D1C1 - Womb

It's so dark.

They say darkness cannot exist without light.

There is no light here.

I feel nothing. I see nothing. It's as if my senses were never there in the first place. Honestly, I'm at a loss as to what I should do. All my knowledge is useless without a body to actually use it. I analyze my situation. Logically, the fact that I have a consciousness that is capable of thinking and contemplating my situation implies that I have, at the very least, a brain. Even when I was talking with Nana, I had a body. Or at least, I think I had one.

It's strange. I know that my "senses" are just sensory information sent to the brain from various bodily faculties. But I have no senses. Implying that there is no sensory information being sent to my brain. Following this chain of thought, it also means that I have no body. But that contradicts my first conclusion of having a brain. Having a brain means having a body to house the brain and thus the consciousness.

It's really confusing. I thought about this for a long time. Exactly how long I do not know but it was a long time. I sift through my various memories trying to think of something that can relate to my situation. I specifically focus on memories that contain information on psychology and biology.

Eureka. I've found it.

I know I'm being reincarnated. My talk with Nana was too realistic to have been a dream. Considering the fact I've been reincarnated 31 times, I've accepted that the impossible is possible. As a result, if I am being reincarnated then that means I'm a baby.

It fits. My baby body has a brain. Most likely because it isn't fully developed, I can't feel anything. Even if I did, at most it would be only warmth. After all, eyes aren’t opened until birth. Nose and mouth are blocked to prevent amniotic fluid from entering my body. I don't feel hunger since I'm getting nutrients through the umbilical cord. I know that sounds can cause a reaction in babies. This probably means if I'm lucky I might hear some sounds. Even I do, they'll be muffled due to liquid surrounding me.

However. At the moment, nothing. I guess my mother is still in her first half of the pregnancy. When I start feeling warm, it'll mean my body is developed enough. Spinal cord and nerves should also be somewhat developed at that time. No doubt I'll be able to squirm and kick at that time. Sorry in advance mom. Ufufufu.

Nevertheless, it's all just conjecture at this point. I need to wait for the evidence to show itself. I really hope I'm correct. It'll really suck if I'm stuck in this unfeeling blackness. Really suck.

How long have I been stuck here? My sense of time has completely warped itself. Months? Days? Years? I do not know. I can only wait. They say time is relative. I say it's subjective. I've spent an effing eternity in here. Ugh.

For some reason, I can't even fall asleep. Korewa hontoni saite.

Because I can't sleep, I feel mentally exhausted at all times. Arghhhhhhh. To describe this experience in a more descriptive way, I feel like I've gone and done 3 all nighters in a row on ER shift and then going through a studying marathon for the lastest med exam. The absolute worst. Someone kill me already...

Ugh.

Thank god for meditation. Force quitting all the apps and clearing my brains RAM worked wonders. Although meditation left me feeling somewhat refreshed it was still no replacement for true, sweet, sweet sleep.

Finally, I figured out the best way to relieve my poor consciousness. Anytime I felt tired, I would imagine myself sitting in a Buddha pose. Humming a mantra. Yoga? Fuck that shit. If you meditate it got to be the Buddha style. Haven't you heard? Those monks can sit on spikes. Metal spikes I'm telling you. Aye. Its got to the Buddha style.

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If you could hear me speak, you'd think I'm making light of meditation. But honestly, it’s actually hard to do, Nirvana? Enlightenment? Hell, even clearing my mind is hard. Stray thoughts float in and out, like passengers getting on and off in a train. I won't say I've mastered it but eventually, I got a routine down through force of practice.

Crush those barbaric thoughts, my legions of thought police! Muahahahahahaha. I feel like Big Brother.

After several hundreds of sessions of stray thought crushing, something weird happened.

Ding!

Was ist das?

A sound. I definitely heard a sound. Like the familiar alarm of a microwave oven. Aye, the sad life of a on-duty doctor. *sob*

A disembodied voice spoke up.

“Ding! You have reach the required developmental stage for implementation of [User Interface: A.I Nana Version 1.2b] Please wait while files are downloaded…”

Okay… That was really sketchy…

But what the hell, I mean it’s the only excitement I’ve had in forever, if I’m able to wait for a near eternity I guess I can wait some more. It’s not like I’m impatient or anything, I’ve only been stuck here for lord knows how long. At any rate, I suppose this is where I get introduced to my “gifts” Nana gave me. The name “Nana” is a total giveaway and besides, I’m pretty sure that I don’t have multiple personality disorder.

The voice spoke again.

“Download complete. Installation complete. Temporary Audio Interface activated.”

“Please select your ideal form of user interface with [A.I Nana]”

“What do you mean by select? Maybe you haven’t noticed but I have no limbs to select anything with.” I said sarcastically.

“Query processed. Answer: To select your ideal UI, present the interface as you see it in your mind.” It replied.

Ok, I can do that. In fact, I have just the thing for it. A VRMMORPG UI. Invisible blue windows are fantastic. Absolutely fabulous. That’s right, even a genius doctor has hobbies, I read Killing Dragon and Legendary Sunlight Sculptor in my spare time. Problem?

“Processing data. Blueprint created. Creating. Implementing. Complete.” The voice said.

Ding!

A semi-transparent blue window with a white border appears in front of me. Text started appearing on it like some old school rpg.

Congratulations! If you’re seeing this, then you’ve probably already gone through the reincarnation process. No doubt you’re currently waiting to be born. Haha, I bet you’re bored to death huh? Fear not, Nana to the rescueee! So here we go, the first of your gifts. Oh, by the way, this interface will only activate when you close your eyes, making one that can overlap with vision was too much work, so yeah. Oh, before I forget, Edehalla is slightly medieval but it has MAGIC! So yeah. You might want to keep that in mind. And don’t forget about our deal, ok? YOU. ARE. MINE. M-I-N-E <3 Anyways, I gotta go now, good luck! Eh, not really, since that won’t apply to you anyways. Bai-Bye!