Chapter 0 - Self-Introduction (Dislikes?)

I have a name. My name is Angelina Skye. My parents gave that name to me. Well, I don't have an idea on the meaning of that name given by my parents, though. Didn't really try asking my parents about it. Hmm... I hate taking lessons. That's the part for my 'Dislike' that would be written if there's a Profile of me. I just can't take lessons. Most of them anyway. I will elaborate just a bit on this by explaining lessons conducted by my teachers.

Oh. I am a High School Student now. Anyway, throughout the whole School life that I have been in, there were truly very few lessons that can seat me through the whole session with deep interest. In fact, some lessons were so boring that I have very big difficulty on keeping myself awake and paying attention to the teachers. The way they talk... are they trying to give a lullaby for me to sleep? Such a powerful method to enforce me to be sleepy.

It's not the problem from the teachers. There were many different methods taught by our teachers, to each their own way of teaching. Some of their voices that were projected were monotonous; one of the most incredibly intense and poisonous melody to our ears. Makes me wanna' close my eyes and lay my head on the desk while planting my folded arms under my head. Thankfully, the number of those teachers in my school life were few and were not taught in my class. I just can't seem to take what they say seriously since their words always go one ear and out the other.

Even the times when they mentioned that the stuff they stated earlier will be placed in a test, I would not have noticed until moments later that I properly processed what he or she had just said before I widened my eyes and pay closer attention. Their monotonous voice can easily blink through the important topics when we assumed that they are just his / her usual ramblings. Ugh... the agony.

Then there were the teachers that had certain motivational and touching speeches that constantly went into further elaboration as they go through a certain portion of the Textbook's Chapter. This was less torturing and more comfortable for taking a lesson. However, I can still easily be sleepy if I do not keep my attention on the teacher. They truly know what they are saying and can project well thought out conversation to us. There were times I admired my teachers for their teaching skills. But taking their lessons is a completely different story.

I have no qualms with their lessons. Not a single bit. The problem just lies with me. I simply can't sit through the whole session while listening to what they teach. However, there is a type of teaching that always keeps me entertain and I like to have it conducted in my lessons. They were the entertaining types. The teachers always have a humorous tone and have come up with many funny moments that were linked to the topics in his lessons. I have to admit that this was a completely different take to how I perceive a teacher's lesson to be.

Up to date, there were only two teachers throughout my whole school life that has given lessons in such a manner. They were certainly entertaining and although my problems of being sleepy to a phrased session do occur, they are much rarer as compared to the other teaching methods mentioned above. Of course, there were other types too. Such as a strict and fierce way of teaching, etc.

I don't want to go on forever on this issue and I'm sure you get the idea on my thoughts to my 'Dislike' on taking lessons. I can probably say that there are other 'dislikes' out there but I won't be going into detail as they are usually minor issues such as this particular dislike. Likes, Hate and all that. I have tons. I think. But I'm not gonna' wreck my head and think of one right now. This will do for now. The only reason why I mentioned my dislike on taking lessons is mainly because of what had happened today.

What happened today? It was sooooo boring. I wanna' close my eyes when the teacher was conducting lessons. I didn't, of course. I opened my eyes while pretending to pay attention to what the teacher was saying. My eyes were probably unfocused with my eyelids opened while I was in a sleepy state. I can say that doing that countless times had led me to a much-freshened state than not doing so. Is that disrespectful to the teachers? Yeah. Not like I can get rid of my problems that easily, though.

The only remedy or should I say a quick fix to my issues is to have me be seated at the very front of the class. This way, I can somehow be much more forceful towards myself in keeping myself awake in the lessons. This had worked wonders as I have been able to keep my eyelids open while daydreaming, glancing at the screen's projector as the teacher passed through slides with their remote controller (device to click 'next' for the slides shown).

During the entire period, I believe my eyes were pretty dead-fished, having eyes that looked distant. Yes, this easily led me to sooth myself and relax my mind even with the teacher there. The teachers might have realized my distant eyes, or they might not. However, they did not ever call on me. Most probably, they are fine with it as long as students pretend to pay attention and not straight out plant their heads on the desk.

