Hey guys Rookie here. I'm sorry this isn't a chapter. I just kind of want to talk to you guys about some things. Keep in mind I'm writing this in the middle of the night and doing this all in one take so it might not make that much sense. Anyway, I'll keep this short. 

Don't worry for the people who enjoy my story, I'm not giving up on this. I actually I love writing this story way too much. It's just I'm at a stage that I feel every writer eventually goes through. "Overthinking."

I kind of went through this stage when I first started writing this story since this is the first time I ever wrote anything In my life. And now as I gain more experience as a writer I find myself desperately trying to improve to the point I'll take forever to write one sentence. It's honestly kind of maddening at the same time funny. I put more effort into this story than I do for my job and I don't get pay for this. 

I had people tell me I need to stop torturing myself over this hobby I took up for fun, and they're right. Ever since I was a kid I used to love reading, I could read a whole novel in a day if it interested me enough, but ever since I started writing I stop reading altogether. Because I keep comparing myself to these talented writers. The envy I felt when I read my favorite stories reviews was just simply too much for me to bare. And the funny thing is this the first time I ever been envious of someone else. Whenever my friends get something I want or my parents do the old fashion "This genius that's your age just change the world for the better and all you did today was just sit on your lazy ass." I response to this by shrugging my shoulder and say "cool"

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Anyway, basically where I'm going with this is that I seriously need to chill out. I'm not saying I'm going to give up on improving. It's just I'm not going to kill myself over it, at least try not to. I think a lot of writers need to realize this, at least the ones that do this for a hobby. Of course, that's easier said than done. The more passionate writers will mentally beat them self to death to improve their craft. And I know for a fact after I post this I'm going to slam my head against the wall for a month until I perfect that one sentence. Although I can happily say I'm reading again :) [https://forum.royalroadl.com/images/smilies/smile.png]

I ramble on long enough. thank for reading my jumbled thoughts, I'm a decent way into my newest chapter, hopefully, I'll have it out soon, I want to increase my pace again because I got a lot good ideas for my upcoming chapters that I think you guys will like.

Also before I go I should mention to you readers that you have no idea how much of an influence you have on writers. Just a simple thanks for the chapter makes me feel that all the pain I went through to write a chapter was truly worth it. I know I don't write comments much because I'm a shy bumbling mess, but trust me when I said this ever single one of your comments make me smile.

I'm not telling you guys to write more comments I just want you to know that you guys are probably the reason why some of your favorite writers are still writing. at least the ones that are doing this for a hobby.

Ok now I'm done thank you for reading :) [https://forum.royalroadl.com/images/smilies/smile.png]