Black...

Everything around me is pitch black and I can't feel anything...

Hand, leg, head, neck or even fingers.

Cold, hot, hunger, thirst, pain, sickness, happiness or sadness.

I can't feel any of them.

But, I can feel just one thing...

It was a lonely feeling. I don't regret my actions but i'd still like to go to those places again.

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My name is Shirahara Hibari. Just normal male high school freshman. Well maybe I am not normal. One of the things that make me not normal is the fact I am an orphan. 

I don't remember my parents face. Orphanage director said that I was found in front of the orphanage when I was still a baby, along with some money and a letter. 

That letter contained an apology. Even so if you feel bad, then don't abandon your own children.

But I am don't have any complain, because everyone at the orphanage are good people and I consider them as my family.

But, somehow I am feeling lack of something and this is fact that I am not normal. My perception and instincts are somehow sharper than others, but even with them I can't do anything beyond average. 

It was normal thing that you can't do any activity beyond normal people without talent. But even those without it still can improve them with hard work in long period of time. Even if they can't surpass talented people, they can go near them.

But I can't do that no matter what I do. Working hard for with many years is still meaningless, I can only do things halfway like I am restricted by something.

Even so I don't give up and do many different things. Study, art, sports, martial arts and many other things. 

In the beginning, I am able to do it faster than other people. But that growth stops like hitting a very huge wall that no matter what can't be surpassed.

Another things is that I hardly have any facial emotions. I still can show them when I am very happy or very sad. 

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Furthermore I can hardly find anything that can moved my emotion, but in exchange I am have high adaption ability.

If any abnormal thing occurred around me, I am always able to think calmly.

But it changed today.

Right now my face is different from my usually expressionless one. My mind is blank and my vision is red. It was an emotion called anger.

What I saw was Karin, one of the orphanage children that was brought in a back alley and nearly raped by thugs.

After seeing that I immediately rushed into them and attacked those thugs in rage.

Suprisingly my body was faster and stronger than before. 

And before I realized, I stood in front of the pile of bodies and Karin had already run away from this place.

Unfortunately, because my mind was still hazy after the fight and I was glad she was alright, I haven't realized one of them hidden or rather not in here in first place when I was attacking those thugs.

The last thug stabbed me with a knife from behind and damaged one of my internal organs.

After that I heard Karin's scream and voices of several people, Maybe she called another people for a help or police into this place.

Ah... my vision was getting darker, I know that this mean I am close to death. I have many thing I wanted to do, but I don't have any regret because I could saved Karin, one of my family members.

At least my boring days without able to master anything were finished, with a good ending of saving my family member in exchange for my live.

But...

If I'd have a second chance, I would want to live like normal person. Being able to do things I wanted, without being stopped halfway. I wanted to complete things I wanted and have that proud feeling for achieving it.

And I wish police do thing correctly to avoid another thugs attacking people or raping any girl.

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Hm?

Somehow I could see a light.

Unconsciously, I rushed to that light even though I couldn't feel anything about my body.

I don't know how, but I finally reached it.

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Eh? I can feel my own body again but it somehow feels a bit numb.

After waiting several minutes I could open my eyes and slowly my vision was back.

Ah, somehow I can move my legs and arms. But somehow they is feel smaller than before.

But what I saw around me was unfamiliar scenery of dense forest. Adding to that the fact my hands were small and delicate like child or girl. And the fact absent for "thing" between my leg.

"Eh?"

What came out when I spoke was a very cute, high-pitched voice.

Because of too many abnormal situation my brain is froze. Even with my adaption this situation is very abnormal, more abnormal than criminal suddenly reporting himself to the police.

After several minute panicked, I calmed a bit. For now I must search for something to confirm my appearance. Luckily there was a huge lake with very clean water nearby.

What I saw was little girl around 10 years old with long black hair that reached her waist with really cute face. Both her eyes had different colours, right one was golden while left one is red like a blood.

She was dressed is blue colored yukata with white colored flower pattern and short skirt. She wearing boots instead of geta(footwear that Japanese people wearing with yukata).

She will definitely become very beautiful when she became an adult. And unfortunately that girl was me.

What's going tp happen to me for now on?