It's been 7 minutes, not a single word. Silence is somewhat peaceful, i wouldn't wanna break it. She's probably thinking the same...

A message?

"It's nice isn't it" (Girl's Message)

"So you were thinking the same"

"The silence?"

"Yeah, It's peaceful"

"Ikr, wanna go somewhere? It's getting boring here"

"Yeah, somewhere completely quiet"

"What are you listening to btw?"

I show her my Spotify because honestly the silence was annoying me. I just wanted to believe i also thought the same way she does...

"Murder on my mind? You listen to these type of songs too? I thought you only liked glitchcore"

I can see he's irritated by me messaging him even though we are standing right next to each other. But I can't help it. And I Know he understands my anxiety.

"I used to listen to this one a lot, recently remembered it. Still hits diff than glitchcore yk"

She wouldn't have agreed to meet with me irl unless she had something to do, or maybe just to get over her anxiety. We both understand each other so who's gonna sacrifice themselves for the other becomes a problem. But right now, i have to.

"You were listening to SAD! by xxx something yesterday. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. You wanna go somewhere with less people?"

"Yeah, your anxiety is kicking in too?"

"Yeah..."

I'm not so different from her. I just have a bigger gauge for how many humans i can handle around me... Or so i want to think because if not me then who's going to protect her. To be honest, I'm a lot worse than her. But seeing her gives me courage. If she can, then i can too, for her.

"This is the park i told you about" (Boy)

"That's the bench you took that cinematic photo of"

"Yeah, wanna sit there?"

She's walking towards it instead of replying... That's... That i guess.

"Sit with me" (Girl)

I don't know if i should ask her to talk. No one's around so maybe she'll try-

"I-it-"

She... Talked... now I'm getting anxious...

"It's... Nice"

"Ye-Yeah..."

"Why are... You stuttering..."

She's taking in deep breaths... Maybe it's too much for her... As i opened up messenger on my phone to message her-

"Don't"

"I get nervous too... You know" (Boy)

"Yeah..."

"Hmm..."

3 minutes of another breathtaking silence... As anxiety was eating us both up... I touch my phone to check what time it is-

"You... Listening to that song on repeat?"

"Yeah... You wanna listen too?"

Offering her my left AirPod and playing the song from the start...

Exactly 4 minutes and 21 seconds later

"Heh..." (Girl)

"You like... It?"

"Maybe..."

"Maybe......"

"Can i ask you something?"

All of a sudden she sounds confident... It's probably that type of question...

"What is it?"

"What would you feel, when you kill someone?" (Girl)

I knew it... Probably because of this song...

"Nothing i guess" 

"How nothing? Wouldn't you be scared?"

"Of what exactly...?"

"Going to jail and stuff"

"I wouldn't kill someone i could be accused of killing"

"Hmmm..."

"What would you feel, if you were getting killed?" (Boy)

"Nothing i guess"

"How nothing? Wouldn't you be scared?"

"Of what exactly?"

"Of death... Nothingness... Eternal sleep or whatever you wanna call it"

"You think I'm enjoying what i have right now?"

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"You don't hate it"

"Yeah, but it's nothing to keep a person breathing"

"Then why are you breathing right now?"

Something just clicked my mind, something I'm afraid i might start speaking about... (Boy)

"Because someone gave me a reason to breathe..."

"And what if i were to kill that reason"

I know she's talking about me, we have had this complete exact same conversation before. But we stopped at a point we couldn't do anything online, on text... But I'm afraid we might go along this time... Since it is possible in real life...

"You want to try?" (Girl)

"I can't, you Know I'm afraid to die"

"Yeah... And I'm afraid to kill"

"Should we switch roles..."

If we switch roles, instead of me being the reason she's alive, She becomes the reason I'm alive... and she has no reason left to live then...

"Only if you can't kill me..." (Girl)

"You know i wouldn't feel anything"

"Even if it was me?"

"You know what my answer is"

She doesn't like it when i say that i won't kill her. She believes that if i felt affectionate towards someone that was a threat to her, I wouldn't be able to protect her from that someone... And I have always told her that I won't even hesitate...

"Even if it was you" (Boy and Girl at the same time)

This is where we both usually stop, like it's some mind blowing cliffhanger... But this time, we might end up seeing the finale...

"You..." (Girl)

"Lay down..."

I grip her neck

"Couples usually hold hands... I've heard" (Girl)

I tighten my grip... Slowly...

"We're... Different" (Boy)

She's smiling... For the first time in 7 years...

"It.. huuuu...akh..rt..."

"I thought you weren't afraid to die"

I have to stay confident... If i back off now, she might think I'm weak willed...

She's trying to breathe... Can feel her neck straining

"I'm... Na...tt"

I have to stay strong for her... Who's going to protect her if i start acting like a coward...

I push down...

A tear...? Maybe I should-

"Don't sto...P..."

The guy i loved... Didn't think we would be able to complete this play one day... So this is what pre death feels like... It's nothing compared to what those filthy humans made me feel...

"I love you..." (Boy)

She's lifting her hand...? Does she want me to stop... No... She making that heart with fingers...

Her eyes are closing...

Her arm drops dead... She's... I start shaking her shoulder

"Hey!... Hey wake up... NANCY!"

UGHH... i thought... I was... What have i... She's... Oh Nancy.... What the actual fuck have i done... I throw away the airpod still playing murder on my mind in my right ear...

"ANYONE" I look around...

No one's here... I should call an ambulance... But what will i tell them... That red mark on her neck...

Why didn't i feel anything... I always told her i wouldn't feel anything because I wanted to protect her from other people, if someone ever tried to hurt her, i would've killed them no hesitation is what i had in mind... Why didn't i feel anything... FUCK

I can't stay here...

I should go back home...

Her phone... It might end up as evidence, i should take it with me...

Why do i still feel nothing... I know something fucked up happened... But why can't i cry... Atleast tremble, trip while running or something... Why am i running like nothing happened... Why the fuck am i...

"AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH"