Once again my gaze strayed towards the lifeless body in front of me. A cold shiver went over my body when I realized this was how people would find and remember me: as a bloody, heartless mess with a face distorted in terror.

 

«Will they really see me like that?»

 

「We can do something about that, you know?」 The succubus voice echoed through my mind.

"You- you are reading my thoughts?!"

「Of course I am. This still is my body!」

"But- but they are my thoughts! I don't want you to-"

Her playful voice cut of my words: 「Michel~ please touch me, Michel~!」

"I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT!"

「You didn't.」

"Why are you saying it?! I'm not like that!"

I heard a sigh. 「Yes. You know my pain ...」

"Your pain?"

「Imagine drifting in the darkness for an eternity.」 She began to explain.

"What about it?"

「And suddenly, someone breaks the banishment spell put onto you.」

"I broke the banishment spell?"

「You think 'I can finally get some men' only to realize your body has been stolen away by a virgin girl!」

"I- I'm not a virgin!" I heard myself stammer.

「Yes, you are.」

"But- I didn't think about it!"

Once again her voice changed to one of a naive, young girl: 「'Michel- I just want Michel to look at me at least once! I want him to hold me!'」

 

Goosebumbs were forming all over my body. I couldn't even say if I ever thought something like that, but it knew there was such a side of me deep hidden inside my soul. It was a painful truth.

 

"Why!? Why do you know that!?"

「... you don't realize you have been thinking about him the whole time? Hell, you even dreamed about him while I was waiting for you to wake up!」

"Dreamed- even the dreams!?"

「Of course you are a virgin! Who else would dream about just KISSING her crush?!」

"But- I haven't-"

「You haven't even kissed him yet!? Have you ever kissed anybody?!」

"Ye- yes. Yes, I did!"

 

A scene appeared in front of my inner eye. It showed a much younger version of me playing with my older brother. I saw myself say 'I love you, Aren!' before placing my lips onto his cheeks.

 

«How old was I back then?»

 

The succubus couldn't believe what she had just seen. For a moment, there was an awkward silence in my mind, then she suddenly exploded.

 

「Are you fucking kidding me?! You clearly were a child! A child playing husband and wife with her brother! How does that count as a kiss!?」

"I- I kissed others, too!" I heard myself protest.

「Family?」

"..."

「Girl ...」

"... I did it with a friend, too!"

「Oh?」 She seemed honestly surprised. 「Tell me about it!」

"No- NO!!"

 

Yet again a picture appeared before my inner eyes. I remembered the situation well. Back then, my party was camping in the forest after hunting down a small group of ogres. Jaro, Sarah and Ken had already emptied several bottles of some strong smelling alcoholic beverage, when they suddenly began proposing a couple of weird games.

Naturally, Lona and I had been the target of most of their silly ideas. They made us sing, dance and even kiss - which was especially cheered on by the guys. I still blame myself for being unable to speak up and defend against them.

Gleeful laughter filled my head.

 

I couldn't help but panic. "DON'T LOOK AT IT!" I shouted at her.

「It's not like I can change it, you know?」

"OF COURSE YOU CAN!"

「Do you really think I would want to watch your 'Michel Delusions'?」

"Michel Delu- DON'T CALL THEM LIKE THAT!"

「That hot feeling- It seems like you turned into a tomato, Flatty?」

"THAT'S YOUR FAULT!"

「How is it my fault you are such a sad excuse for a virgin?」

"Sad- sad excuse!? I just want Michel! I don't care about anything else!"

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「Bad news, Flatty: You won't get him.」

"I- but-" My eyes started burning. "Will I never see him again?"

「You think he will accept you the way you are now?」

"He will! He has a kind heart!"

「And his family?」 She asked. 「What about his friends? Or the guards protecting your town? You live in a town, don't you? Or is it a city?」

The harsh truth was hitting me like a brick. "They- they will think I were a demon! They will kill me!"

「So you finally realized?」

"But- what will I do now?!"

The succubus didn't seem to see a problem: 「Being a succubus is totally fine, you know?」

"A succubus ..."

「You get to meet all kinds of men!」 Her cheerful voice explained.

"Meet all kinds of men ..."

「Yeah!」 She got slightly dreamy. 「Some of them are shy and gentle, some are rather rough, and there are all kinds of sizes!」

"All kinds of- WHO WOULD WANT THAT!"

「But Flatty!」 She protested.

"I will never do that!"

「But my- no, our body needs it, you know? We will get hungry sooner or later!」

"I can eat normally! I can just hunt deer or pigs!"

「My body needs both!」 Her voice had become like that of a sulky child. 「Men and food!」

"Who cares?!"

「It doesn't matter to me what you did to your body, but I won't let you kill mine!」

"I rather die than sleep with countless men!"

「You...」 The succubus seemed to think for a few seconds. 「You don't have to really sleep with them.」

"There is another way?!"

「Just listen to me.」

"What will you do to me?"

「I can't do anything to you. You are the only one who can move "our" body.」

"Only I can move it ..."

「So... what do you say? Want me to teach you?」

"I- I guess I have no chance ..."

「Nice!」 Her voice was filled with joy. 「First, you should get used to my body!」

My protest came immedietaly: "I won't masturbate!"

A snicker filled my head. 「Such a dirty mind~」

 

Before I could reprimand her or at least defend myself, countless lines of text appeared in front of my eyes. I reached out for them, but my hand just cut through the text, as if it wasn't really there.

 

「It's just in your mind, Flatty!」 The succubus laughed. 「Don't worry, others won't see.」

 

Reluctantly, I began reading through the wall of text.

 

『Name: Risa

Age: 281

Race: Succubus

Level: 12

 

Health Points: 195

Mana Points: 1391

Life Force: 119

Strength: 65

Vitality: 13

Spirit: 51

Intelligence: 134

Dexterity: 160

 

Magic: None

Magic Affinities: Darkness (S), Light (S), Fire (B), Air (B), Earth (D), Water (D)』

 

「Your soul is quite weakened, Flatty,」 the succubus explained. 「This is all you can handle right now.」

"My soul is weakend?"

「Yes. You have to get accustomed to taking in the life force of others before, so you can strengthen it again!」

"Taken in the life force ..."

「I can teach you techniques to pleasure them without using any magic, so don't worry!」

"Pleasure them?"

「Giving them happy time!」 She started to explain: 「You just need your hands, or your tongue, your mouth. Some like it when you use the feet instead, so you got to-」

"NOO!! I AM NOT GOING TO DO THAT!"

She sighed. 「This virgin girl ...」

 

⊱————-　Extra　————-⊰

 

Risa: She totally wants me to touch them down there!

???: Down there?

Risa: Ye- yes.

???: Tell me, Flatty. What is that down there you talk about?

Risa: It- it's ...

???: Are we talking about their shoes? There is nothing wrong about touching shoes, isn't there?

Risa: We are not talking about shoes!

???: So. Tell me. What do I want you to touch?

Risa: Their pe- pen???: Pencil? Do you want to draw?

Risa: PENIS!

???: There you go! Good girl! (ᅌᴗᅌ )