Gorgo is not a very good teacher...
I am not a very good student
Ever since those universes disappeared... my mind was clearer, I felt amazing...but Gorgo is making me feel a little bad about my abilities...
""This isn't working.""
We had been working on ideas for this 'heaven', but it was more of a one-sided throw of ideas from Gorgo... I was a bit argumentative about the whole thing.
My father never made a heaven...
But Gorgo insisted on it, and I kinda look up to him... so what harm could it do?
LOTS OF HARM!!!!
NOOOOOOOOO!
"so... incompetent"
Ouch
"What a fluke it was for you to access the Otz room...."
Please... no... more.
If I never agreed to have this heaven built... Gorgo probably would have never seen such a horrible side of me, when he said we would now build a heaven, I really hoped he would do a lot of the work.... but he said he wouldn't do a thing until I made the realm for it!
WAIT!!!!!
The Staff!
I can just declare a realm with it!
"Let's go over this again? It always helps me to visualize a repeating pattern, it can be anything really. After you have done that, make thousands of the same pattern in your min-"
"I have an idea!"
Gorgo looked like he was about to cry, but also seemed to be very happy.
"You...you finally understand!!!!"
He looked so proud.... but...
"Nope"
He now was looking at me with pity? why does he look so disappointed! Someone save me!
"But I remember that I can declare things, with a certain item."
That seemed to have grabbed his attention, time to amaze him with my skills
I focus on my father's soul... I am now back inside of the 'otz' room, I look around... and there are barely any souls left. Only around 20... and my father's soul... has shrunk so much only the size of maybe 10 souls that weren't weak.
I reach out to touch it, but I was stopped... by Gorgo.
"Now, Now... Let's not be hasty Gaia"
"Bu-"
"You really shouldn't go digging around in other people's souls, it can weaken them quite a bit!"
He looks really serious now
But how am I suppose to get the staff?
"But how else will I be able to declare things?"
"Declare? Could you explain what exactly you are trying to do."
"When my father destined me to inherit his power, he used a rod... he pulled it out of a black portal... and I thought if I touched his soul, I could open up the white portal again... and well get the rod out... to help us work faster!"
Gorgo let go of me and immediately slammed his palm into his face...
"You almost erased him! Tell me Gaia, what happened earlier when you touched that spark of a soul?"
Oh...
"It disappeared.... is there a safe way to get the rod?"
"I'm not sure why you're asking me.... you are God... just create one yourself"
How can I create something like that?
I can't even create a realm...
the only thing I have been able to create is a ground...
Although I did do that in a weakened state
My brainstorming session is cut short by Gorgo
"Its a bit disrespectful to remain here, let us return"
I focus on my soul, and I am brought back into his hell
Although I am still out of my body... I can see my soul.... and Gorgos... my soul is a lot bigger then it was before, but so is Gorgo's.... his is still growing. If I had to give an estimate I would say that my soul is about 9 times bigger then Gorgo... but before it was like 100 times bigger.
My soul isn't shrinking though?
But his soul is definitely getting a lot bigger over time?
As expected of Gorgo, able to expand his soul from a mere spark...
I should get him to teach me how to make mine stronger
But that seems unnecessary
Gorgo turned his head and is looking at me
"Umm..."
He starts chuckling.... he's so mean sometimes
He is now right by me, but both of our bodies are still there... and so are our souls.
"You don't know how to get back into your body without using the power of a soul?"
"...no?"
"-sigh-"
"I need to start from the basics then"
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It has been a pretty long time, trust me. But I still am not inside of my body.... while I could get there by touching my soul...I would rather not weaken myself. Although I can't really find much of a difference between being in my body and being outside of it. There doesn't seem really be a benefit to being inside of it either way, but Gorgo has been 'correcting' my process of doing things.
"Your problem is your trying to feel how to do things when instead you should be programming how to do them. You are God, you do not need to try to adhere to any preset rules from your ancestors... this 'declaring' you speak of is nonsense, nothing but a mental barrier you have set for yourself, you have no need for a silly rod.... you're God"
"When you have a feeling try assigning a word to it, with those keywords... you won't need to feel around for sensations like a blind man, then we may actually get some work done."
I can't really say anything in my brain clicked from what he said, I will try to do that... but I can't exactly replicate some of those feelings I had... my searching for someone seems to be the easiest thing that I can trigger, trying to remake the feeling I had when I felt like I was everything.... seems impossible... it's probably just because there isn't much of anything right now though.
Stolen novel; please report.
"I will leave you alone here, come get me when you're done with your training"
With a snap of his fingers a purple portal opened up, and he throws my body into it. He then looked at me and before I realized it... I was back inside of the Otz Room.
