Blind and Deaf 4_Apricity

Death

Death of a concept

Death of a belief

Death of a dream

Death of a country

Death of a people

A human life

Death is the all encompassing dark abyss that everyone fears at one point in there life. Everyone has had the thought "what happens I die", most people have it when they are young. A tall task answering a question so complicated while also so young. Religion came up with some answers, the human body has been described as a vessel for our eternal souls, death being the act of breaking this vessel and the soul entering eternal afterlife or getting reincarnation. Science came up with another, their is no soul and death is the ultimate end.

If the human brain could be compared to a computer, death would be the act of shutting that computer down and taking a hammer to it's inner components.

Of course the idea that there is nothing after kicking the bucket is scary for a lot of people so even atheists hold some hope in some belief that something happens after death.

Reincarnation Is a popular one.

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"Thump"

I awoke to a constant thumping sensation all across my body. I tried to move but everything felt wrong, I could feel that my limbs where all wrongly bent and that I was in a liquid of some sort. All my movements felt sluggish and trying to open my eyes didn't work, trying to breath felt weird as well, I was probably inhaling a liquid of some kind but I wasn't suffocating.

"Thump"

I started to panic, the last thing I remembered was that portal but after that I don't know. I remember everything up to that point and then nothing, maybe I'm dreaming...

"Thump"

Maybe not. Ok, uh, the last thing I remember?

The portal.

The current situation?

Suspended in a liquid with misshapen limbs and unable to open my eyes, My body also feels super sluggish,

"Thump"

and the constant full body thumping sensation, that feels like a heart beat.

"Thump"

Thinking over everything again, I last remember standing in front of a portal, I wake up in what feels like a fluid feeling extremely weak and not able to open my eyes and there is a heart beat like thumping all around me... I was reincarnated, But then I must have died.

"Thump"

With that thought I tried to remember something, I reached for a memory and was answered with a stinging pain like fast blowing sand then an impact. My body shivered at the memory.

"Thump"

I died. I was certain now, and got reincarnated. What did I reincarnate as to have these weird funky limbs. I couldn't really think of anything. Okay time to change thoughts, what now? Why could I still think let alone remember my last life if I did indeed get reincarnated?

"Thump"

I thought of the portal, something which was magical. following this thought up I focused on the word "Status" in my mind feeling a bit dumb.

Status

Name: N/A

Gender: Female

Title: ^

Race: Artic wolf

Level: N/A

Health: 10/10 R/d: 5%

Stamina: 5/10 R/m: 10%

Mana: 120/120 R: N/A

STR: 1

DEX: 1

PER: 1

END: 1

VIT: 1

INT: 15

WIS: 12

General Skills

N/A

Racial Skills

N/A

"Uhhh" what?

"Thump"

"Okay, no name, gender female, no title, race is arctic wolf, leve.... wait female !? I, I what? I'm a, I'm a female wolf?" my mind blanked.

"Thump"

I couldn't concentrate on the screen in my mind, the idea of being a wolf and a girl was like a blender to my thoughts.

"Thump"

It felt as if the world was collapsing around me.

"Thump"

Everything came into focus suddenly as the facts crystalised in my mind. I died and was reborn as a female wolf.

"Thump"

I noticed something more important at that moment.

"Thump"

It really did feel like the world was closing around me.

"Thump"

"Thu

the world constricted around me almost painfully before suddenly my head felt extremely cold, slowly, agonisingly I was squeezed through a narrow wet passage, the cold enveloped my wet body.

"whine" Now able to breath I exhaled and inhaled, fluid came out of my throat and I think I was making a whining noise but I couldn't hear so much as feel that I was making a noise. I could also feel that my nose was blocked.

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Breathing now through my mouth I could taste/smell something on the roof of it, a smell and taste combined? I was whining intermittently in pain from the cold and all the other sensations. It was also dreadfully cold. I couldn't hear anything or open my eyes, the only way to sense the world was through touch and this weird taste/smell it seemed.

I could feel something warm and fluffy to my left, using my weak limbs as much as possible I pushed my body into it. A big slimy feeling enveloped my back for a moment.

