Diary entry number 78

I can't take it after all this excitement of arriving in a fantasy land like this. I got to go and do something. I've been sitting here for 3 years and nothing has happened so I guess I'm going to have to go look for the story instead of sitting on my lazy ass all the time.

So next time Sundrop goes out I'm grabbing my bag and leaving.

I've just got this feeling like I have to be somewhere else.

diary entry number 79

Today's the day I set out by myself. might be the first time I'm completely by myself for the first time ever.

I got to be honest with myself. I'm a little bit excited. I feel like I'm doing something that I'm not supposed to be and my heart is pounding expecting Sundrop To pop out from behind one of the rocks and scream at me and say ”what are you doing?”

But I know that she's not going to be back all day. that and Nightmare seems to be absent right now.

I finally got down a mountain without falling and busting my head open.

and I'm just standing here looking at the forest in front of me. it's not like there's any path which is why I've been left alone for so long.

But I've got to follow this feeling so I turned slightly to my left and started walking through the woods.

Okay I've been walking all day and I'm starting to regret this, my back hurts, my knees don't want to walk no more and it's starting to get dark and I'm probably going to have to sleep without a fire so Sundrop doesn't find me.

At least I got this warm leather, fur lined coat that fell out of a griffin trade caravan a week ago. (I wonder what kind of biped needs a fur-lined coat)

But yeah after climbing up into the branches of one of these trees and pulling my hood up I gaze upon the slowly darkening sky as all the stars begin to come out.

…Yeah Sundrop is trying to track me down.

There isn't very many things that size flying through the night sky.

Ignoring it I make myself as comfortable as I can knowing that is going to be a real pain to find me in the dark.

Diary entry number 80

I wake up with a sense of urgency and After I spend five minutes waking up and another few minutes thinking and I realize wherever I'm going I have a time limit.

It's darker than it was when I went to sleep so it's got to be a few hours within Dawn.

“Yes the saying: It's always darkest before Dawn. is actually quite literal”

I spend a few more minutes in the complete darkness trying to get my eyes to adjust to the lack of moonlight as well as being under the canopy before climbing back down.

It’s dark as hell. I can barely see 5 ft in front of me. And I have to squint… well not squint but Focus my eyes real hard to see anything beyond that. and that's just barely existing shapes.

but yeah I continue following the direction my gut is telling me to go try not to bump end to anything higher than my ankles without being able to see where my feet are at.

Yes I know my phone has a flashlight function. but I'd rather be the creepy thing walking through the woods then be the thing that the creepy thing is following. “did you know that the light of a candle can be seen from over a mile away in complete darkness?”

But yeah I managed to keep walking without bumping into anything with enough force to give me a bruise or worse. I might have tripped a few times but I managed to catch myself every time.

Nightmare: Where the hell are we? I can't see a damn thing.

Me: Wandering through the woods. and why can't you see anything are you supposed to be a spirit of Darkness?

Nightmare: I have to see through your eyes. why the hell are you wandering through the woods in the middle of the night?

Me: it's not the middle of the night it's just before Dawn. in fact it's starting to get lighter now. In half an hour I'll be able to see more than 10 ft in front of me.

Nightmare: You didn't answer my question you crazy motherf***er.

Me:I'm on a mission from God.

nightmare: Who?

Me: You would probably know him as the Creator.

nightmare: the creator of what?

Me: everything.

Nightmare: so like Equus?

Me: I mean everything. Equus, the Sun, the Moon, the Stars, space dust, the difference between light and dark. Everything.

Nightmare: the dude sounds important why would such a powerful God Even bother with someone so small as you. If he's got power like that why won't they just do everything himself.

Me: The stereotypical answer is that it's beyond my comprehension. but my best guess is that he got bored one day after being alive since the beginning of time and created something that wasn't perfect. Something that didn't react in a predictable pattern like everything else was. a flawed creature in a perfect universe.

Nightmare: How come I didn't sense his presence when he contacted you. I would have noticed if something that powerful got even remotely close to me.

Me: …If you were born in a hot climate and lived in it your entire life you wouldn't know it was hot until you went to a cold one.

