Do you know the feeling of falling asleep after you drank way too much alk?

Your head hurts like crazy and everything seems to be in disarray.

However, once you are asleep the world seems to return to its original form.

When falling asleep after going through a day of torture that is called hangover, you find yourself in a state similar to how people imagine heaven, a place where everything is better, where happiness reigns supreme.

That is how I feel at the moment, after going through more than a week worth of time as a skeleton, players finally managed to destroy me, free me from this curse to hunt light.

Now I can have fun again and hunt mobs and raid dungeons like a normal player.

Having fun in an inn after successfully completing a challenging quest.

Enjoying the beer the sexy waitress serves. Listening to the bard and watching the dancer who shows way too much skin.

Showing of your newly forged armor to the noobs in town and feel there amazed gazes on you.

Training in the local training hall to test out your new finishing and fishing moves, shouting out its name without having to be embarrassed about it like a kid failing the kamehameha-wave.

Reaching a new level with the 'ding' sound and being able to finally equip that epic item you were lucky enough to get in a treasure box.

That is what a normal person like me is supposed to do inside a game-world, having fun.

As my grip on this skeletal body slowly fades, I fascinate about what I could do.

But is that what I really want?

To enjoy myself?

I am doing something every human should do once in a while, to ask a question: 'what do I want?'

Well, its not like if found an answer to questions like 'who am I?' and 'what is the propose of life?'

Still thinking about the things you want to do really helped me with making a lot of decisions in the past.

And the best answer I found thus far is that I want to do things that are interesting.

By experiencing new things everyday, learning new interesting ways to life, exploring the previously unknown. That is what I want.

Do interesting things.

In other words my goal is not to enjoy myself, neither do I seek fun or entertainment, all I want is to satisfy my curiosity.

Heh, I know you might think that a human should just life his life a bit carefree and have fun, but I destroyed this thinking.

About half a year ago. After graduating from school, when I would soon have to make life changing decisions like what job to choose.

One of these days I started to think.

That's right, I thought...

It was a strange feeling, like waking up from a dream.

I started to see the world in a different light and much clearer than ever before.

I started to question things like my common sense, morals, ethics and basically everything I learned to that point and a lot of things I took for granted didn't make any sense anymore.

It was as if everything I knew formed a big structure inside my head, a structure that is fundamental to all humans, it can be said that this very structure defines us as human beings, it tells us what to do and what actions to take.

When we are born there is no such mindset, it has to build slowly when we grow up, through education.

Our parent, school as well as society as a whole teach us, we learn languages, science, morals, ethics, common sense and all in all our surroundings form us. We follow fashion trends, game trends, music trends and just in general do a lot of things the bigger part of humanity does.

Even when we try to swim in the opposite direction and do things different, we still can't leave the river called modern life. Altho we might think of ourselves as one of a kind snowflakes or rebellious genius, in the end we are still part of a bigger whole.

We are humans, born as such, live as such and die as such, there is nothing we can do about that. 'What is the porpoise of my life?'. When I hear people say that I can't help but laugh inwardly. What a joke I tell you, what a joke!

Unknown to history someone decided that there has to be a meaning in life and everyone believed him and took that statement into there structure.

Just he never said what the meaning was. Then everyone stated to think what they are doing and for what reason, but no one questioned the fact that life has a meaning...

...why?

Is what I started questioning.

Is it necessary for life to have a meaning, a reason?

Is our common sense not nonsense?

I started to ask questions a human isn't supposed to ask, I doubted my fundamentals, what is called human. I started to question myself.

However the structure in my head that is called human couldn't answer the more complicated questions.

Then one day I decided to start anew, to destroy the fractured structure inside my head, a mindset that has no way to answer my questions. I gave up on being human, altho biological I still am one, the way I think started to differ from normal people...

I started to eat, not because of hunger, but because of a need for nutrition’s.

I started to sleep, not because of tiredness, but to relief my fatigue.

I started to see, not because my eyes where open, but because I opened my eyes.

I lost interest in artificial created things like fun, enjoyment, happiness. Concepts created by humans to forget about there miserable lives.

That day I quit being human.

I know that this is stupid, that my life became empty.

I know that what I do, isn't what I should do. I should enjoy life with all its ups and downs, live each day as it comes, as a human being.

But I choose to forsake my fate, living in happiness would become a thing of the past, the future would bring nothing, nothing but a faint slither of hope, the hope that one day I could return to being a human.

Therefore I am an idiot.

Living my life as an idiot, I choose to destroy my old mindset and create a new one.

To forge my own mindset, something not human nor inhuman, neither angel nor devil, divine nor demonic, blessed nor cursed. A true fundamental structure.

I began my journey of seeking.

A life in search for true Freedom!

'sight' making a grand speech while dieing as a skeleton in a dungeon... what a joke.

Still, dieing in a place like this seems a bit too boring, rigth?

Heh, if you go down, you should at least do so with a bang.

