"Cold.."
That's the first word she said when she arrived at this place. She didn't know where she is, or even what she is. The only thing she knows is that incredibly cold she feels, and that cold didn't dissipate instead it's intensified as time goes which makes her close to freezing.
"What is this place...? Is it hell? Didn't someone say that hells are a hot place? Then, why's this place's so Cold!? What a liar!"
She didn't have a body, yet she can move to any way she wants, as she's just a tiny substance now, but, calling her a soul may not be an exaggeration. She flows for a long, long time, she flows away from one place to another aimlessly, without any destination in mind, the cold becomes more and more unbearable as she flows and makes her think of a ridiculous idea to resist the cold.
"Maybe I can't resist the cold because I'm just a tiny soul? Then… what will happen if I absorb the cold inside my body?"
With that motion in mind, she tried to absorb the cold around into her body and as she expected…
"IT'S COLD!!!!"
The cold she absorbs freeze her inside out, makes her want to give up absorbing it, yet she preserves and keeps absorbing the cold little by little as there’s nothing to do here.
Her shape becomes rounder than before, and as time goes, she has finally developed a resistant to the cold by torturing herself with her self-created cold absorption method, and her form has changed into that of a human form!
There's no concept of time here, and, all she can do now is flow and flow without able to do anything else other than absorbing these cold essences. She doesn't know how long has it been since she's here, but she knows that it's not merely just 1 or 2 years, and as time passed, she becomes incredibly bored and try to recall anything she knows about herself before she arrives at this places.
She can’t remember anything at first as if something blocks it, but one day, her memories, flow back automatically as if it wants her to know who she is. She didn't know what her name is, her face or anything other than her gender is female, and although she didn’t remember her names, she did remember the title that belongs to her and her alone!
"I'm the Queen of Catastrophe! Oh...that's pretty cool, but… why do I feel like I'm someone who suffers the legendary 8th-grade syndrome? But… how can it be! I'm genuine!"
All of the memories she has is blurry, and her earliest memories are that she was in a room which is full of blood and some of the blood also spray all over her body. She holds a knife in hands, while five people lay beside her with noticeable injuries all over their body.
Polices also start to rush inside, and one of the female police also comes to pacify her saying ‘It’s alright, you’re safe now…’ ‘You’re the one who calls us, aren’t you? don't worry little child you have done no wrong as it's only self-defense.' And not long after that, she passes out because of losing a lot of blood, and the next moment she opens her eyes, she’s already inside a hospital.
She didn't remember any of it while kind police visit her and roughly explain what happens when he found out she has lost her memories. He has only said that her parents are dead stabbed by a group of thieves while protecting her, even so, he kindly assure her that she’s alright now as the thieves were gone.
The police always visit her every day and talk with her from time to time. She didn’t express many things at first, but her expression starts to return after a long time communicating with the police. The only things that made her cry would be the time she saw her parents’ picture, but except that time, she has never cried even once before.
It didn’t take long for her to recover and the girl was brought to an orphanage by the police and got a warm welcome from everyone. She lives a cheerful life there and even thinks to become the orphanage sister.
But… a loan shark who has lent money to the orphanage before come back while asking them to pay back with massive interest has started to threaten the sisters and even order his bodyguards to attack the sisters.
She feels furious after she saw that and charges to defend the sister, yet, she got beaten by one of the bodyguards until she passed out. After she wakes up, she realizes that the bodyguard and loan shark has laid on the floor, asking her forgiveness and say they will not ask for any more money as we paid the original loan a long time ago.
The next day, she was brought to a psychiatrist by the sister and got diagnosed that she may have dissociative identity disorder, which she ignored cause she didn't know what the hell is dissociative identity disorder.
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But after she returned to the orphanage, she can feel that the gaze of her friends in the orphanage is different than before as there's fear in it and make her run away from the orphanage after she can't endure that gaze anymore while taking some donation money to live outside.
She who starts searching for a way to make money, discover people can quickly make money on the internet now, go to the internet cafe while asking someone how to make money on the internet and one of the people who saw her post replied 'How about making money by gaming?'
She immediately starts to play MOBA and live in an internet cafe and becomes friend with the one who suggested her gaming and lives her life happily while chatting with her gaming team. Truthfully she's suck at gaming, but she realizes that she always turn from NOOB to legend after she starts getting sleepy!
The girl who talks with her start to approach her in real life, support her, and before long they have gathered a team and join gaming championship. She won tournament after tournament anonymously with her team and soon gain enough money from the tournament which is enough for her to rent an apartment for 6 years while returning the money she owes the orphanage.
She stops gaming after she feels that her body is deteriorating from lack of sleep, which let one of her friends visit her and cook healthy food from time to time for her to consume. She goes back gaming again after she becomes well, yet she realizes that she has turned from Legend to NOOB again as she's not sleepy like before and gets frustrated by that fact.
As she has earned a lot of money now, she decided to hear her internet friend suggestion and go back to school, yet she immediately got bullied after she got to school because she has been missing from school for a long time.
Her bullying got intensified as she didn't try to resist it, but... one of the children who think they’re just playing, punch her on the head which makes her passed out and an accident finally happens where all the furniture in the classes broken and all of the bullies get sent to the hospital.
The student mother complains about her conduct, but the camera has caught the moment of bullying yet the school is not interfering on it which is why the school was responsible while she's kicked out from that school.
Her internet friends who heard her experience can't help but feel guilty as he's the one who suggests it, even so, one of her friends introduce the world of stories in the form of anime, manga, or novel which satisfied her.
She can read pretty fast unlike most people and finished a lot of recommended stories, and as she read the stories, she starts to feel that she is special than the rest of the worlds, of course including her online friends.
Her friend's influence can be said one of the reasons why she starts to go out of her house and start to call herself with her IGN The Queen of Catastrophe who brought catastrophe to her opponent!
Although she didn't remember much about this, she remembers that catastrophe always comes when she goes out the house as burglary, arson, bank robbery, and the other seems to happen while she always got to stop it as if she's a hero!
Her self-confidence starts to increase day by day and on the destiny day on her 14th birthday, she died because of her overconfidence and came to realize that there's always someone who helps her before and can't help but feel sad.
"I'm sorry." the girl muttered, but a voice which she hasn't heard for a long time replied to her.
"Don't be, because I should be the one that says I'm sorry."
"!?"
"Hey, where are you?"
"....."
Happiness filled her heart when she heard the familiar yet faint voices. She searches everywhere yet she didn't see anyone else other than her before she saw a bright light appear in this dark and cold world. She's there, her feeling says. But that light suddenly becomes farther and farther and might disappear as soon as it appears.
With all those years of absorbing the cold energy, she has become able to easily control it which is why she uses all the cold energy she absorb to push her forward into the bright light just like how a moth charge through the flame fearlessly.
"Go!!!!"
She burst all of her power and soul to get inside the light, little did she know that she's always with her, she's one with her, yet she's hidden deep inside her. Even so with her mind fixed thinking that she's on the other side of the light. She can't help but go straight into that place where she thinks she might be.