(I got the stab from where I don't know.. I think I had been stabbed a lot like this before but it wasn't this close, in spite of the short time..)

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My name is Adam, I'm 21 years old and I'm now an adult, heheh.. Ehm. Ehm. I apologize for what happened, when I indulge in it, I forget everything and become a bit foolish..

I study at the Faculty of Dentistry and I love writing novels.. I like to write novels a lot, I can create a world of my own.. Different personalities express me and much more.. Pose issues.. Control the path of the world and make it as I wish or make it ashes, it is also possible to bring out what has been suppressed in words and a short story that will make the world know what human beings have become of pollution and violation of the rights of the souls they have.. And I'll let that writer tell you my story because the one talking to you was Adam from the past, as the present one is dead and his smile is gone..

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(A week ago)

"Adam, good morning."

Adam turned to find his friend Riley..

"Welcome, veteran Taro-kun "

Riley hit him in the head, reprimanded him for the bizarre name, and Adam laughed explaining that he was joking..

"Where's John? Isn't he coming today?"

"He surely will come, we have a busy schedule today.. "

Adam laughed telling Riley that everyone has this stupid schedule, then the university bus arrives and John comes at the same moment.. Everyone gets on the bus and sits on the back seats, John comes later and they welcomed him..

"Sit here, boy."

Adam told John to sit next to him..

"So how are you and your novels, creative? "

Adam laughs at John's calling him creative, but he quickly calms down and tells him that it is great and the next one will be stronger and better..

"That girl's translation were wonderful.. Her translation of your novels into English looks great.. I salute her for her work.. "

"She will be very happy with your words, John.. She refused any money, asked to translate it for me and she only wanted me to become the best novelist and story writer.. She trusts me too much.."

Adam laughed lightly then John surprised him that he is waiting for this time because he had the qualifications to become so..

".... huh? No, no, no, I'm not that great, I'm still young, I do not have enough experience to get there and there is certainly who is better than me.."

John smiled and looked forward..

"You don't need to make excuses to underestimate yourself.. I read your chapters from the first one you wrote, I saw how quickly you evolved which surprised me and I'm telling you that you will be a great thing someday.. You only need the opportunity that will get you out to the light.."

While Adam is surprised by John's full of great hopes words, his heart was beating, dancing with great joy, that there are those who believe in him and tell him this.. It was like a big dose of adrenaline pumped into his body to keep him smiling all day long of joy, but it didn't last long...

(The next morning)

"Adam .. Adam, check on our grandfather.. "

Calling from his brother makes him jump out of his bed to go to see his grandfather lying on his bed, his uncle, his grandmother, and his uncle's wife stand around terrified, he enters the room and grabs his grandfather's wrist to measure his pulse, but he's shocked that his hand is cold and there's no pulse in his body, so he backed away, shocked as he knew his grandfather's condition.. His grandfather has died..

His day off from college became a day of funeral and grief.. Happiness hasn't been written for him yet..

On the first day and after the funeral, Adam stayed with his uncle receiving the condolences , waiting for his father's arrival as he was travelling abroad and when he knew, he booked the first plane to Britain..

This went on for three days, and his father had arrived late in the first day. And Adam began to go to his college on the second day of mourning and return at the four or five o'clock to receive condolences with them, Many people came at various times, including his friends Riley and Brandon who had published to the group of Adam's classmates that his grandfather had died to be consoled by many, also on his Facebook page and he also received phone calls from his friends consoling him..

Stolen from Royal Road, this story should be reported if encountered on Amazon.

And at this time when he was so broken about losing his grandfather, he got surprised by a girl who insulted, attacked and cursed him because he had said his mind on something, and he was waiting for a stand from his friend, but he was also surprised that he stood up against him and did not care whether his condition was good or bad..

(Huh?! Why does no one feel me?! I didn't do anything wrong.. He also knows I lost someone very dear to me.. Why doesn't he try to stand with me or soothe my grief?! It seems my life is not worth much to many.. My life has become like hell, really.. Grandpa, why didn't you take me with you?!! Why did you take my grandfather, God, and not me instead?! Why do you want me to live longer? !! I want to meet you so why do not you accept my request and end my life.. I no longer want to get broken any more than this.. Take me to you, please..)

Adam was devastated by the death of his grandfather and this girl, with his friend who sold him for her, came to end all his hopes of smiling again..

Adam became smiling to satisfy those around him, he is no longer smiling with his heart satisfied with this. With every smile and laughter, a pain in his heart tells him that this act hurts you, so don't go on.. Adam didn't listen to his heart, he continued with acting, and he decided to live his life like this in order to preserve those around him as he wouldn't stand another loss..

The week went on like this until someone added him to a Facebook group called The Planet.. When he entered, he found out it shows talents, so he decided to join and publish his stories, and he received a great deal of approval from the group's admins and members. And he began to return to his bright outlook, his eyes began to glow, seeing the world again in its bright colours and he felt that life was smiling at him again.. He joined the group admins who decided to turn his novels into manga and told the painters to draw his novels, so he was so happy that they cared so much about his work.. He tried to get close to them, and he loved being with them, He was joking with them and playing as the arrogant one who thinks he is a big thing and inside he hopes he does not go the wrong way..

(Can they not understand it's a joke? I guess I shouldn't do that much.. I don't like being described as something that isn't me, but I see them laughing.. I think I will continue if it is funny for them..)

It went on until one of them showed up trying to get close to Adam, making a fuss and problems with him, and he told him to leave as his presence was nothing but a nuisance to everyone, making him despair again..

Every time that boy started to get into a fight with Adam, he was asking god to stop this fight because he was in pain from that boy's talk, he would appear to answer him coldly with vanity but inside he would scream and tell him to stop, he could not bear it.. The pain was getting worse until he found himself kicked out of the whole group with a smile and laughter from the girl owns the group, Paige..

Adam didn't know how he felt now as he became completely insane.. Angry, sad, and torn from the inside.. The sense of injustice is so intense and difficult..

(What did I do? Why did you do this? I'm going to find someone who has shown interest in me that he might help me)

Adam went to Maddie and Maxwell, the most two who he had hoped to help him, but he got surprised by their reaction.. Adam is not an important person to them..

*Crash *

(Well.. Why the surprise?! We haven't had a single day to be an important person to them.. It's okay, it's not there fault.. No one will stand with me.. And there won't be anyone with me.. Everybody for themselves only..)

And on the same day, he found his loved ones moving away.. Brandon is no longer like he was with him before.. Brad doesn't see him as a priority.. No one with him.. There's nothing in this life for him to wait.. Time to say goodbye..

Adam died and his grief with him, and the letters witnessed part of his pain.. There are many whose souls die and remain dead body moving among you and you do not feel, because of a word from you that has caused him to lose hope in this life and happiness.. There are those who die, physically and spiritually, because of the rapid development of their bad mental state, because of us.. There are those who commit suicide because of us and we convince ourselves that we are not the cause.. Emotional suffering is harder than physical pain, so don't destroy them as they may be the purest humans..

RIP...