Rhuifen POV

I was 11 years old the first time I met her. Her family is tasked to welcome us to their kingdom as delegation. We were here to strengthen our bond as an ally. It was just a social visit for the sake of appearance. They were our escort before we met the royal family the next day.

Her father, Prime Minister Duke Asagi Fern Wallace-sama and his wife Duchess Sakura Fern Wallace-sama decided to bring along their children for our companion. My esteemed Brother, the Crown Prince immediately take a liking to their eldest son Akai. Akai was my age but he was quite mature so he gets along well with esteemed brother and I. My little brother and sisters the third prince and the first and second princess also immediately taken by Aoi, their youngest son.

Their first daughter never leaves Akai's side and Aoi took the youngest anywhere he went. My little siblings were a handful though so sometimes Aoi would have a hard time with them. Especially when the princess was involved. That makes the youngest, Kii sometime spends her time alone.

At first, I was paying attention to her because I worry she was lonely as Aoi was busy with my siblings. I felt guilty. As the years passed though, even when we (princes and princesses didn't need to come along for a visit anymore) I always came. We never talked much or spent time together. I usually spent my time in Akai's company and became good friend with him. But I liked to watch her.

At first, she had this cold and mysterious aura around her. It was enchanting. As she got older, her expression got brighter. She would smile more when she was with Aoi. Only with Aoi though, she seems distant with her other siblings. I decided to study in this kingdom to show our trust in this kingdom. My personal reason was to get to know her.

I was patiently waiting for her to attend this Academy. I had many expectations of how she would react. Whether she would remember me or not. I already become a good friend with his brother, Akai and then also got closer to prince Arren. The three of us become close friends not long after we attended this school. I thought everything would go smoothly.

Then he comes.

Two years later he attended the Academy. The Crown Prince. Arren's little brother, Arzen A Fern Rhein. Kii's fiance.

I was heartbroken and regretted the fact that I never tried to get closer to her earlier. I knew the woman I love was already unreachable then. Yet my heart can't stop hoping that they were not really together because they want it. Hoping that I still have a chance to steal her heart from Arzen.

It's funny how Prince Arzen never minds me and never know that I think of him as my rival.

Arzen has a very close relationship with Arren. It was quite opposite of what the rumours said about them. He will come to pester him here and then. Arren seems to fond of him as well. He will let him hang around us or will do what he wants him to do. I was worry it was because Arzen position as a crown prince but when I asked him about that, he gave this chilling fake smile and told me that I don't need to worry and that he was perfectly fine. That was proof that I need to know that he really really loved his little brother.

Frankly speaking, they're rival. With only two Princes people will think that they are competing for the Crown. They're not.

I've been observing Arzen for 2 and half years now. I found that he doesn't like to give speeches, he doesn't like politic. He doesn't hate Arren. He is a rule breaker and carefree. Arzen doesn't seem to worry that he will lose to Arren.

Esteemed brother and I get along well but we never as close as them. I knew deep down my brother is worry that I will take over his title. It's endearing to see Arzen and Arren. Looking at Arzen, my jealousy of him keep filling up. Especially after Kii come to the Academy.

Arzen... Never leave her alone. He is always holding her and make her stay between his reach. He even gets along with Aoi well. To be able to get Aoi permission for Kii's hands in a big accomplishment.

Then I met Angela. She is a pure, kind and naive girl. She used to live as a commoner so this academy wasn't treating her nicely. More so Her fiance is also treating her harshly. The poor girl.

We get along well. She tells me that she is in love with Arzen after he helped her on many occasions but her love is wrong because he has a fiancee and she also has a fiance. I don't remember other things she said. My brain only picked the part that she was in love with Arzen and the fact that Arzen cared enough to help her.

This is my chance I thought.

I feel sorry for using poor Angela like that but I was desperate. Knowing that Kii is also enjoying Arzen's present is hitting me hard. I thought if Arzen fall for Angela than Kii can be mine.

Angela is too naive though. She has no experience in seducing someone, because of that Arzen was still treating her coldly.

Angela has a nice sexy body. She can make the one she loves fall for her if she tries but she was too pure for her own good. She's also suffering from her brother and fiance. She really has it hard but she still can smile genuinely. It made me admire her.

But as nice as Angela, I can't keep Kii away from my mind. Witnessing her everyday moments with Arzen hurt me so much. When she is smiling happily but not for me. It's hurt. I used to touch myself and think of her but it wasn't enough anymore. Then Angela comes. And she was lonely. So was I.

We were supposed to find out the weakness between Arzen and Kii relationship. Not this.

"he devoured me like a beast"

Kii's voice repeated in my memory. I thrust into her harder. Angela cried out. Nails digging into my neck.

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"Rhuifen-sama, too fast. You're too fast" she gasps.

"he devoured me like a beast"

Kii's voice resonated again. I put her legs on my shoulder and thrusts deeper, harder and harder into her.

Angela moans loudly begging me to go slower, she can't take it she said. I don't have time to care. It's not her that I see.