Nightmare: the f*** does that mean?

Me: It means he's always been here. And you wouldn't know he was here until after he left. And from what I've heard. That is a very bad experience even if it's brief.

Now shut up I have to focus.

Diary entry number 81

After the sun finally started Rising above the horizon life started moving around in the forest and I might have to catch myself a couple of squirrel with the sling I've been practicing with for the last year “did I forget to mention that I made a sling and try to learn how to use it out of pure boredom”

But yeah I took an hour and set up a campfire skinned and gutted the squirrel before eating them. before setting out again.

Nightmare: this is so boring, how are you not bored out of your mind.

Me: You can call it meditation. but really I'm just letting my mind wander and entertain itself.

Nightmare: Meditation? What is that?

Me: how do you not know what meditation is? you basically have to do it every time you use magic don't you?

Nightmare: That's called Arcane Focus. and we don't let our minds wander, we focus to a singular point… like burning ants with a magnifying glass.

Me: You're starting to sound like me. but yeah that's what meditation is supposed to be. I took classes one time and they told me to focus on my breathing.

I never could make my mind focus on a singular point like that. not for very long. Still managed to convince the instructor though. I sat there in the ”meditation pose” And let my mind entertain me until I fell asleep.

Apparently that's the deepest level of meditation someone can do.

But if meditation is just letting my mind wander wherever the f*** it wants to go then I'm meditating all the time with no break.

Nightmare: …No wonder why you can't do magic. Your mind is a whirling cyclone grabbing everything that even tries to get close and throwing it into the distance like an angry child with a rag doll.

Me:Maybe i have a d h d

Nightmare: the f*** is that?

Me: Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. I've never been diagnosed because I'm afraid of therapists putting me in a psych ward… I was also too poor to afford a therapist.

Nightmare: …

Me: Are you going to shut up and let me Focus now?

Nightmare: no

Me: *sigh*

I go on explaining a d h d to nightmare as I continue to walk eventually the subject changed to something else and eventually I was just ranting random facts that I know

Diary entry number 82

Nightmare: so… do you know where you're going? you've been walking through the woods for a while now.

Me: I'm going that way *I pointed at the area directly in front of me*

Nightmare: …

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And then she remained silent for the rest of the trip only occasionally striking a conversation out of pure boredom.

And after a week of traveling through the wilderness we eventually came across a Hill at the bottom of a valley. The hill was covered in gravestones. After jumping over the back fence of the graveyard and walking to the top of the hill I saw a town at the bottom of the other side of the hill.

And as I stood on the top of that hill and look down upon that town I can hear a song begin to play in my head

And the feeling in my gut changed from direction to purpose.

Nightmare: finally some civilization.

With questions in my head I walk down the hill and exit at the front gate of the graveyard onto Main Street. it looks like one of those old western one road towns just with more vegetation and greenery

Standing at the gate of the graveyard looking down the Main Street I saw an intersection with another main purpose Road and then after that at the dead center of the end of the street I saw a church.

It was still relatively early in the morning but there was still a clear flow of traffic in the town.

an old lady earth pony who's been watching me for the last five minutes turned her head to the church shortly after the Bell started ringing and then approached me.

old lady: it's time for the sermon honey.

Me: Ok

Nightmare: sermon? oh God don't tell me this place is one of those secluded towns that still worship Celestia as if she was a god.

I said nothing as I entered the church and sat down in one of the back pews and waited for the preacher.

Roughly half an hour later the front doors closed and a middle-aged Pegasus With a pure white mane and coat.

Diary entry number 83

The sermon was full of b***s***

So it was actually a church dedicated to Luna. the Luna from 1000 years ago.

And if you even bother trying to read between the lines they You could easily tell were worshipping the nightmare.

So after half an hour of what I'm assuming he's going to be a 2 hours sermon I got up to leave

Preacher: AND YOU! LUNA WILL BLESS YOU TO STRANGER! The Pegasus said, thrusting his hoof towards me drawing all the attention in the room at me.

Nightmare: why are you leaving? We could use these people to help your “mission from God” She said sarcastically.

