Nathaniel p.o.v

Scientist say that the earliest memories a person can remember was when they are 3 years old. But not me. People say I have photographic memory but I think Its different cause the things I remember are not possible for a normal person. Not only I remember all my childhood but I remember my entire existence. No, I am not joking, I literally mean my entire existence as in from the moment my consciousness existed.

My first memory is of floating. I didn't have a body then, neither did I have any thoughts or senses. I was just being. I don't remember how much time I floated in this nothingness but as abruptly as I became me, I now had sensations. First came the sense of touch. I could feel I was actually floating in a warm liquid. After some time came the sense of hearing. My first sound of hearing a loud Thump. I was very startled from the sudden input. After a moment the Thump came again. From then on the sound came repeatedly at intervals. It was a very soothing noise. Time passed and I could fell the space I was growing smaller or perhaps I was getting bigger. I first found out I have an actual defined body and not just a floating mass when my extremities once touched the end of my space. There was something soft but stretchy thing preventing me from moving further and that was when I found I could control feel and control my four limbs, but not voluntarily. From then on I tried to control my limbs whenever I had energy. Time continued to pass. I became too big to move much anymore so I just waited, for what I don't know. Suddenly one day the darkness slowly receded and I started to move. It was a little tight squeezing but someone continued to push or pull me.

Finally I was free to move as I like. I opened my eyes and took a long breath. And all my senses overloaded. All this time I knew only darkness. Now there was so much light and so many things I could see, so many scents flooded my nose, I could feel the cold breeze on my sensitive skin and hear the loud chatter coming from the big things surrounding me. Along with this chaos with my senses I was flooded with instinctual knowledge about everything. At once I knew everything and nothing at the same time. Like all the knowledge in the world was around the corner and I just needed something to jog my memory. I knew the concept and feeling but didn't know the meaning behind them. I knew all this people surrounding me and holding me were just like me but didn't know what or who they were. I knew that the noises were them communicating with each other but I didn't understand a single word. Amidst all of this knowledge and experience frying my brain one of them slapped me hard on my back and felling pain for the first time I did what my instinct told me to, I opened my mouth and started to cry so loud something came out of my eye. This noise coming from those people to increase so I shut my mouth.

The one holding me gave to some one else. As the held me I got the felling that they were mine and they loved me, whatever love was. Then I was moved and something came close to my mouth. I got a whiff of something pleasant and there was a tug in my middle. I understood I was hungry and I needed the thing where the smell came from. So I again followed my instincts and opened my mouth and sucked whatever it was. A warm spray of liquid flooded my mouth and I got another sense. The sense of taste. The liquid was delicious and I started sucking with my full force. After I felt my middle was full and no more tugging came I released the thing form my mouth and got surrounded by something warm and comforting. My body started feeling weak and the darkness started coming again. I didn't want to go to the darkness again, this was better but the darkness still came and this time my consciousness faded with it.

I didn't know how much time I was in the darkness but as my conscious returned I felt that I wasn't floating again but lying on something soft. I understood that I was sleeping and that this was my body taking rest after being able to do those things. I again felt the tug in my middle so I opened my mouth again expecting the warm liquid but nothing came. So I opened my eyes and saw light everywhere. After I got used to all my senses a little I saw that I was lying somewhere else and there was no one here. So I again opened my mouth and tried to make noise like they were making but it didn't seem to work. So I took a big breath and this time screamed like the first time I was hit. Well that got their attention because soon someone came and I got my favorite liquid. After getting my fill I again felt myself getting heavy and the darkness approaching so this time I didn't try to fight I and got embraced it falling asleep. This seemed to become a routine, I would wake up, start to cry, someone would come and feed me and I would fall asleep again most times. The times I would not fall sleep immediately I watched. I saw that all the people who came here looked different and so I could recognize all their faces and scents. That is something else unique to everyone and everything. Even the place where I sleep has a different though somewhat similar to me. Among all the different faces I recognized two, both of them I get the feeling are mine, one who always feeds me and another who always hugs me and throws me up. I like the sensation of floating but without the darkness. They come to me the most and always seem happy. Though I still cant understand those voices.

After watching people the next best thing is watching things. Though that is something I can't do by my own. I can move my hands and legs just fine but my head is too heavy to move. So I mostly I just lie there and watch whichever direction my head is placed. But sometimes the people come and carry me and I got to see all around the place. There were so many shapes and sizes, so many colors, and so many smells that though I didn't know what any of those things were I liked them very much. This was my daily routine.

One day, I was lying facing the place all the people came from, a new person came to my place. He didn't look like the normal people I see every day and I couldn't even see his face. As he got closer to me I got his smell. It was not at all familiar and I got the feeling that he didn't like me and would cause me pain. So I started crying, so that someone else will come and take him away. Seeing me crying he quickened his steps his steps and as he was going to pick me up someone else came in. As soon as they saw each other the new person started shouting and the place was filled with many more people. There were some flashes of light and some more screaming and then silence. Most of the people left my place leaving just a few, one of them the one who feeds me. They didn't leave me alone that day or the next day till I fell asleep.

