Beep.... Bee.... Be.... B..

"Cough cough"

"Beep ... Beep..

Tap ... Tap...

Ahh where is it , where's my phone. I groggily thought .

Beep..Beep...Bee-

"Found it" ..yawn... "What time is it ?"

I check my phone.

Click

The screen emits a bright light "aahhh my eyes".

I diminish the luminosity and I'm finally able to see what's on the screen.

7:30 AM

While i was unhappy from the discovery of the time and thought about why did i set my alarm this early.

I did not even have the chance to even think about going back to sleep when the door of my room opened ever so slighty to see if the person in it, me, was awake and at the same time i could here a soft voice saying "Are you awake ?"

Un.. "Yes"

"Good"she said "come breakfast is ready"

While getting up from my bed i reached for the t-shirt by the side of said bed. Trying to put the shirt on while walking and being half awake ended up with me slamming my little toe on the side of the half closed door.

"Ahhhhhhh ffff-shit" I immediately scream from the vivid pain that was too much for my still not fully awakened brain to process.

"Are you okay?" Worriedly said my mom while still being in the kitchen preparing what was left to do for breakfast.

"Yes, it's okay.I just kicked the door and ended up hurting my little toe.Nothing serious it just hurt a lot"

After grumbling, i look at the door, while thinking that one of these days i would cut it into trillions of pieces and burn them just to let it taste the repeated pain i had to endure because of it.

Walking out of my room into the living room i go sit myself at the table and wait for my mother to come back from the kitchen with the milk so that i can start eating my cereal.

As she come back with the milk and the orange juice and sits herself, i asked her if she had a goodnight sleep even if i can see the dark circle under her eyes.

"Yeah.. I slept like a log" she said as though she did not want to worry me.

"Is your work going well, you told me that a colleague who hated you, was promoted to be a manager " while saying this, i start pouring milk on my cereal.

"It's going.. how to say it .. rather well"

"Oh really that's great " I answered without much concern

"And you, are you not stressed with the final exam tomorrow ?"

"No,it's going to be a breeze" I cockingly declared but i followed by saying in a rude tone, "it's already the ninth time you asked me this question stop being so worried "

"I know but the exam is reputed to have a passing rate of only 10% for 1400 participant, self confidence is good but being to self assured is sometimes bad "

"MOM !!!" I said while raising my voice in annoyance, just stop whining so much. If you have time to whine about my finals just go to work " as I said this I got up from my sit and walked toward the bathroom to take a shower.

If i had looked back, I could have seen what would have broken my heart any other days ,there siting at the table a tear was going down my mom time worned cheeks.Without saying any word,her eyes conveyed the deep sadness she was feeling and hidden remorse . She finished the last bite of her toast , drinked what was left of the orange juice in her cup and got up.

I shut the door of the bathroom and started undressing, as I was ready to hop in the shower i heard my mom say goodbye and wished me good luck for my upcoming final training test before the real finals arrived.

I did not answer her, pretending i did not hear what she said and started showering.

Clack... Was the sound of the front door closing signifying that my mother was going to work.

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8:15 AM

I checked the time on my phone, seeing 8:15 I quickly put my shoes, my backpack on ,I grab the keys of the house, step out and close the door and start going down the street to the bus stop 15 min away from home.

My bus was scheduled to pick us up at 8:28 so i had to up my usual pace.

When i finally arrive at the bus stop i could see it at the end of the street coming to pick us up.

Lucky me,i thought, just on time .

I sit at the back of the bus to not be bothered by anyone, i put my headphones on, and start daydreaming.

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When i came back from the beautiful place that was my mind, i was at the campus.

I start walking to my auditorium, on the way I see everyone stressed by the upcoming exam,and when i thought about that i instantly recalled what i said to my mom before she left.

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Sigh...

"Why did I say that " I mumbled " that was so rude and childish"

As i was thinking about how i should apologize, an idea struck me.That's it tonight I will make her dinner since she comes back late from work.Just as the sentiment of triumph was starting to bloom, i arrived to the auditorium. All the previous good feeling i experienced were evaporated to make room for the heavy and stressing atmosphere of hardwork and heavy anxiety permeating the room.

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10:47 AM

Buzz....buzz.....buzz...

Disturbing my focus I angrily checked what was causing this buzzing sound just to realize that it was my phone who was vibrating.

Damn, I thought, i forgot to turn it off. I check the phone to see who was calling me just in case and see that the call is from my mom.

Strange, I wondered, she should be arriving to work it's almost eleven, plus she knows that I'm studying for my final and unless necessary i should not be disturbed.

I pick my phone up and try to respond as quietly as i can due to the fact that i was not alone in the auditorium,even if the overwhelming majority of student are at the library to study, there is still about 20 student with me here.

"Hello, mom,what is it i'm studying right now. Can the call not wait."