Me: This is my mission from God. I said turning to the preacher and drawing my gun and let the lead fly.

The hollow point pencils through the front of his skull before quickly expanding and making a big hole out of the back of his head and leaving his gray matter splattered across the wall behind him.

And by the time everyone in the church turned back to me I was walking out the door and barring it from the outside with a 2 by 6.

I got a few bales of hay that were stacked nearby and placed them in front of the door as well before lighting them on fire.

I then make a torch and begin setting fire to the rest of the town.

Which takes a lot longer when you're by yourself. and even with other people it would take longer than you think it would.

Good thing there was lots of hay bales just laying all over the place and there was a fully stocked Tavern at the intersection. really I just had to get 4 bottles of ethanol mix it with something that will burn a little bit more slowly like oil or Grease and then shove a rag in it and light it with my torch before tossing it at something hard near a hay bale. at each of the four corners of the intersection.

And When I was considering making more molotovs I felt the wind begins to blow so I picked one of the two directions that actually let out of town at random and followed it.

Nightmare: holys**t I thought you were supposed to be incorruptible. And here you are blowing a hole in the of a Preacher Man on Holy Ground.

I said nothing and continued walking feeling urgency grasping tighter.

Diary entry number 84

I've been sleeping Less in order to get more distance everyday. I'm Only Sleeping 4 hours a day now and that's scattered and everytime nightmare thinks she knows where I'm going the direction of my gut pulls me somewhere else. Sometimes even off the road Currently I'm walking up a mountain path and being very grateful for my coat as the ground becomes more and more white.

The closer I get to the top though I begin to slowly hear something to sending from the peak of the mountain

It's clashing swords and the sounds of a Battlefield nightmare even started pointing out the specific sounds and telling me what spells they were once we started getting close enough.

all combat spells.

I finally reached the top of the hill. There's a small relatively flat area in front of a fort. For roughly 2 minutes I stand at the edge of the battlefield and observe what's going on.

It's being attacked by a few hundred undead. skeletons, zombies And whatever those things that are covering the sky. preventing anyone from escaping by wing.

There's a lich standing in the middle of the field on a raised Rock in the center of the field where everyone can see him “like an idiot” and giving directions to the masses of mindless Undead.

The Defenders of the fort are very few and seem desperate. Even I can tell at this distance that the unicorns have magic burnout and if it was possible are probably pulling Mana from their life force as they sling spells at the seemingly endless Undead from their point of view.

After taking it all in I start walking in a straight line towards the Necromancer the undead being dispelled by the magic field around me I'm turning into piles of Bones and rotting Corpses.

I walk up onto the platform where the Lich is standing.

He looks surprised as a skeletal face can look surprised as I spun around and brought my sword down on his neck at an angle.

And knowing better I look around for a bit and find that the idiots Phylactery was on his person.

Placing it on the Rock I was standing on And pounding on it repeatedly I crush it with the pommel of my sword and the battlefield goes quiet as all the undead return to death.

getting up from my knees I beginning leaving the battlefield walking over the bodies I didn't bother Counting I walked back out the way I came I hear the distant Splinter of wood as the front gates are kicked out word and the heroic screams a people who who are doing a final ride out after they were backed into a corner just to go silent fairly quickly after they realized all their enemies lay lifeless on the ground.

And then I left the battlefield completely.

Diary entry number 85

Today I stumbled into a camp of the newly reinstated Celestial Berserkers That I heard about when I was at the World Bridge 3 years ago.

After getting arrested I spent a few days listening to the rumor spreading around the camp. and figured out why I was here.

they were In the middle of a battle trying to reclaim the gates of Tartarus And there were questioning their faith in Celestia who was apparently just left camp on some wild-goose Chase that no one knows the source of instead of attending the most important battle that they've been preparing for for the last 3 years.

The Battle to Reclaim The Gates of Tartarus.

And yet Luna was leading her soldiers elsewhere as Celestial goes AWOL.

The shackles were not really made for bipeds we're easy enough to slip out of .

And whoever designed the cage is an idiot.

