Do you think reincarnation is good? Do you think being reborn into another life will actually help you if you think you did nothing good in this life? I don't! If you really think that you will get a better life just by dying why don't you try? You are scared aren't you? Don't worry…everyone is scared of death.

„Are you alright?“

„I am alright,why do you ask?“ I answer. I am really alright,why does almost everyone around me worry about me?

„Are you sure you are alright?“

„Why do you keep asking me that?“ I asked. Actually…with who am I talking?

„ I keep asking because you look confused,irritated and scared…all at the same time.“

„Why do you think that is true?“ I asked.

„Why? Isn't it?“ Well…true it is. I wonder…

„ Actually…nothing. I wonder who you might be though. Can I ask you for your name?“ I wonder with who I am actually talking. I don't see anyone infront of me. Actually how am I talking? I am supposed to be in class.

„No one important. I still think that you should get rid of that face,you look pretty ugly. What's bothering you?“ Why does it keep asking questions and not answering them?

„How should I?“

„Think about your family,friends and loved ones that should make you feel relaxed! Right?“

„You are not wrong. Thank you…“ After that a long silence came.

I was still in the middle of class. Weird I can't hear the voice at all anymore. Well who cares, atleast I can prove I am not crazy anymore if someone asks me.

„Are you still at school? Weird… I thought it finished…“ I heard the voice once again. Why is it asking me these stuff.

„Right…I am.“

„Too bad…“ Why? Why is it too bad? What does this voice want to do with me? Now that I think about it this might be God or something like that. Or just my imagination taking over once again…

„Then…I'll talk to you when class finishes alright?“ I am confused but it seems that I will need to play along.

„Wait 20 minutes then…“

….20 minutes later

„Hey,Yama you going home right away?“ I heard my classmate's voice. Good thing the voice didn't interupt.

„Ah,I will go straight home. Wanna come with me?“ I nodded and said.

„No I am just asking. I actually have club practice in about 20 minutes. I am responsible for drinks today.“ So that's why. Wait…in what club is he again? I will ask him.

„Which club did you join again? Sorry I forgot,hehe.“ I scratched my head for some time trying to remember. Was it the basketball club? No,no he isn't good in sports. I wonder which club is it.

„The supernatural research club! How could you forget?“ He said. Supernatural he says. I wonder what they do in that club.

„What do you guys actually do in that club? I thought that club was just for joking. Never thought you would actually be doing something serious.“ I said with a curious tone. I truly wonder.

„ What is with you today? You seem weird. Why are you asking so much questions?“ Shit,I am acting like that voice earlier. No can do!

„ Ah,sorry,sorry I think I might be a bit sick.“ I lied.

„Sick? Then better get going home. I will go with you half way. I still have to buy those drinks.“

„Might aswell…“ I got up,packed my stuff and went home. The so said classmate also left when he bought drinks. So now I am alone again.

I finally got home. I greeted my little brothers and mother and went into my room. My little brothers are pretty good mannered,different than me. I am just lazy,I think about various things and never get one done.

One is ten years old and the other one is twelve. I am seventeen by the way. I am going to a nearby local highschool. I don't have any ambitions or dreams. All I want is a laid back life in my room. I don't care about love aswell. Who needs love when you get this kind of life. You can just go out if you don't like it.

„Hey,hey brother Yama!“ I heard the younger brother Jin call me. I wonder what he needs.

„What is it? Don't bother me with useless talk.“ I asnwered.

He entered my room. I didn't say you could enter though. Well… It would feel pretty weird talking through the door. Good thinking little bro! I gave a thumbs up.

„Why a thumbs up brother?“

„Huh? Ah,nothing nothing. What is it that you wanted to talk about?“ I sat in a cross legged position on my desk chair and asked.

„It's about my homework. Could you help me please?“ What is that all? I thought it might be about a girl so I can ruin him that. I could help him but I don't have time. I didn't hear that voice ever since that time in class. I won't risk it.

„Sorry I don't have time. I need to work on something.“ I just said straightforwardly. I don't care about my family. Maybe only about mother. I feel bad when I think how father left her when this little guy was born. I wonder why he left though… He really is an asshole. He left us so mother had to take care of us.

„Oh…is that so. Then nothing big brother.“

„Sorry about that.“

„No,no it's not really hard. I just wanted to spend a bit more time with you.“ What a nice kid. I wonder if I was born with such good manners would I still be the same?

„I am truly sorry Jin!“ I wanted to kneel but I couldn't do that. It would be too embarrassing. So I just got up and bowed.

„Why are you bowing big brother?“ Jin tilted his head in confusion.

„Huh? No particular reason. I am just sorry for everything.“ I just apologized. Why am I doing this for? Do I feel guilty? I couldn't spend much time with him or Kino,the older brother, after father left. I only focused on my studies. But at one time I just lost the will to do so…

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I could see that my sight was going blurry…was I crying? No way, I, the emotionless bastard that didn't even care about his family after father left is crying. It would be better if Jin doesn't see this.

