Testing. Okay, the [Mental Notation] skill actually works. Good.

My name is Jordan Fredericks, and if you’re reading this, I hope you understand (better than I do at least) what’s going on. If not, then, well… that’s why I’m writing this, I guess.

Contingencies. I’m not… great at them, if I’m honest. There’s a lot of things I’m not great at in this crappy new world.

BUT

It’s come to my attention that I may have… issues. I’m not sure how to describe them, or even their full nature. But the way people talk around me makes me think that there’s a possibility that I’m... forgetting things.

Moments that slip by in quiet silence, swallowed by a darkness I can’t comprehend. (Ugh that sounds so stupid)

I didn’t want to believe it, or even entertain the possibility really, but I… had a discussion with someone who challenged what I thought might be real or… not.

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And he was right about something very important.

Every time I talk to anyone else about what may be wrong with me, if I ask them what my ‘Condition’ is… they go quiet. They refuse to answer. Over and over and fucking over again.

The people I thought I could trust are keeping secrets from me.

Why would they do this? I don’t understand.

On top of that, I was worried that if I lost memories that I’d… just lose myself, I guess. But, surprisingly, someone I didn’t expect gave me a way to work around that.

Write it down.

It sounds so… simple, you know? So that’s what I’ll do.

If you’re reading this, and you have no idea what’s going on, then know that there’s a problem.

They’re lying to you. From the beginning they’re keeping secrets, and you are being manipulated. A puppet dancing to their tunes as you struggle just to keep your damn head above water.

There are… good things, though. Hold onto those.

But if you run across other contingency journals know that I will be sorting through my memories (best as I can) through them. It should allow me to reference my thoughts and memories quickly, so I don’t get tricked again.

I just hope it’ll be enough.

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