“It didn't have a bottom in it”

yeah sure it was heavy especially with that big rock they put on top of it.

What did they think I was? a spider in a jar?

I think I pulled something but I managed to tip the cage over far enough that the rock on top of it just fell off and brought the entire cage with it and then I just walked out.

I wandered around a bit, most of the soldiers just ignored me completely, probably assuming I'm supposed to be there and the rest only stared at me.

But even as a civilian I could tell morale was at an all-time low.

The soldiers were tired and injured and dirty, their gleaming golden armor dented and scratched. and you can constantly hear the battle on the front line.

And I headed in that direction.

I saw a band of fresh soldiers gearing up and getting ready to go at the edge of camp. rested up and fed but just looking at them I can see the weariness in their faces.

I found a large empty box and stood on top of it and began to speak In a loud voice.

Me: Oh gather round me and listen while I speak of a war where the hell is six feet deep *Yes I know I'm quoting SABATON* In the heart of the Holy Sea In the home of the Holy. the seat of power is in danger There's a photo of a thousand swords They've been abandoned by their Lords! THEIR FALL FROM GRACE WILL PAVE THEIR PATH TO DAMNATION! IN THE SERVICE OF HEAVEN! You're protecting the holy line You're giving your lives on the steps to heaven FOR THE GRACE FOR THE MIGHT OF YOUR LORD! For the home of the Holy!

A random Soldier: oh shut the fuk up!

Me: …Fine I'll stop preaching garbage to you. but listen to this. I get it! you're quite literally at the gates of Tartarus itself fighting an army of demons and the Goddess that was supposed to be protecting you has made up some random excuse and fled the battlefield looking for something that doesn't exist.

I get it. you're tired, you're scared, and you're convinced you're all going to die.

but you're the celestial Berserkers. you're the best soldiers in the world hoof picked by Celestia herself.

And each and every one of you are sworn under oath. An oath to protect Equestria. Do you know what Equestria is? children who can't protect themselves. That's what you're giving your lives for.

You're not fighting over a plot of land. and you're not fighting for some ruler who won't even bother attending her own battles.

You're fighting for the future of Equestria. the future of your children. I've seen what happens when the good guys lose.

First thing they'll do is stop educating everybody. They do that to make everyone believe in the power that be. Make them blindly trust the Nobles and kings that rule over you. For they are the only ones who were educated. and everyone will serve the crown instead of the crown serving the people.

Another random Soldier: but the people already served the crown.

Me: Is that what it looks like? Do you want me to tell you what it actually looks like when the people serve the crown of the selfish?

don't bother answering I'm going to tell you anyway.

Children will be first. They will become dependent upon the crown for everything and will not be able to do anything without its permission.

The weak ones and any who will resist will be killed. And made an example of. And any who dare speak the truth or try to educate will be persuaded to shut their mouth. And if they continue to speak Regardless of the Persuasions and subtle threats they will be slandered by the ones who spread the news and the gossip making anything they say ignored.

They will try to make you and your families defenseless. as well as let crime run freely.

And the people will be divided. I'm convinced to hate each other over the smallest of details and After Many more devious plans the kingdom will be split and divided.

Poverty and Plagues end starvation will sweep through the divided Kingdom because the crown will no longer fund the Hospital. the hospitals will still exist but the only people capable of using them will be the rich.

Many people will die cold, lonely, starving and defenseless.

Think about it. a small child by itself left alone by a mother cared only about herself because of the hatred she carried.

Left in a trash can barely surviving off of the garbage that nobody wanted.

So I have a question for you.

Are you going to let that happen?

After the deafening answer of the soldiers I feel that I had properly motivated them and I'm pretty sure one of them was writing it down so it can spread to more than just a few 100 soldiers

And then I turned and left, still feeling something in my chest pulling me to places that I need to be.

Diary entry number 86

Towns and Villages are becoming more frequent so I must be getting closer to the heart of civilization.

I stopped by a lone Farm where a pegasus was sitting in the middle Of a field of dead crops. When I got closer to the Green Pegasus I noticed his cutie mark was a patch of brown soil with a fresh Sprout coming out of it.

