Do I want Serenity

Why must serenity be

The peacefulness said to be a breeze through trees

Yet without its opposers, can we ever be free?

What is it to be human without anxiety, 

I'm not anything without that pressure and disruption

Why the point in peace, when reaching it means you failed

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Missing it means you've gained something

A permanent rest

No more tests

Ultimately serenity is failure

For if I achieve it I will be nothing.

Agitation is the need for air

Growling in my head like a hunger

For humans hunger, life hungers

What am I if not a ravenous animal

What are we worth, what can we do

For not being hungry means you are full

Means you are done. 

I don't want to be done

I want to cause a disruption

Weeping is the dragon with no more gold to collect

No one wants to be that dragon.

I don't want my fire to dim, so bright like the heart of that dragon

I want more, forever and ever, which means my need for serenity is wrong, isn't it?

Maybe all I am is a monster, feasting on others and myself

Perhaps that's what it means to be human

To want something we don't truly desire

Have a hunger that cant ever be satiated

For as soon as we are done we are nothing, and being nothing is something that can't be.

Fuck serenity, it's nothing.

I want to be something