I am mute, it's not because injury or anything, it's because i don't want to talk. I find it useless to talk to them, they will not listen anyway. About my father, yes he killed someone, it was my mother friend. He was cheating with a women, and she sees my father with the other women. Because he was scared, he killed her. He stab her with a knife. My father know some high people, so he doesn't get arrested, my mother doesn't divorce him, it was like 9 years ago, when i was 3rd grade in elementary school, but nothing can be hidden forever, around middle school someone i knew spread the rumour.

Now i'm listening to the teacher, it's math class. He looks a bit dull, i think he doesn't want to teach. The two girls in second row are talking to each other, the first girl is talking, her face is like a person who is in love, maybe talking about her crush. The second girl.... what a disgusting fake smile, she was the type of girl that talk in the back about her own friends, good luck first girl.

A boy from the third row beside the window. He was writing, he wasn't looking at the teacher or the board, his face is thinking other, there's no sign of him focusing on the class. The pencil movement is stroking, i bet he was drawing. The bullies of the class are talking to each other, they sit near the door. They are wearing evil smile, one of the boy sitting wih the leg towards me..... Ahhh they are going to do something to me.

The girl in front of me, is one of the bullies too. She's kinda spoiled child, her face is bored, she doesnt sit straight. She folded her arm, she sits towards the door, her legs is tapping to the ground. She want's to go out. Like usual day i obse-. Something hit my head. It was a crumbled piece of paper, i open it. 'JUST GO DIE, NO ONE WANT YOU ALIVE!' ...... I will if i can.

*ring, ring

It's lunch time.

I go to the restroom. In the way, i saw a girl, smilling happily to her friends. I better remember her emotions. I walk into the restroom, wash my face, and look into the mirror. I'm smilling happily like that girl on my way to here. Right now i'm smilling happy. I go outside, to the 3rd year building. I'm meeting my 'friends', in the second floor.

The third years mostly doesn't know about the rumour about me. Hehe, i'm happy right now, i'm happy right now, i repeat that in my head. And i arrive at their place. "Why are you so late? Are you a snail?" that one angry boy is Thistle, he has red hair, angry all the time, and quite deliquent. "Thistle? Are you angry? Are you on your period? Ahahahhahaha!" that one who was teasing Thistle is Lustine, she is a girl that quite noisy? I think. "Oh you finally arrive Dacel." this one is Glolus, that one typical school idol.

"Sorry i'm late, somethings come out, hehe." i smile kindly. "Now shall we go to the canteen?" i said. We walk to the canteen, we take lunch on then 3rd year canteen.

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Lustine : "Hahhh, i fall asleep in Ms. Lain class, now i should write an apology letter."

Thistle : "It's your own fault being so dumb."

Lustine : "I don't want to hear that from you!"

Glolus : "Anyway, how is your class today, Cel?" He ask me.

Dacel : "It was fine, nothing to interesting." I said in cheerfull tone.

Time goes by, and the lunch time is over. We go to our class. Of course i go back to my usual self. Its p.e class, i change my clothes in the restroom, never on the changing room. "Choose your partner! We are playing dodgeball today!". Of course i didn't have any, i already prepare a note. I walk to the teacher and shows a note || Sorry i don't feel so well, may i go to the infirmary?|| "You don't feel well? Alright you can go." Then i go to the 3rd years infirmary. I just used to the 3rd year building. I give the nurse a note ||I don't feel so well may i rest in here?|| "Oh you can go rest, if the school end, i will wake you up." I bow to say thank you. Then i go sleep.

"Wake up, the school already end." The nurse waking me up. I get up and give the nurse bow as thank you. "No problems." I get to my class, to take my bag. My bag is not here, must be the bully, huh.... better search it quickly. I search in every desk in my class, it's not there. I tried to search in the school garden, i found it. It was floating in the garden water fountain. "Tck." I take my bag, it's all wet, my notebook, i almost can't read anything anymore. I put all the book and stuff in the bag. I don't care if it's still wet. I wear my jacket and put my headset and go home.

At home i turn the light on, i throw all the books, and others that can't be used anymore to the trashbin. I change my clothes, and hang my bag outside. I got to my room, and message Thistle.

>Can i borrow your notes for today class. I accidently fall into the water fountain, all my books all ruined.

>Thanks!

After that i go to sleep. Don't care to eat or anything.

I see the flower field again, i see this dream so often. I don't know if it is a nightmare or not. But when i'm in here, i feel calm. I feel in peace, its all white, theres only me and the field of daisy. The same i didn't do anything. Just standing in that place, until i wake up tommorow.

When i wake up. Theres a single white daisy flower, beside me.

I'm a bit confused, but i just take the flower and put it on the desk. Its weird i never have any flower at home, i don't throw it to trash. Maybe after i see those dream, i become to like daisy flower. I take all book for today class, and stuff, i'm going to buy for the other stuff that get broken after school, i use the other bag. I look at the clock 6.30 am. I still have 30 minutes. I take a piece of bread and eat it. I take my bag, wear my headphone, and shoes. I lock the door. I guess my mother will not come home today.

It's really cold today huh. The sky is still pretty dark. I close my eyes, i feel really tired. I continue to walk until i stop at a park. I sit on the bench to rest a bit, i feel my eyes closing.... i shouldn't sleep here...

"-up.... wake up.." huh? "CEL WAKE UP!" It's Thistle voice. I open my eyes, did i.. fell asleep, oh.

Dacel : "Thistle? What are you doing here?"

Thistle : "I see you asleep while passing the park, what are you doing?!"

Dacel : "Ah i was just sitting, but i accidently fall asleep."

Thistle : "Are you dumb, tch let's go! Oh and here is the book."

Dacel : "Thanks."

We walk to the school. We both are from the same year, just in different classes. He was in class IIV-A and i IIV-B. We get to the lockers. Ahh here we go, it's so annoying. I see my locker full of trash, paper, and some sharp thing. "Huff.." I take a deep breath to keep calm. I just close my lockers, hoping nobody see it. "See you later Thistle" I say it in whisper. He look at me and nod. I usually not talk loudly so it doesn't weird.

I get to my class. And i don't see my deck there....