I imagined it was Kii that writhing under me. I imagined it was Kii's voice that was calling me in pure bliss. I imagined it was Kii that I thrusting into every time. It was Kii, Kii, and Kii. My mind is full her.

"he devoured me like a beast"

Kii's voice said again.

I flipped Angela over and bent her. Placing my hands on her hips, I moaned as I thrusting into her harshly.

It's hurt and my body burned by jealousy. It's hurt so bad. I'm aware my thrusts become harsher and harsher.

"no more Rhuifen-sama, no more please" Angela's muffled voice begged between moans. That's not what I heard.

"he devoured me like a beast"

It said again.

I pulled Angela's body to me and knead her breasts roughly, still thrusting into her frantically. She comes hard, then her body slacken. I half aware that she passed out.

Arzen touched Kii. He touched her. He touched her. He touched her. He touched the woman I love.

I held her body and thrust, thrust and thrust I came shouting Kii's name. I pulled out and let Angela's body go. It falls to the bed with a small thump. Her naked sweating body sprawling on her bed, still unconscious. I glance at her, buttoned my shirt and pull up my pants. I am not in the mood for staying so I leave her like that.

Angela is pure. She can't take it when I do her harshly. We always go slow. I never force myself on her nor I ever came calling Kii's name. Today is also mutual agreement to do that but today I'm too ruffled by the revelation. I didn't take her feeling into consideration. I sigh. I'm such a despicable man.

I'm sorry to Angela. For using her as my bed warmer and as Kii's substitutes. I vow that I will take responsibility if it ends badly.

Jupiter and Venus are waiting for me when I get back to my room.

"so, you went to her again?" Venus starts.

"Vee, can't we?" I whined.

"No, we can't. You can't keep doing this. You know that. We know that" Jupiter adds.

"I know" I sigh flopping myself to the bed.

"does it makes you feel better? Being with Angela" Jupiter continues.

"you know it's not, Jay. I feel worse. Now I also feel more guilty towards Angela" I told him.

"Yet you are still doing it" Vee sigh.

I cover my eyes. Both of them are my childhood friends. Jupiter is the youngest of us but the wises. Venus is our voice of reason. When we went ashtray she will be there too straighten us. They came to this school for my sake. When I told them Kii has already had fiance they immediately requested to attend this school to accompany me.

They act politely and professionally as my bodyguards when we are in public. But when we are alone like this, they're my childhood friends again. If not for them I don't know where I would be right now.

"so what do you decide?" Vee's voice awakens me

"about what?" I questioned.

"Vee was asking if you're going to give up on Kii now that you knew that she and Arzen already slept together" Jay clarified.

"it doesn't matter whether they had slept together or not. I love Kii, not her body" I told them.

"Fenfen..." Jay said.

"I'll stop sleeping with Angela" I cut him.

"plan?" Vee raised her brows.

"Nothing. I'll just go forward to steal off Kii's attention from Arzen. Let her get to know me and show her that I'm better than Arzen" I said determinedly.

"that is the spirit!" they cheer.

I smile to myself. I should have to do this ages ago but it's better late than never.

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Noah POV

The woman I love is loved by many people and love not only me. In fact, she is obsessed with another man. I knew I wasn't enough for her. I knew she was looking for someone else. I see what she did but I pretend I didn't.

I'm a hotheaded idiot and not smart but even an idiot like me can see that she had been sleeping around with another man.

I don't know what happened to her. She changed since she started to stay with her father. She said they don't treat her well. I offered her to stay with us again like before her mother passed but she refused.

She used to be a very pure and honest girl. She never good at studying but she was a hardworking girl. When we were young we promised that when we grow up we will get married and have many children. We will leave the house and become farmers because she loves to grow things and so do I., My family, even decide that my brother in law is the one that going to be the heir.

We were happy. She was going to wait for me to finish my study at the academy and then we will get married. We already have a blessing from both her mother and my family. That was before her father took her. After that everything about her change. Where did my Angie go?

She used to get along with both my older sister and brother-in-law. She was especially close to my older sister. Yet now she never asked about her at all. She who was happier than my older sister herself when the news of her pregnancy comes, never even mentioned about it anymore.

What is really happening to her?

I'm really a fool. I still cling to a childhood promise. To her innocent smile. To the feeling of her kiss and body on my arms the day before she left our place. Her voice that tells me how much she loves me.

It is a punishment because we made love before we got engaged?

We had made love more often after that but it was different. There was no shy smile. There was no I love you told. It was just lust. It feels as if I did it with someone else.

I miss her even though she was by my side.

She likes Prince Arzen. Like any other ladies here. It wasn't a surprise. Prince Arzen is charming and endearing. You just can't help but love him if you were ladies and admire him if you were men. But prince Arzen already has a fiancee. We meet them once before. When I introduced her to them. They look lovely together. I can see that prince Arzen only have eyes for her. Angie even said that they're such a cute couple and looking forward to the day when they finally get married. Did she forget that?

She forgot a lot of things these days. She forgot about my sister, she forgot about her dreams, she forgot about her favourite flower, she forgot about her own nickname, she forgot about our promise. And forgot her love for me.

Is she still the same woman that I love?