"whine" I think I let out a noise in surprise as mother? picked me up by the scruff of my neck and put me somewhere, It was warmer here and I could taste/smell something delicious. I could still feel mothers tongue lick me every now and then but my goal had changed. Whatever I was tasting/smelling was making me so hungry, instinct compelled me. Chuffing rapidly to get the scent to hit the roof of my mouth, I scented the direction. To tired and hungry to think I dragged my tired, weak and unfamiliar body more into the warm and towards the scent.

When I got closer to the taste/smell I could feel other slimy lumps, pushed by my hunger I crawled in between. With a lot of effort and whining I managed to latch my mouth onto the food source. Milk seeped into my mouth, exhausted I limply sucked on the teat. The taste was divine I felt as if I hadn't eaten in days and the flavourful milk tasted delicious.

I couldn't be bothered thinking about the strange fact that I was now drinking wolf milk as the situation didn't allow me to, I still felt so wet and cold, I couldn't see or hear. All the while I was taking everything in, all I could feel.

I could feel the dirt below me, the enormous tongue of my mother licking me all over cleaning me. Sometimes she would role me around to lick my belly, onetime she grabbed me by the neck and moved me, I so hungry I would cry out at these times desperate to get back to the food, I could also feel 2 other bodies next to me also getting their fill of the tasty milk.

I had gorged myself on the food for what felt like hours, I stopped eating at one point feeling extremely sleepy. I laid my head down curled up with my siblings against mothers belly and fell into a dreamless sleep.

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I woke up to a weird feeling on my back. I tried to roll over but my arms felt weird, waking up a bit more I tried to open my eyes. They didn't open, I tried to listen but but couldn't.

Fully awake now I tried to yell out "whine", I couldn't hear whatever sound I was making but my mouth felt different. The noise I made seemed to work as something grabbed me by the scruff of the neck, In let out another shout in surprise. when I was put down I could once again taste/smell whatever I had for dinner last night. Like a key to a lock the taste/smell made me remember everything, "whine" my thoughts kept rolling over each other from one fact to another I didn't move paralyzed by my realization. Eventually I was nudged in the side by something towards the taste/smell, Instinctually I latched onto the source of it and started to eat with gusto.

As I ate I called out mentally to the only source of information available to me "status".

Name: N/A

Gender: Female

Title: ^

Race: Artic wolf

Level: N/A

Health: 10/10 R/d: 5%

Stamina: 8/10 R/m: 10%

Mana: 120/120 R: N/A

STR: 1

DEX: 1

PER: 1

END: 1

VIT: 1

INT: 15

WIS: 12

General Skills

N/A

Racial Skills

N/A

A blue screen appeared, It was as if I was looking at it even though I had my eyes closed. I didn't have a name, but my name's Chris? or at least was Chris. I guess Chris is dead, this brings the question of if the soul is real because if it wasn't then I'm just a baby wolf plus Chris's copy pasted memories. I guess there's not much difference I still feel like Chris despite now being a baby wolf.

Female, not the end of the world, I've had fantasies of being a girl once or twice before and I guess I'm living on of those fantasies now. Will I now be attracted to guys? I was straight before but that was just me being attracted to girls not any conscious decision, maybe now I will like guys. but I'm a wolf would that mean I'm now attracted to male wolves, this just made me imagine 2 wolves having sex. Will I go into heat? Will that just make me super horny or something?

I forcefully moved my thoughts onto a different aspect of the status

Title has a little ^ next to it which will probably lead to a selection screen. Clicking on it mentally I'm greeted by another blue screen.

Titles

Favoured of the Fae

I mentally clicked on the only option, closing the titles screen.

Name: N/A

Gender: Female

Title: Favoured of the Fae

Race: Artic wolf

Level: N/A

Health: 10/10 R/d: 5%

Stamina: 6/10 R/m: 10%

Mana: 120/120 R: N/A

STR: 1

DEX: 1

PER: 1

END: 1

VIT: 1

INT: 15

WIS: 12

General Skills

N/A

Racial Skills

N/A

The title was now on my status but nothing seemed to have happened.

