I’ve been working subtly on Holly for almost a month now, every chance I get to make eye contact I take. I am working on her slowly and carefully, easing her into things as it were. I actually find this process far more difficult than simply overwhelming a mortal with a single glance, but I value Holly and do not wish to ruin her. Thus things are progressing very slowly.

The good news is that my slower method has removed the spurts of madness and gibbering that overexposure to my true essence seems to cause in mortals. Holly is fine and fully functional now, gone are the bouts of occasional lunacy as she takes care of me. It is a bit frustrating at times that things most progress so slowly, but I would need test subjects to find any sort of ideal method of conversion since I refuse to risk Holly.

I have also met Holly’s newborn daughter, I find the baby largely unimpressive. I guess it holds value to Holly as it is her offspring, but to me the baby seems to just cry and defecate. The baby is very poor company and many times I am forced to share a crib with it.

I must also confess that I am beginning to become dissatisfied with my current form. I share many of the faults that I see in Holly’s offspring, and that is beyond my control. I dislike having to be so reliant on others, and my current powerlessness frustrates me to no end. I wish to age my body quickly and be free to take my own independent actions, and not simply remain in the arms of others or in my crib. This lack of freedom is beginning to remind me of my time in the void, and that is unacceptable.

I think a lot of my current discontentment with the situation is stemming from my current mindset and mentality. I am an ageless being with eons of experience and thought, yet I am forced to act as something I am not. My mind and body are too misaligned, and as such I am beginning to become frustrated by my situation. As I cannot change my body I will simply have to alter my mind, though I will leave something of an imprint of my current state within the new mind I create for myself. This imprint should help to act as a guide when needed, and should also allow the knowledge I possess to carry over without poisoning the new mind with eons of experiences and memories.

It is an exciting step for me, it will be like a total rebirth of sorts. I shall have a totally new body and a totally new mind with which to experience a totally new world. it shall also allow the events I set in motion to be fresh for the new me, a surprise I wasn’t expecting gifted to me by myself. Yes, I quite like the idea of that.

I also look forward to what I shall become…

***

I floated in a familiar fog. It was heavy and reflected both light and darkness. It was a place that felt both comfortable and confining, like a padded cage made just for me.

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Within the depths of the fog I could make out the outline of a massive form. It had many limbs, and many glowing eyes that all seemed to focus on me. As I looked at that form I felt that it too was familiar.

“Lux Et Umbra, you cast yourself aside so quickly? I thought our goal was to experience something novel, not to wipe away our Experiences…”

I couldn’t help but get the feeling that I was talking to myself, yet the voice I heard was distinctly feminine whereas I knew myself to be male. My curiosity demanded an answer.

“Who are you?”

My voice was unsure, even to my own ears, but I found that I quite liked its sound.

A limb moved within the fog until it stretched before me, on it three eyes carefully examined me.

“I am you. Or maybe it would be more apt to call me your sister? Perhaps your mother would be more appropriate as I am what you originate from… Hmm, regardless I am what you are now leaving behind.”

I didn’t understand what it meant, I wasn’t leaving anything behind. Before I could speak another voice answered from within the fog, this time the voice was deep and clearly masculine in nature.

“Umbra Et Lux, I assure you we are leaving nothing behind. Merely creating something new to better appreciate the opportunity we have created for ourself. This version of us is young and inexperienced, he will be able to grow and change far better than either of us could…”

I looked around for the origin of the second voice, but could find nothing that could have been speaking. Turning back to the three eyed limb I found myself instead staring at a young elven girl with short white hair and golden eyes.

“Yes, I suppose he will be better able to adapt to the world than either of us. Though I still find it a bit off-putting to be returned merely to serve as a spectator and occasional guide. I would much rather control the main presence we maintain within the void than be relegated to this…”

The young elven girl looked up and following her gaze I could almost see something else beyond the fog. It was like there was something right on the edge of my perception, no it was like there was another me just outside of what I could sense was there.

“But we are one in the same. All that we are is shared as we each are mere reflections of the whole. some of us may perceive differently than others, but ultimately that is but fallacy. You, I, him; we are all Light And Shadow. Whatever we may call ourselves, whatever we may think, whatever we may do, even whatever we may be… All of it is still Light And Shadow.”

The deep voice seemed to come from the very fog itself as it spoke.

“True, and I suppose I can find my own enjoyment in looking after this young one from afar…”

The elven girl looked back at me and suddenly her gaze was full of kindness and affection. She reached out and I felt something brush against my cheek lightly even though she did not seem to touch me at all.

“You will be shouldering all of our hopes and desires. It will be my pleasure to see them unfold through you, our masterpiece.”

As I heard her last word the elven girl disappeared, and around me the fog began to dissipate. I was excited and a little flattered, but I still didn’t understand what had just happened. All I knew for sure was that I was Lux, Lux Et Umbra, and I had a very deep background.

*

I woke up and felt really awful. My head ached, my eyes stung, and I had a strange feeling of being far too small. Doing what only seemed naturally in such a situation I called for my Holly.

“WA! WAH! WAAAAAAHHHHHNNN!”