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I can't say Gorgo has taught me much, but I now see the value of this... programming. I have spent my time in the Otz room going over every experience and memory I could muster. I then assigned certain words that I use inside of my head to kinda ignite the feeling automatically... its a lot easier actually then what I was previously doing. So far I have:
Avatar: My consciousness leaves my body and finds the soul of the person I am looking for, wherever they are located.
This was the easiest to assign, and also the thing that I was best at... I kinda got a feeling of half falling and then disorientation from changing views so rapidly, so I remembered that feeling and named it 'Avatar' since a sort of spirit that looks like me is also there, by saying it again... I return back into my body. Gorgo seems to be able to do this as well.
Observe: Focus on where or who, and view what is happening in that area.
When I was bored I use to peak in on Gorgo, to see what he was up to.... my consciousness never left my body, but I could still see what he was doing. It was like watching it in transparency, over what I am currently seeing (which is almost nothing at the time, since I was in an empty white nothingness)
This wasn't too hard to assign either, it felt kinda like moving where your eyes are looking... but they aren't restricted by your body.
Create: Bring objects from your mind into existence.
This is where it starts to get a little weird, I remembered the time when I created a ground in the void to smash my head on... for reasons. All I felt then was disappointment, but I realized while feeling that... I was able to will other things into existence (I tried the golden rod... it WORKED! But declarations did nothing, so it is a...disappointment)
When I want to use it, I simply say 'create' in my mind while visualizing what I'm trying to create... hopefully it doesn't bring me disappointment *cough*
Although I still haven't been able to make a universe, galaxy, realm, or planet... I think I just need more guidance from Gorgo... I haven't really 'seen' those things.... it is very hard to visualize something you haven't seen before. Although I was able to create the black portal! but my hand went right through the other side of it...
Things don't seem to retain their functions when I make them
Perhaps I need to have a lot of knowledge about how it works?
I hope one day Gorgo teaches me magic.
I... wonder what my genome would look like!
Erase: Remove the existence of the entity being observed.
I had the most trouble with this one, no matter how much I tried to think of a time I erased something... I just could never find that 'feeling' but then something clicked. the time I clashed the white portal of Gorgo and my father. While I was blown to pieces... I felt amazing... so that was the feeling I focused on.... me feeling like a burden was lifted off of my shoulders like I let go of something... that is what I feel when I use 'erase'. I normally have to use Observe first, while looking at the thing I'm trying to erase... I then simply say erase inside of my head. I also tried to think back to the time I put my hands around a weakened soul which then disappeared, but I don't think I felt anything then.
I simply try to let go of the burden of the thing I created.
The most important thing I think would have to be 'create', but I feel like I don't use it to the best of its potential... while Gorgo is amazing at it... I wonder what keywords he uses for his 'program'.
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I was planning on returning to tell Gorgo of my progress, I'm sure he would be happy! But I got a little sidetracked...
Creating things is far too fun, I have been messing with the Otz room quite a bit. Shrinking the room... changing its shape, I feel like I get closer and closer to being able to create my realm... I'm just lacking something...
I created almost a hundred thousand golden rods... but none of them worked... eventually giving up. I moved on to humans, Its actually hard to find out everything I know.... when I was born, I never had to learn anything... I had a huge mountain of knowledge given to me at the start... every now and then I am even surprised by what I know... If only I had some sort of perfect recall. I kinda have an idea of what humans will look like, I will make them in my image... I feel like this is right, I hope Gorgo won't mind.... he is human.... so he may think I'm insulting him or something... but he doesn't look human... to me.
create
The first human I make looks just like me, although he's just standing there...
oh no... he's like my father.
But the human just stood there with his eyes open... he didn't even blink...
As expected, he is not functional... I suppose I need to understand more about humans...
Avatar
Brought out of the white room instantly, now back into my body, something about all of it feels off. I suppose I am still getting used to using these keywords, it just felt... kinda unnatural.
Out of the Otz Room... Into this white nothingness...
Well... time to experiment!
I have grown quite fond of this space in my time spent here, but it feels extremely empty.... and infinite... going off of Gorgos example I visualize the opposite of the black throne he was originally using, and create a ceiling and floor for this space I have grown attached to. I have no idea what material they are made out of... but it is extremely bright and white, and has a sort of smoke coming off of it.... but the smoke looks kinda white as well... too much white. I then imagine black squares everywhere.... and I love the look it gives... I create a pattern of white squares and black squares as far as the eye can see... it kinda gives me a headache.