Artic wolf was my race and level was just after, maybe this means I'm part of a monster race that evolves when we get to max level. Arctic also means that I am somewhere cold. Level is unavailable, maybe because I'm still a baby, nothing I can do about it now.

Health is probably based of Vit or Vitality, Stamina off of Endurance and Mana is Based off of Wisdom. The regen makes some sense maybe there is more conditions towards the regen stats as 20 days to regen to full health makes sense until you think about destroyed organs and the such, do you regenerate everything or do you get status effects for broken bones? The stats must be so low because I'm a baby and the Int and Wis stats are either the cause or product of me being as smart as I am. Which is the first magical thing since the portal and reincarnation, how can a wolf pup brain be as smart as a 19yr old human? Maybe this confirms that I have a soul and all my thoughts are coming from that instead, or some how due to reincarnation this body's mind stats where upgraded to be able to hold my thoughts. But then that calls into question if it's because I had an unnatural reincarnation due to my cause of death or if it's due to outside interference. My thoughts instantly went to my title Favoured by the fae, Is this the cause or a result of the reincarnation? More questions that I just can't answer right now.

Skills, general and racial, I don't have any of either. Maybe I need to practice for general and not old enough for the racial, dogs and wolves have a great sense of smell enough for it to be a contender for a skill but my nose is blocked so I might just not have it for now?

My thought on the matter petered out as I got full, my siblings ended up joining at some point I must have been too in my own thoughts to notice. Mother noticing I'm done gives me a lick and leaves me alone. Feeling tired and with no other stimulation I quickly lay my head down on my fluffy forelegs and fall asleep.

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And so my days of being deaf and blind continued, waking up innumerable time to eat only to fall asleep again. Sometimes I was awake for longer but would still tire quickly. I was getting used to my new body but was still to weak to do anything but roll around. The only way of sensing the outside world was through touch and the weird taste/smell on the roof of my mouth.

Their wasn't much to touch, the dirt ground, mother and my siblings, mother would occasionally lick me to clean the dirt of me from all the rolling around I was doing and sometime she would pick me up by the scruff of the neck when I crawled to far away.

The weird taste/smell was weirder, I could more actively use the sense by chuffing to get air flow to hit the roof of my mouth and I could scent? the direction of mother and my siblings, sometimes I would get a whiff of something similar but unfamiliar. Probably another wolf as I couldn't taste/smell the ground. I could certainly taste it the normal way, I tried this by licking it, not the best Idea I admit.

Every time I woke up I was a little bit stronger and could stay awake for longer. No stat changes yet, maybe I was working with stats bellow 1 and the system was rounding them up to 1.

I don't know how many days went by and I wasn't keeping track. The monotony of being a wolf pup was grinding down my sanity, I imagine its kind of felt like what being in a sensory deprivation tank is like. My sibling were kind of useless all they did was lay around, they might have been making noises but I still couldn't hear anything so I was left with just pocking them with my legs or trying to lick them. They were pretty fluffy as far as I could tell and pudgy especially after eating, they would poke and lick me back and we would interact a little before getting tired. I bored enough to make a game out of tasting the subtle differences of the milk every time I ate, the milk was still more delicious than it had any right to be and I would drink as much as possible each time I ate.

Sometimes when I woke up mother wasn't there lying next to us, the first time this happened I panicked thinking of all the consequences of a mother wolf leaving her pups. I tried to taste/smell where she was but I couldn't find her anywhere close, I ended up following a scent trail to a dirt incline where I couldn't move any further. "whine" I yelled out to mother as much as possible for a short while exhausting my self with the task. I was pretty stressed and tired when she eventually came back. Licking me all over and grabbing me by my scruff she placed me down into my still sleeping siblings, she laid down next to us, I fell asleep to her now comforting presence.

The next few times It happened I didn't move from my warm siblings and just yelled out, she came back pretty quickly each time. She must be just at the entrance of the burrow on lookout.

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