Chapter 6: A Fragile Bond

Cassian’s boots echoed against the cracked pavement as he walked away, the open door behind him a silent reminder of the child he was leaving behind. His chest felt heavy, each step pulling harder at the invisible weight pressing him down. The child’s cries had stopped—hadn’t they?—or maybe they hadn’t. Maybe he was just trying to convince himself that he hadn’t heard the heart-wrenching plea.

”Brother, wait! Don’t leave me again!”

The words clung to him like vines, dragging him back no matter how far he tried to push forward. His hand clenched into a fist at his side as he forced himself to keep moving.

But then it came again. A sound so soft, so desperate, that it shattered his resolve.

“Brother... please...”

Cassian stopped, his breath catching in his throat. His head bowed, his teeth gritting as his mind screamed at him to *keep walking*. He didn’t need this. He didn’t need anyone.

He’s just a child. Someone else’s responsibility.

But no one else was here, and the world outside was unkind. Cassian had lived through its cruelty, and he knew what it did to the vulnerable. The weight of his own experiences pressed against his chest like a steel vice.

He turned, slowly, back toward the open door. His sharp eyes scanned the dimly lit interior, and there the child stood, small and trembling in the doorway. His tear-streaked face glistened faintly in the pale light, his arms stretched out as though reaching for something—someone—to hold onto.

Cassian’s jaw tightened. “I shouldn’t have come back here,” he muttered under his breath, but his feet moved of their own accord, taking him closer to the house.

As he stepped through the doorway, the child’s gaze latched onto him, wide and wet with desperation. “You’re back...” the boy whispered, his voice trembling.

Cassian didn’t respond at first. He stood stiffly, the space between them a chasm he didn’t know how to cross. Every part of him screamed to run, to sever whatever thread of connection this child thought they had. Yet something deeper, something buried beneath years of pain and resentment, kept him rooted to the spot.

“Where’s your family?” Cassian asked gruffly, his voice sharper than he intended.

The child’s lip quivered, and he sniffled, clutching his worn stuffed animal tighter. “They... left.”

Cassian frowned. “When are they coming back?”

“They’re not.”

The words hit Cassian like a blow. He swallowed hard, his hands twitching at his sides. He shouldn’t care. This wasn’t his problem. But the hollow look in the child’s eyes, the emptiness that mirrored something in himself, made it impossible to ignore.

“Why are you here alone?” Cassian pressed, though his voice had softened slightly.

The boy shook his head, fresh tears spilling over. “They said they’d come back, but they didn’t... Everyone leaves...”

Cassian’s chest tightened. The boy’s words echoed too closely to his own thoughts, his own pain. He closed his eyes, pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to steady his breathing.

“Brother, please don’t leave me, too,” the child said, his voice breaking.

Cassian’s body tensed, his fingers curling into fists. He wanted to shout, to push the boy away, to tell him to stop calling him that. But the boy’s small, fragile frame, the trembling in his voice, made the words catch in his throat.

With a heavy sigh, Cassian moved closer, kneeling down in front of the boy. The child stared at him with wide, tear-filled eyes, and for a moment, Cassian hesitated. Then, reluctantly, he reached out and placed a hand on the boy’s shoulder.

“I’m not your brother,” he said quietly, his voice firm but not unkind.

The boy sniffled, his grip on the stuffed animal tightening. “But you feel like one,” he whispered.

Cassian’s chest ached at the simplicity of the words, the raw honesty that only a child could muster. He looked away, his jaw clenching as he fought against the emotions threatening to overwhelm him.

“You don’t know anything about me,” Cassian muttered.

The boy shook his head. “I know you came back. And I know you won’t leave me.”

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Cassian’s throat tightened. He couldn’t argue. He didn’t know why he’d come back, why he hadn’t just kept walking. But he was here now, and the boy was looking at him like he was the only thing holding his world together.

“I don’t know how to take care of a kid,” Cassian said, more to himself than to the boy.

“I’ll take care of you,” the boy said softly, his small hand reaching out to grab Cassian’s.

The touch was light, hesitant, but it sent a jolt through Cassian. His first instinct was to pull away, but he stopped himself. The boy’s hand was warm, grounding in a way that surprised him.

Cassian let out a shaky breath, his shoulders slumping. “You’re a stubborn kid, aren’t you?”

The boy nodded, a tiny smile breaking through his tears.

Cassian shook his head, a faint, bitter laugh escaping him. “Fine,” he muttered. “But don’t expect much from me.”

The boy’s smile widened, and for a moment, the weight on Cassian’s chest lifted just slightly.

As the boy wrapped his arms around him in a hug, Cassian stiffened, his muscles locking. But this time, the memories didn’t crash down on him. The touch was soft, innocent, and though it still made his skin crawl, he forced himself to stay still.

“Thank you, brother,” the boy whispered.