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When I woke up again I realized I was no longer lying in the same place anymore. The place was constantly bouncing and opening my eyes I saw that we were in a new place and this time moving too because I could see outside, where they were so many new things to see, new colors, new scents, new sounds. Some things were moving alongside us too and above them were more people. I was having a blast seeing all these new things. But inspite of all these things I knew something was off. Those two people who always have a felling of happiness around me, today I also felt they were worried. Though what and why is worried I didn't know so I kept quiet most of the time. When I saw big bright thing above slowly moving down and the light became less, I became hungry again and then I fell asleep all the while the place kept moving and jumping.

I knew when we stopped moving because the place stopped bouncing. There were some noises and then I was being carried away somewhere. I was in a half dream state due to all this jostling and just opened my eyes once to see we were again inside and then I fell asleep again.

I woke up this time not because of my own needs but due to the shouts and screams coming from outside. They were so loud I think everyone in this place must have heard it. I was going to join the cacophony of noises outside when the one who feeds me came running inside my place followed by the other one. But both were different that normal. One was sad and crying while the other was angry, very angry carrying something big and shiny in his hands. But though it looked very beautiful and shiny I knew that it was used for nothing good. They talked with eachother though too loudly for my liking. Then one finally shouted something and the other one picked me up and they both started running. I was asleep when we came here that I didn't realize that this place was so big. And so many people were here that saw when we were passing though there seemed to be two groups wearing same colors and all the people were what I understood fighting the other group.

We ran for some time turning here and there some running with us or running behind us and whenever two groups met they would stop and fight. We finally stopped inside a big place with a very big person was standing with open arms though not moving from its place or moving at all and of a different color that what I normally see around me. Everyone other that the one carrying me exited the place and I was placed in front of the big unmoving person on the hard surface. Then the person sat beside me clasped hands, closed eyes and started muttering something fast. So it was no shock to me when another one entered the place and being directly behind the one beside me and no one saw it. But the new one quickly got attention when he was followed by another person and there was a loud scream which abruptly cut off by a gurgle and the silence once again, though the only reaction he got was more faster muttering. As he advanced and came fully in my field of vision, I saw he was wearing the dark groups color and holding the same shiny but dangerous thing in his hand. His face was covered but I could see his eyes and that was enough for me to understand a few things. This person was BAD. And he would harm me and mine, and he would enjoy very much while doing so. That was the first time I felt angry. No one harms what is mine. My eyes started stinging, then they hurt so much I closed my eyes but it still stung. Then suddenly there was a shift in the air, the pain intensified for a brief moment they cut off completely and I roared. Not the roar of a baby but the roar of a dragon and the whole place shook.

I opened my eyes and saw everything the same other that the fact that everywhere instead of empty air there was something else floating. It was same color everywhere but it was light enough that you could see everything else easily and it was in surrounding the one beside me in large amount. I understood that this thing is power, it will listen to me and do everything I tell it to do. So I looked at the bad man in the eye, and imagined poking him there hard with all my baby concentration. I know that is a place which hurts very much because I once accidentally poked myself in the eye and it hurt very much and couldn't open it for a long time. So when there was a flare of light that moved very fast towards its eye I was very happy when he started screaming and shouting. But still this didn't deter him for long and he again started advancing faster this time with only one eye open and the other black will something dripping from it. As soon as I thought about poking him in the other eye my head felt like it would split open and I started crying. I had to watch with tear filled eyes as the Bad person came running behind the one beside me and put the thing he was holding through the other person. The one beside me screamed with agonising pain and slumped forward when he took the thing out of this one. The one beside me kissed me on my forehead one last time, muttering something loudly and then fell sideways. I watched as the bad person become filled with joy, and the colorful thing floating before quickly form around and above me. Then I felt the air being pulled above and then slowly my whole body was being pulled. I felt like my whole body was being dissolved in the air and pulled to someplace else. My last sight before a bright flash of light was the look of anger and despair on the bad persons face when he understood something was wrong.

As my vision returned from the bright light I saw that there was nothing familiar with this place other than the color floating in the air and that too was lot less than what I saw before and there was no light anywhere. I suddenly got picked up by someone. This one looked nothing like the ones I have seen before but his eyes held a warmth like the one who used to feed me. Then I remembered what happened few moments ago, how she had fallen still and knew that was no sleep but something much more permanent. Thinking about the fact that that I will never get to see or hear that person again, neither feel the sweet milk, I felt a pain in my chest I didn't know could pain. Tears came in my eyes and I started to cry. Then the person holding me put something on my neck and I fell that comforting presence when my favorite person hugged me. My eyes closed automatically and the last thought before I fell asleep is perhaps That person is still with me.