“....Haaa….Haa….Haaa…”
It's been so long since I had this feeling , exerting whatever energy I had left to gasp for a minute amount of oxygen to enter my respiratory system , and everytime i try to do it again , the amount of oxygen lessens.
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Survival instincts . Upon entering a near death state , the human body will do whatever it could to ensure survival , and I had experienced it during multiple instances . Unlucky enough for me , it was when I was fulfilling my second year of full time military service and when war was waged on us . A Lot of People like me , who were just there because it was compulsory , now had to go to war because of the incompetence of the government . Lives were lost , and my suffering continued .
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None of that matters now , as i am on my deathbed , surrounded by my children who i happily nurtured and spent time with throughout my adult years and have given birth to children of their own , and i felt a sense of warmth while looking at their silhouettes , as it is a confirmation that i had done a good job as a parent and grandparent and i am reaping the rewards .
I couldn't move whilst lying on my bed in the masters bedroom because of old age . The energy I could exert was miniscule and I had to focus it all on breathing , so I could look at this world and hear the noises of nature which gave me suffering and joy one last time . I said look , but all i could see was fading blurriness , as my eyes are deteriorating rapidly , i said hear , but my ears are long gone , and without my hearing aids , i might as well be deaf .
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the sobs and cries in the master bedroom where I reside suddenly became clear to me
“D-dad… we are all here , you can rest in peace now”
Ahh…I guess my time is finally up, I can no longer feel my lower body.
“Father , may god guide your soul on your way to heaven”
I have been paralyzed from the neck down , and I couldn't feel the oxygen that my body is desperately breathing in , activating every neck muscle that I have left and while doing so , created a type of convulsion .
“Dad, thank you for everything , we love you”
Those were the final words I heard before going completely deaf and as I could no longer feel anything but emptiness anymore and everything went pitch black after ,but I felt something wet trickling down my left cheek , albeit a little .