, he didn't care if it was smaller than dust. All he needed to know was that there was a chance.

To escape from meaningless life, gathering wealth, building relationships, chasing mundane happiness.

Not enough!

With time, the wealth would be lost, the relationship would be broken, and the joy would lose its meaning.

In that kind of life, what's the difference between now and then?

What's the difference between that and a pebble on the side of the road?

What's the difference between that and a pile of soil?

Meaningless, truly meaningless.

Only supremacy would last forever and the journey was worth the time and effort.