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I erased the ceiling and floor... it felt limiting, now all you see is endless patterns of black and white squares, and swirls, it almost looks like there are portals everywhere... I'm surrounded by these patterns, they trick my eyes... it's everywhere... I can't believe I did all of this... I begin to fly through all of it as fast as I can... and it feels amazing, It looks like everything is an infinitely large web.... and I'm just smashing right through it... I lose myself in it.
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Still floating around faster than light, I'm snapped out of my trance by Gorgo. I come to a stop. Everything is spinning... I feel incredibly sick...
Erase
I feel all of the patterns I made disappear, and my head begins to feel better... I had kinda zoned out.... and was making more of them as I flew through space... I feel different now.
Observe
I see Gorgo in his realm... with his eyes shining... I feel something different about him... wait.
He has created a universe....how interesting.
Observe
What is this?
Where are the people?
Isn't this just a web?
What I see is surprisingly similar to what I was seeing when I was flying through my patterns... Gorgo speaks inside of my head.
"You make me proud Gaia, So I thought I would give you a few pointers..... look closer"
Was he watching me fly through those patterns earlier? How embarrassing...
I begin to Focus on the webs... as I get closer I begin to feel sick... I'm not sure why... its almost as if I can not even comprehend what I am seeing...
Breaking out of the observe... I think using an avatar would be better.... trying to view the universe is still too much for me it would seem.
I focus on his universe, hoping that a soul is somewhere in there.
Avatar
This.... is easier to digest. I do not feel sick when I look around. I see souls.... but more importantly, I see people. These humans look similar to Gorgo.... but they also look far more advanced then they should be.... there was a big dome of stone surrounding the place. and the humans had lights around that contained bugs... with trees and plants everywhere... farms, buildings, schools. This was more then I expected.
"I gave them a bit of a headstart, I'm not an asshole like a certain god"
"Sup Gaia"
He says as he appears right next to me.
"Apparently a stone wall, why do they look like you?"
"Well... I am the only human here"
He points at himself and laughs.
"Also you were taking awhile building your realm, so I decided to make a universe... it was a lot harder than the last time I did it.... don't worry though I didn't leave any weird comments in their genome!"
He does a little wink
People begin to look at us and talk amongst themselves
Genome huh?
I guess maybe that's what my human needed...
Also maybe a soul
Yea... on second thought... probably a soul.
One of the humans fly up to Gorgo and speaks
"Thank you for blessing us with your appearance Oh Great One! Who is this man right here? He looks a bit weird"
I'm the weird one!?
"Just a friend, we have some business to attend to... I am helping him with a little project"
The human nods as if he understands... but then speaks.
"I hope I am not being disrespectful, but may I suggest something?"
Gorgo then says
"Go ahead"
"If your friend is trying to fix his skin condition, he should try to get his skin a bit redder... and more metallic."
You guys are the ones that are odd!
Gorgo laughs a bit, and tells the man it is fine... it is a different project. I grab Gorgo and pull him a little ways away.
"Is it alright if I have my father reincarnated here?"
"No"
"Why not!?"
"He would probably find this place incredibly boring, I am not a horrible god... my people don't go through shit here"
"Ahh, alright"
I guess my father will need to wait.
Although I don't think I will be a horrible god either...
My people just will find me less boring!
Who needs peace and prosperity!
Gorgo looks at me seriously and says
"I don't want you to spend too much time here, it'll mess up your training... I want you to look around my universe, it may help you create a realm"
Fuck that! I'm exploring the hell out of this place!
I then respond with...
"Very well, although I will look around a bit... I could use the inspiration."
Gorgo responds with
"I mean it! besides we will need a heaven to send the souls that lived lives with honesty and integrity... we only have a few thousand years, before people start dying from old age..."
Do humans live that long?!!!!!!!
And to think... I probably would have made the average lifespan like 30 years....
"Ugh- fine... just let me get some ideas from these humans first...."
"You've got a 100 years.... then I'll kick you out..."
Gorgo looks at me like he expects me to pay rent or something....
"A hundred years... that's not nearly enough time...."
"I don't want you to try to copy my world! also we really need a heaven... even I can't stop the greedy nature of some people.... some will still try to steal and kill... I want to reward my people properly"
"Also we can share souls....so people that die in my worlds can be reincarnated in your world and so on"
"That sounds interesting...will they keep their memories?"
He grins and says
"Only a few"
While winking again.
I wave at him and return to the human that greeted us.
His name is Owtz Eerth... he seems to be the person in charge of this underground 'city'.
I make a mental note to make a program for inspecting people... although I seem to do it easily enough, I should try to be more like Gorgo... he is amazing.
This should be interesting