He greeted me with a friendly face even if it was downtrodden and told me his name but for the life of me I can't remember it.

After a bit of information gathering I figured out he was fairly young and had just gotten this Farm a few years ago when he left the big city of Cloudsdale to pursue his passion in farming even as everyone laughed at him saying that only Earth ponies can grow plants.

And I listened to his farming technique for a little while and after listening to him replant the same field with the same crop year after year and only giving it water I suggested crop rotation and told him about fertilizer.

At this time I was thinking out loud to myself that Earth ponies bypass that with magic

And I spent two days How to make fertilizer by mixing waste with plant leaves and soil and explaining to him that it was nutritious for the plants.

And then explaining to him that different plants eat different things in the soil, rotating the crops gives it a few years for the soil to replenish those certain minerals.

I also suggested that he get some cows and that at least once per rotation that he would let grass grow in that field and let the cows graze on it.

And if he did that he probably wouldn't ever need the use for fertilizer again because the cows would fertilize the field for him. as well as get something to eat for themselves.

The middle of the second day is when Sundrop finally caught up with me.

I thought I had lost her by now.

I've traveled uncounted miles and I haven't exactly been traveling in a straight line.

Me: good timing Sundrop I need you to burn this Farmer's fields.

farmer: wait what? Why?! And where did the dragon come from? PLEASE DON'T EAT ME!

Sundrop: We need to talk. And why do you need me to burn this guy's fields? Either way it's a no we're going home. and I'm not going to eat you.

Me: Okay so you know that fertilizer I was talking about? Ash makes a good fertilizer so I'm going to have Sundrop my dragon friend burn them and let the ashes soak into the soil.

…And Sundrop I'm not one of your precious gems to be hoarded and stowed away in a cave somewhere. There's something I have to do and as long as I'm willing to do it nothing can stop me.

Sundrop: Comet… you're sick. we need to get you home.

Me: I'm not some mental patient Sundrop. Being possessed by a demon isn't going to stop my mission.

Sundrop: what mission?!?

Me: My mission from God.

Farmer: Celestia?

Sundrop: And what is this God’s mission for you?

Me: So far? Correct the wrongs there are between me and my endpoint. whatever they may be.

Sundrop: did you know there's a bounty on your head? From Celestia herself?

Me: That won't stop me.

Sundrop: please just come home.

Me: after I'm done. And before you say anything do you want to know what's happening?

You're being used as a tool. Your fear and your overprotectiveness is being used as a tool by the demons to stop me.

Sundrop: you're not making any sense.

Me: it doesn't have to. and even then, it will make sense after it's all over.

Sundrop: This is ridiculous, You're sick, you're coming home with me whether you like it or not.

At this point she grabs hold of my arm and starts dragging me to the edge of the field.

Me: Sundrop, stop. With a calm tone of voice trying to explain to her.

Sundrop: No I will not stop! you're sick and you need to rest.

Me: If you don't stop you're going to come upon regret.

She didn't stop, she just led me to the edge of the field and took to the sky, setting flame to the edge of the farmer's field with a quick spout of flame.

I don't know what it was. maybe it was the Flames flickering my eyes maybe it's the fact that no one was f****** listening to me but I shouted at Sundrop.

Me: PUT ME DOWN!

Startled by hearing me speak with rage for the first time she accidentally let me go and I fell 10ft onto the farmer's fence.

I'm just glad I didn't land on the post sticking straight up right next to me. But I do kind of wish that the wood was old and dried out Enough to break under the weight of my body instead of me just Landing the base of my spine on the back of the fence and bouncing into the road on the other side Landing face-first in the dirt. the hard dirt.

so not only was my back in excruciating pain I can now smell the pain because of how hard my nose hit the ground. I was surprised later when I found that nothing was broken.

But I definitely wasn't walking to my destination anymore.

Nightmare: BWAAAAHAHHAHA. he bounced. he f****** bounced.

That's not a good sign. I thought to myself as I saw a black figured through my watery vision photo the ground and start rolling with hysterical laughter