"Hello" said a musky voice.

"Who are you ?"

Startled I raised my voice a little too much, to the displeasure of the students in the auditorium who furiously turn to stare dagger at me.

"What are you doing with my mom's phone ?"

I said while lowering my voice to appease the persons who are trying to stab me to death with their stares.

"Well..." said the voice in an heavy tone, instantly chills started running down my spine and unnease started seeping in my heart " I deduce that your mother is Madam Isabelle, right Sir ?"

"...Yes ,she is " i said while almost choking on my own breath.

"Sir, I am truly deeply sorry to say that your mother got in a car accident, the paramedics are taking her to the hospital as we are speaking.Her condition is unstable, she was on the verge of death when we got to the place of the accident ."

"Whaaaaaat did you just say!!!! Is it a joke? If it is, it's not funny at all "

My mind reeling from what i just heard I tried to persuade myself that this was all fake but reality did not spare a second.

"Sir i would not joke on such matters" said the man in a firm but apolegetic tone.

"Where is she ? Where is she ? WHERE IS SHE ? ANSWER ME " I screamed histerically , my eyes were starting to tear up, my mind crumbled,the unease that crept into my heart transformed to pull me into the abyss known as utter despair.

"Where is - She is being transported to the South Hospital" said the man after regaining his mind from me screaming at the top of my lung.

"South Hospital" i mumbled while my brain started turninh into high gears to think. As a normal person's mind would, I tried to ignore the despair trying to overcome me, by latching onto the fickle ray of hope, just so that I would not black out from an overwhelming emotional pain.

"South Hospital" I exclaimed, it's the hospital right next to my campus. It should not even take me two minutes to get there if i run. I throw my phone away and start running like a madman,leaving behind a group of shocked students.

Huff...huff....huff...

My mind blanked out as I was running like I never had.

Here it is, South Hospital.

I enter the hospital still running and panting and orient myself toward the reception desk.

"Hey, you, stop running" A nurse probably said to me, alas my brain totally ignored her.

When I arrived at the reception desk , i went infront of the receptionist without caring for the line of people waiting next to me.

Seeing my state of mind, the dried up tears on my cheeks and my swollen red eyes the receptionist ask me what information do I needed.

"Where's my mom" I instantly responded

"What's yout Mother's name pleas-" interrupting her I urgently said "Isabelle"

"Let me check .... She is room in room 108 "

Without listening to the end of her sentence i run straight to the room.

Whish

"But... she just... passed away ... Sir " the nurse finished ad she raised her head to look at me however I was already gone.

ROOM 108 , was what was written on the door right infront of me.

I opened the door without a shred of hesitation.

BANG

The handle of the door slammed on the wall, scaring the doctors next to the bed.

"What are you doin-"

I ran to the side of the bed and as tears flowed down my cheeks like rain, i cried

"Mom, Mom, Mom it's me i'm here everything going to be okay i promise you. Right everything is going to be okay isnt'it " i said with a contorted smile on my face amplifying the despair that was oozing out of me.

"....Huh....umm" the first doctor could not bear to say the news after seing the wretched state of my face,and fear of making me lose my mind.

"What ...." My voice trembled with sadness and my incessant sobbing "... come on ..say it, ...say it ... Say that everything is going to be okay... " i implored while facing the second doctor.

"Young man,...your mother..... died a minute ago"

Huh ..... what did he just say ... did he say that ....she .....she .....she's dead

Sob..Sob..Sob

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

"WHYYYYYYYYY ? WHYYYYYYYYYY ? "

The two doctors alarmly looked at me and immediately called for a psychiatrist to come as what was left of of my mind finally crumbled and disappeared into everlasting despair and darkness.

Why is she dead,why her, just for what reasons did she die.She did nothing wrong, god tell me why did she die. She worked herself to death just so that i could live correctly and used all the money she saved up for me instead of buying things she needed. Why her, she did nothing , why ,why, why, wHYY HER ?

I couldn't even say goodbye to her, the last she remenbered of me was the rude thing I said to her this morning.

I ran out of the room, doctors followed me but I was too fast, taking the stair to the top of the building,I ran and ran while the doctors were shouting at me to stop, for they feared the worse would happen.

Kicking the door of the rooftop open , a nurse on her break, still smoking turned to face me as i had just scared her to death.

Just as she was opening her mouth to say something , i ran to the fence on the edge of the rooftop.

Seeing me running and hearing the desperates shouts of the doctors behind, she tries to stop me but i shake her hand off and jump over the fence.

"Aaaah" screamed the nurse. Informing the doctors who just arrived on the rooftop that what they feared happened.

I look at the ground under me, closing my eyes and facing my incoming death no fear is on my mind only ... A sort of relief.

If there is an after life I will see you there, Mom.