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Of course, the worst times are when strict teachers come into place in teachings. They will try to randomly call out our 'Index Numbers' that were assigned to each student in our class. There were times when I was called and as you know it, I did not pay attention to the teacher's lessons. When I was called, my composure was still kept the same, a cool and composed manner that seemed like the person had an understanding to the lessons.

Oh, yeah. I wear glasses when I am taking lessons. This somehow provides a higher 'concentration' rate when trying to take lessons. However, the main reason was because I can't seem to see words from afar lately. Now that I think about it, my glasses was last updated five years ago back when I needed to wear glasses (however, they were not necessarily needed). Now, I had to wear the glasses during lessons as I have trouble seeing small words without them. I do not intend to upgrade my lens since they were not truly required and they are comparably expensive.

After all, I can see things clearly without my glasses. If I have to state my circumstances, wearing my glasses in normal day-to-day life would simply provide a much more vibrant and deep colors to my surroundings. They have a sharper and have much more contrast than seeing things with my naked eye. Thus, I deemed myself as not needing to wear glasses apart from lessons when reading words from the projector.

Anyway, I had truly digressed. Back to when I was called on, especially during lessons conducted by strict teachers right? So I had simply requested the parts that were needed for me to answer in a concise and steady tone. Of course, with that, the teacher would have no choice but to direct a much closer and detailed information as followed by my request. I would try to soften out an answer no matter how off the correct answer is.

Well. Basically, it was just having given a completely wrong answer. Hahahaha. Most of my classmates always hate being picked by the teachers but I'm totally indifferent. Honestly, I don't care whether or not I am called upon. I will keep myself steady and give out a reply that most of the time would be wrong. However, with my face, that seemed serious and an attitude that deems me out as a studious person, the teacher couldn't try to cause too much of a problem to me.

I think it's one of the cases where it's okay for students to make mistakes as long as they try. (Even if teachers just taught it a few minutes ago and you forget it). Apart from my outer appearance, I had a carefree attitude to my school lessons. I don't really care about them and only wish for lessons to quickly end as soon as possible.

I think the only reason why my teachers don't cause too many problems to me is because I am not a 'problem student'. Apart from my issues to sitting in a lesson, I have nothing against self-studying. In fact, I'd truly wished there was a self-study session throughout the whole period of the school. This way I could learn things myself and not daydream about pointless stuff.

I always absorb stuff that I learned similar to a sponge, being able to learn things quickly. This is one of the reasons why I have no difficulties to my subjects even when I am not giving regards to my lessons. I can say that a self-study is a powerful tool as it allows you to study education the way you want it to be. Teachers are just there to guide you, to assist you. That's just my idea of thinking, though. You can simply learn things yourself as most of the stuff can be found from the textbooks. All that was left was for you to get it in your head.

It's not as though I am a genius. I had paid extra time to my studies, thus leaving myself with the ability to comprehend the stuff I had learned. Other than that, I always try to give myself a goal. An aim to reach for a distinction, with high and colorful grade scores as my target to achieve. This has always held out as a proper push for me to work much harder than I probably would. It further provides me with some form of satisfaction whenever examinations arrived while having the knowledge to complete the paper with ease.

Another form of habit was the counting of scores on the examination paper whenever I finished the paper. When there were still a given amount of time left, with ample period of time span, I would begin in calculating my scorings. There were three kinds to my scorings; the lowest scores, the normal scores, and the highest scores.

The lowest score was deemed as a worst case scenario where answers that I have written might not be exactly correct and I have second thoughts to the answer. Those doubtful answers were subtracted out as 'wrong' even if they have certain chances of it being right. As of answers that were definitely right, I will leave it alone.

The normal score is just... normal. I look at my answers and see whether I think would be right or wrong before calculating the whole score of the paper. This is usually the score I would take into account most of the time.

Lastly would be the highest scores. They are clearly the opposite of the lowest scorings and are considered 'arrogant'. Even if I had doubts to it being correct, as long as I have doubts that it isn't exactly the wrong answer, I would consider taking scores of that question into account and have it added together with the whole paper.

Well. That's simply just a form of satisfaction of mine in order to get me some sense of accomplishment. I need to receive that feeling so that I can somehow continue with my hours of dreadful studying and cope with the time spent on topics that I deemed to have indifference on.

You should have some understanding to what sort of person I am now right? Okay. That's good. See you next time. Bye.

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