"Huhhhh". The first exhalation, followed by the next breath. The more you breathe, the more it hurts. Feeling that the body is being squeezed by something. Every inch of my body hurts. where am i?

I am autistic. My behavior is really strange. My thoughts are also incomprehensible to normal people. At the end of this era, I want to tell my story from my autistic point of view.

My name is Wira, I'm in pain. My breathing was difficult because my chest was pressed by something hard. I can't move. My eyes could not catch any other object because of the absence of light. This darkness stirs my heart. Where am i? My God help me.

I tried to calm down. I remembered my teacher's words.

"Before you act, know yourself. Know what your strengths and weaknesses are"

I closed my eyes. I imagine the stars in the sky. I look for myself in the sky. I saw two stars that I knew so well. It's a part of me. When I found these two stars. The other stars are all gone. This star is my weakness and strength.

I focused my attention on these two stars. These stars are getting bigger. After a long time, this star stopped growing. Then, this star releases fragments that fly to a certain destination. It forms a small star. These little stars are formed according to the number of weaknesses and strengths that I have.

These small stars are very similar to the big stars to give me the certainty that this is my strength and give me the awareness that this is my weakness. I am grateful and surrender to my god.

Once done all the stars are formed. I try to focus on my weakness constellation. But this cluster starts disappearing every time.

I was surprised, but I calmed down, maybe my concentration was lost due to the pain experienced. I tried to reimagine the cluster formation process but every time I tried I failed. As if a star had formed. My heart started to get anxious. His test is great.

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I didn't give up, I tried many times. Finally I got tired and stopped for a while to open my eyes. I was so surprised that my mouth opened slightly. I saw in the palm of my left hand there were two clusters of stars that I could see with my naked eyes. What happened? am i dreaming

This star cluster is very beautiful. Each of these small stars revolves around a large star. Like the sun surrounded by planets.

I saw my weakness first, even though I already knew it. But this is a process for me to know myself.

My weaknesses:-

1. Communication

2. Forgetful

3. Always procrastinating because of something else

4. It's hard to focus on things you don't like

5. Autistic

I sigh, although it was bitter, but I had to agree. I turned to look at my strengths as well.

My strengths:-

1. Autistic

2. Kashaf

3. Self-awareness

4. Martial arts

5. Knowledge of plant and animal

6. Knowledge of money management

I am grateful, but there is one advantage that I have always considered only a weakness. That is me who is autistic.

Everything has a name, the first human also my god taught names. I give the name to the star cluster beam that comes out of the left palm is "Capability Star".

I look at the "Ability Star". With this what can i do? Yes, I can use "Kashaf". I tried to open my eyes. Slowly I can sense how things are around me. I am squeezed by a pillar of stone in my chest. There are also small stones that hit my legs from the thigh down. I can only move my hands.

"Hiiiiiiaaaahhh". With all my strength I pushed the stone pillar in my chest. The stone did not move..

I tried to examine the stone that hit me. There is a crack in the stone. I tried to put pressure on that place. Cracks start to grow. This time I tried to get up but got up towards the crack earlier.

"There is no ability, other than the ability given by my god". Stuttering, I repeated the words as I got up with all my strength.

The crack grew bigger and finally succeeded.

"Thanks to my god". I got up while moving the stones at my feet.

I walked looking for a way out, using "Kashaf" of my heart. Walking by surrendering to the feeling that belongs only to my god.

I began to see light, the sunlight. I'm looking for a gap for me to push the rock, so I can get out of these ruins. I found a gap where I could crawl out towards the light.

For the first time after I woke up, I saw the sky of His creation. No sound as usual. I could see a lot of smoke rising into the sky. No human in sight. I started walking. Looking for my car.

Suddenly I saw a horrible creature. God save me...