I was staring at the fire..... i heard screams they where the screams of despair,fear i saw them i saw my parents being burnt alive while screaming in agony telling me to run away from the house....i-i can't run... i was like glued on the ground staring at my parents....moments went by our neighbors rush in on what's happening i was very sad i want to cry but no tears are falling down my cheeks..... i always dream of an exciting unexpected life but what is this? i didn't wish my parents dying infront of me... why can't i do anything? a coward like me who can't do anything when my parents are being burnt? 

WHAT CAN I DO!?................ why is my dream so bright yet its meaning is this dark?

why?...why?..... am i asking this question too late? why? my dream is to have an exciting life with my family why did the opposite happen?  

suddenly my thoughts disapeared i was floating in the space i heard my heart beat getting faster i grabbed my chest and i cried.......

i woked up in the hospital i forgot what had happend before i saw my aunt crying that face made me remembered everything......

Earlier......

it was saturday noon i was hoping to see my friends and play with them before i left my mom kissed me and said becareful when playing and she said the last words that i heard from my mother " i love you hajime " and i went to play with my friends... hours went by my friends said that they see a fire and that they are calling their parents too so i thought i'd come to tell my parents that there's a fire but as i run the fire is getting closer and closer when i got there i froze and i heard,see things that i should'nt see for a 8-years old child like me will get traumatized, in that incident i asked myself so many questions that i can't answer i mean did my dream has different meaning?...........

my aunt was the only family i have left i don't know if my cowardness can protect her..... actually i can't..... at the age of 14 it was 1 week after my birthday i've completely locked away my emotions the only feelings i can feel is nothing..... early in the morning i woked up and head to kitchen to have breakfast there i saw blood and my aunt was lying down the floor i froze again just like the day my parents died i put myself together and approached her her eyes moved and saw me tears went falling on her eyes i saw those eyes eyes jus like my father has when was telling me to run away my aunt can't barely moved her mouth she said to me "s-shory for gnot telling you..... that i have a stroke so i wouldn't make you worried" and i said to myself.... DAMN IT WHY!? EVERYTHING MY PURPOSE IN LIFE IS GONE WHY?! IS THIS WHAT YOU WANT?! DAMN IT DAMN IT! WHAT THE F**K DO YOU WANT FROM ME?! WHY DOES EVERYONE AROUND ME DIE!? 

my aunt said " don't kill yourself..... move forward your family is gonna be behind you your parents and i will always love you hajime please don't forget those words " ...... i looked at her while crying aunt? aunt?! DON'T PLEASE!

as i was holding her, her heart beat stopped.... i screamed my despair,anger,hatred......

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.........

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2-years later....

My name is Hajime Owari a 15 years old high schooler i runned away from my past and forced myself to forget it but i could'nt.... here am i now, i have no friends im an anti-social person, i thought this is just like all the normal days but i didn't know what's about to come at this day...

"school bell rings"  

while i was walking to get home....

(screams from a distance) HELP! SOMEONE PLEASE HELP! PLEASE! STOP IT PLEASE! TAKE EVERYTHING YOU WANT PLEASE JUST STOP!

i got curious so i checked it out, what is saw is a bunch of thugs beating someone i looked somewhere and i saw my school uniform covered in blood i stand there froze and remembered my aunt...

i said to myself  " no no no im not gonna coward here and let them die there no "

i looked at my hand i was trembling from fear 

i said to myself again " i-im not anyone gonna die infront of me again "

i forced myself to save them so i did i rush to the thugs and pushed them.... i looked behind me there i saw it.... much more brutal than my aunt i could'nt stand it they where crying and and brutally beaten  i was shaking when i saw them......

someone came up to me and punched me and i got knocked out and they started beating us to death 

i was expirencing so much pain at one moment the pain started to go away i feel good 

my consciousness fades....

my vision shifted to darkness

is this how im going to die?

i've enjoyed my life...... somehow...

well it's fun while it lasted......

where am i going now?

...........

...........

(AAAAAAAAAAAA WHAT THE F*CK IS THAT)

huh? where am i 

(WHAT IS HE?!)

(I CAN'T SEE HIM DAMN IT!)

why am i suddenly hearing voices 

it's dark here....

am i in heaven? or down in hell?

(I CAN'T GET CLOSE TO HIM)

who is the person they are talking about?

w-w-wait my eyes... it's started to open 

for a moment i saw the thugs around me

it's too bright i can't see anything 

i slowly opened it and i saw those thugs again..... i closed it again and next time

i saw something very different..... i saw nature a moment passed by and i was feeling this great pain

i started throwing up blood.... i looked around it was my 2 classmates they where covered in blood that i could'nt recognize them anymore 

i tried to walk to get under a tree and sit there i decided that i would rest here so i closed my eyes when i opened them...... i was surprised because its already dark

how long was i asleep? i stand up and saw my classmates still there i checked their pulse and they were still alive

i said to my classmates " thank you that you didn't die infront of me " i cough up blood again

i was gonna bring my classmates to the nearby tree but before i could check where is the nearby tree i insted saw wolves

i said to myself " damn it now what? " the wolves i saw was almost as big as me they were four of them 

i turned back and run i decided to avoid from where is my classmates are to avoid them getting killed but i was running slow because of this beaten up state 

i was bitten in my arms and they where ripped off me 

SH-SHIT HOLY F**K AAA MY ARM SHIT I CAN'T STOP HERE NOW  i said while i was running i heard my arm became a food in one of the wolves 

i was slowing down there was a tent and a camp i collapse before i could reach it but i screamed

HELP!

some dark figure shows up and there was my vision 

ah it feels great to have the pain go away

i asked myself " did i just got myself in a life or death situation 2 times in a row? 

i asked myself again " huh looks like were playing a game here... damn you life! "