Himari has a secret. It's not the fact that her miraculous recovery was part of a deal with a creature out of this world, or that every other night she has to go out and fight with monsters that feed on human misery. Her secret is something darker and more personal, it taints her perception of life: the only thing that keeps her alive is her fear of death. (Puella Magi Madoka Magica fanfiction. Takes place in the same setting, but disregards all characters and events from the anime and additional material.)