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I still haven't experienced the limitations of an undead. There is more to this then I know, I can feel it.

The players around me are slowly fading, there light is about to expire, I have to prevent that, my desire to kill still burns deep inside me.

Now that I think about it, why?

Where is this destructive nature coming from? Why do undead seek to destroy life? Why are undead born? What is the purpose of us undead?

This hatred against all living things.

This drive, that tells me to annihilate all that shines.

Its as if undead are destruction incarnate.

They are just like the dark side of humans.

Humans, no, all living beings have a destructive urge since birth to destroy everything around them.

Altho they learn to suppress such feelings as infants, since ancient times this nature has never changed and altho suppressed, it is still omnipresent within all creatures and occasionally some would give into there urges and leek that destructive nature into there surroundings.

I am the result of these urges, who reside within all beings.

Born from the accumulated power over aeons, monsters are born, to give went to instincts humanity has failed to cure.

As such a being of destruction it is my mission to destroy everyone.

To do so, all I need is to take the power given to me by living beings, beings like these players in front of me, who deep in there heart thirst for destruction.

Player1: 'that damn smef! Making up such a grand story and then our opponent dies in one hit?'

Player2: 'he has to pay! Wasting our precious time when the game is still fresh'

Player5: 'if it wasn't for the fact that PKing has such a high penalty, that wimp would be dead already'

Just like how a god is created by the subconscious prayers of millions, monsters are born from the suppressed feelings of billions, creating the harbinger of death.

Player13: 'Lightning should strike him on a cloudless day!'

As a god of destruction I hear your prayer and shall fulfill your wish.

I can feel it, the power of destruction, that resides with you, I will use it to bring an end to all light.

Just like there is light within all living beings there is also darkness, but the difference between darkness and light is that everyone holds onto the light, using it only for themselves and monopolizing it.

the darkness however is something unwanted. Like garbage, it is thrown away and pollutes the surroundings.

There is no balance in this world between the opposing factors of light and dark, resulting in an unstable world, a world that has no right to exist, a world that shall be crushed with my hands.

I have to gather the darkness in my surrounding, form it into a being of dark that opposes the light.

The players around me shine bright, they shine with light, but just like they shine with light, the light doesn't get out, but is withhold in them.

However upon closer observation there is a clear flow of darkness coming from the light and merging into the world.

I draw that darkness towards me, giving myself fully up and becoming one with the darkness.

I offer my soul to become the medium of god.

I let my instincts take over and become one with the world, the world of darkness.

Every bone in my body is shaking with the power worthy of a god, bestowed upon me by countless prayers.

I still lie on the floor, with bones broken all over the place, but now it is time for my divine judgment.

Refined by the will to destroy, I regrow my bones with ease, as if I had done so for millenia.

Reborn as a god, I can feel the unlimited power inside me, waiting to be unleashed.

Smurf POV:

“hahaha, calm down everyone. No need to be so exited about our instant win, such a feet isn't worth so much praise. I can do something like that before I wake up”

“its before breakfast... ah wait, that's not what I meant! I told you to go die, smurf!”

“ha? I don't wanna, hmpf”

Everyone seems to have fun and they are shouting loudly to celebrate our victory, only I don't quite understand some things they say.

It is good to have fun when adventuring, this is a man's romance!

Time to collect the loot, if undead in this dungeon drop anything that is, but such an irregular mob can't just give nothing, right?

Just as I want to turn around to evaluate the loot I feel an ominous presence from behind me.

Looks like the event isn't over just yet, hehehe.

As I turn around and look at the skeleton on the ground, that is only a few meters away I can feel my soul quiver.

What I see leaves me speechless, around the skeleton is a dark aura forming and envelops the bones from tip to toe.

The blood red skull is surrounded by an aura of death, emitting a soul piercing feeling that sends chills down my back.

Without being able to come to a decision whether to attack or wait I just stand there dumbfounded and watch the missing or broken bones to grow at a stupid speed

This broken mess on the floor slowly stands up. It looks like an eternity passes while the skeleton rises to its feet.

Then again, it could also be fast, just that my perception of time is distorted by my fear for this rising undead, who despite being smaller than me gives me a feeling as if I stood before an immeasurable high mountain.

To think I would be able to feel fear inside virtual reality and in a game at that.

“hahaha” this could be fun!

“bwahahahaha”

The first thing I will do, is silence your pathetic laughter.

Radi POV:

“hahaha”

“bwahahahaha” this could be interesting!

The first thing I shall do, is end your pathetic lives.

A/N:

deep <- is what one of you might think, but this chapter is nothing compared to what i have in stock :P

… seriously I didn't plan to have a fight scene... after I wrote last chapters A/N, I thought...

yeah right I started thinking, and that was my mistake...

a wonderful mistake that created this chapter, bwhahahaha

this chapter is slightly confusing, but the mc is quite confused as well...

a shitload of explanation in this chapter... how dungeons work, monsters spawn, gods are created...