Cassian closed his eyes, his jaw tightening. “Don’t call me that,” he said quietly, though there was no heat in his words.

The boy didn’t let go, clinging to Cassian as if he were the last piece of stability in a crumbling world. And for the first time in years, Cassian didn’t pull away. He didn’t stiffen or shove the boy aside. He simply sat there, his arms awkwardly wrapped around the child, the warmth of their tiny frame a strange, unsettling contrast to the cold void he had carried inside for so long.

But it didn’t last.

After a while, the child pulled back, his small face tilting up to meet Cassian’s. Tear tracks stained his cheeks, but his eyes—wide, innocent, and unknowing—held an unbearable weight of trust. It twisted something deep inside Cassian, something he had long since buried under layers of anger and detachment.

The boy’s gaze was questioning, confused, as if he could sense the storm raging beneath Cassian’s calm exterior.

Cassian swallowed hard, his throat tight. He didn’t want to see that look. Didn’t want to be the person this boy relied on. But here he was, and there was no one else…but he feel his chest tightness again, a wave of nausea hit him hard

“I’m sorry,” he said at last, his voice rough and low. The words tasted foreign on his tongue, but he forced them out. “I’m sorry, kid, but...” He hesitated, his hands trembling slightly at his sides. “I request... no, I beg. Please… don’t touch me.”

The boy blinked, startled by the sudden change in tone. His small hands, which had been reaching toward Cassian, froze in the air before retreating slowly, as though the boy had touched something sharp and recoiled.

Cassian clenched his jaw, closing his eyes for a moment as he steadied himself. “I’m not... good at this,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I’ll stay. I’ll keep my promise. But please, don’t touch me. I—” His voice cracked, and he shook his head. “I can’t handle it.”

The child stared at him, uncomprehending but obedient. Slowly, he lowered his hands and clasped them together in front of him. His bottom lip quivered, but he said nothing.

Cassian hated the silence. He hated the weight of the boy’s gaze, the way it felt like those wide, innocent eyes were peeling away every layer of his defenses, exposing the raw, ugly truth beneath.

Finally, the boy spoke, his voice small and uncertain. “Okay... I won’t... I won’t touch you anymore.”

The words stabbed at Cassian’s chest, sharper than any blade. He could hear the quiet resignation in the boy’s tone, the way his voice wavered with unspoken hurt. And though the boy didn’t cry, didn’t protest, Cassian felt like he had broken something fragile and irreplaceable.

He wanted to take it back. To tell the boy that it wasn’t his fault, that he wasn’t the problem. But the words wouldn’t come. He was too tangled in his own pain, his own fear, to offer the reassurance the boy so desperately needed.

Instead, he forced himself to his feet, his legs unsteady beneath him. “I’ll keep my promise,” he said, his voice cold and distant. “But just... stay away from me, okay?”

The boy nodded slowly, his small frame trembling as he took a step back. His eyes never left Cassian’s, and in them, Cassian saw something that made his stomach churn—an understanding far beyond the boy’s years.

Cassian turned away, his fists clenching at his sides as he tried to block out the sight of the boy’s trembling form. But as he walked toward the broken window, the faint sound of the boy’s quiet sniffles reached his ears, and his chest tightened painfully.

I’m not strong enough for this, he thought bitterly. I’m not the person he needs.

But there was no one else.

Cassian stopped at the edge of the room, his hands gripping the windowsill as he stared out into the darkened streets. The city beyond was quiet, the ruins bathed in the pale glow of the moonlight. It was a world of chaos and danger, a place where trust was a liability and survival meant shutting everyone out.

And yet, here he was, tethered to a child who had somehow managed to break through the walls he had spent years building.

He let out a shaky breath, his fingers tightening around the windowsill. “You’re a fool,” he muttered to himself. “An absolute fool.”

Behind him, the boy’s soft voice broke the silence. “You’re not going to leave me... right?”

Cassian stiffened, his breath hitching in his throat. He turned his head slightly, just enough to see the boy standing there, clutching the stuffed animal to his chest.

The boy’s eyes were red and puffy, but they still held that unbearable trust, that fragile hope that Cassian didn’t know how to handle.

“I told you,” Cassian said quietly, his voice heavy with something he couldn’t name. “I’ll keep my promise.”

The boy nodded, his small hands tightening around the stuffed animal. “Okay.”

Cassian turned back to the window, his gaze fixed on the distant horizon. The weight in his chest hadn’t lifted—it never did—but there was something else now, something unfamiliar and unwelcome.

He didn’t know what it was, didn’t want to know. All he knew was that the boy’s presence had stirred something inside him, something he thought he had buried long ago.

And as the quiet sobs faded into the stillness of the night, Cassian stood there, caught between the past he couldn’t escape and the fragile bond he couldn’t ignore.