„Can you leave now?“ I asked.

„Y-yes.“ I heard him leave. Good,he didn't see me crying. I…what will I do with my life? I just want to make my family happy…but I am lazy,I dropped my studies last year and there's no way I can do anything right now.

„So…what now?“ I said out loud. I closed the door when Jin left so nobody can hear me…

„You are finally alone? Yes!!“ I could hear the voice once again. I wanted to go to sleep. Why does it appear only when I try to do something.

„You came back…“

„Yeah,yeah. Now to continue our talk.“ I heard the voice. It sounds like a machine,but it feels like a girl's voice aswell. How can I be sure this isn't a prank? I don't know for sure…

„What do you want already!? I got no time to be fooling around.“

„Aren't we a bit angry…Well,that's what I like about you,that's the reason I picked you.“

„Picked me?“ The voice is telling me some weird stuff. It can stop with that. I won't fall for this. The people who tried to prank me can go die. Wait…actually the voice is not asking questions anymore. What's going on now? I want to know!

„Yes,yes picked you.“

„I want you to stop this already. I won't fall for any tricks.“

„Tricks?“

„Yes, I mean this prank,now tell me…who is it that made you do this,actually how are you doing this at all?“ I am done with this. I just want to make my family happy.

„I don't know what do you mean but you seem different than before. Has something happened?“

„What!? You…spied on me?“ How can it be? I didn't even notice one thing.

„Oops…“ It seems the voice couldn't say that to me. It still said it…such careless attitude.

„What is it with that 'Oops', you just confirmed my theory. Now who are you?“ I asked with a bit louder voice.

„I can't tell…but whatever…You will have to die anyway now that you found out about the fact that we spied on you….“ We? Wait! That's not important…Die?! The fuck don't mess with me!!

„Don't mess with me!! I can't die now. I still have my family.My little brothers,mother!!“ I am actually scared right now. What does it mean that it will kill me? It can't be true. It just can't …I mean I don't want to see Jin and Kino sad. Even more so,mother.

„Like I care! Die already. Just so nobody researches your body I will make you die from natural causes…Let's see….a heart attack seems good. Good,I decided.“

„Wait,wait,I won't tell anyone just don't kill me!!“ I tried to stop the voice that changed its tone for some reason. It sounded more ominous now. *gulp*

„Like I care again! Die now!“ The voice said that and I felt a numbing pain in my arms…then my chest…and my vision went blank.

Shit…I died didn't I. This right now is what I talked about earlier. Reincarnation won't help you at all. It will give you the same fate everytime. There's no way to change it…Well…I hope my father in the next life doesn't leave mother. I still want to return to my original family. I wonder if that is possible?

I could sense something touching me. It is wet…is this water? No…I don't know what it is but it can't be water. Water doesn't smell at all. This smells like…Blood!

W-why A-am I covered in blood? I still can't see anything but I could hear something. I could hear some voices talking.

„Dear…We won't be able to live any longer. Let's atleast protect him…his little sister and brother died when they were born.He was lucky to survive in these times. It's just that we can't feed him with our money. Let's just try to protect him. He will surely take revenge for us.“

Revenge? Dear? Could these voices be my parents in this life? Am I still a baby so I can't open my eyes? But still…why do I smell blood? As I thought…the fate of a person can't be changed even in a new life. I will probably live in even more despair now. Fuck this…I can't accept this.

„Sorry…but we couldn't even name him when he was born…let's atleast name him now.“

„Name him *cough* you say *cough* *cough*“ I heard the female voice coughing badly. Atleast you stay alive…

„Yeah…name him…Let's see…“

„Look at him…he is so peacefully lying there covered in blood. I decided let's name him Yama,his last name shall be also changed. Red,sound good right. *cough* *cough*“

Mother…Why do I feel so much pain. I don't even remember much about this mother. Actually…I still have a feeling that I might know them though…

„Yama Red…It's…a good name. A simple name for a simple boy.“

*cough*

„Dear,are you alright. Stay alive just a bit more. We will let this boy live a normal life from now on. Our deaths will no be in vain.“

Come on old man. No,I mean father. Don't say such things. I can already tell that mother is dead. Just leave me alone!!

„Sorry,Yama.My boy…Please listen to my selfish request and don't seek revenge…Please…“

Those are the last words I heard. My new life after reincarnation…is still a miserable tragedy filled with despair. Atleast I am alive. But…my parents aren't,even my little siblings that died right after they were born. What bad luck. If I ever get the chance to get back to my old life I won't even hesitate.

I will definitely come back. I promise…

With that my new life in the world full of war and despair starts…Wish me good luck…