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Chapter 38 - Her Goodbyes

Chapter 38 - Her Goodbyes

Maris ventured through the ethereal landscapes of the realm, each step heavy with the urgency of her mission. She had left Eloquen to watch over Adeline and Eric, but the weight of her responsibility pressed down on her as she navigated the shifting terrain. The realm's shimmering fields responded to her thoughts, guiding her towards her goal: finding Feronia, the only one with the power to protect Aria and the delicate balance of the O'Cean lineage.

In the valley not far from Aelius’s hidden abode, where the whispers of the past lingered like a distant melody, Maris found him standing beside a cascading waterfall. The water sparkled under the otherworldly light, and Aelius turned towards her, his presence exuding timeless wisdom.

“Aelius,” Maris greeted, her voice a blend of respect and urgency. “I request your counsel.”

Aelius nodded, his gaze deep and unreadable, like the light of distant stars. “How may I assist, Maris?”

Maris hesitated, her mind racing. The weight of her mission bore down on her, pressing the words from her lips. “I fear for Adeline and Aria,” she admitted. "Adeline's path is fraught with challenges, and Aria's health… it wavers. Are they still under your watchful gaze?"

A faint smile tugged at Aelius’s lips, a gesture that seemed to hold the secrets of the universe. “Adeline is in good hands,” he replied calmly. “Her destiny shines as brightly as it always has.”

Relief flickered through Maris, but the shadow of doubt remained. “And Aria?” Her voice softened, almost pleading. “As a De Kure, does she still carry your blessing?”

Aelius’s expression softened, meeting Maris’s gaze with a look that conveyed understanding and the burden of knowledge. “Aria remains under my protection, as does all of the De Kure lineage. My blessings and spirits will continue to watch over them."

Silence hung between them, heavy with unspoken thoughts. Maris wanted to ask for Aelius’s direct aid in protecting Aria, but something in his demeanor held her back. She knew Aelius was a guardian of great power and mystery, but also of boundaries – boundaries that she wasn’t willing to push.

Instead, she nodded with gratitude. “Thank you, Aelius. Your words bring me some comfort.”

Aelius inclined his head, the subtle motion like a gentle breeze rippling through the valley. “Farewell, Maris. May your path be clear.”

With a final shared look of respect, Maris continued her journey. Though Aelius's assurances offered some solace, the unease in her heart remained. The fate of the O'Cean family, intertwined with the De Kure lineage, weighed heavily on her mind as she pressed on in her search for Feronia.

The landscape around her shifted, the ethereal beauty of the valley giving way to the mysterious woods of the realm’s dense forest. Here, amidst the shadows and rustling ancient trees, she stumbled across Straton.

Straton, the guardian of the Oberst family, stood tall with sharp, piercing eyes that seemed to see into the very soul. His commanding presence filled Maris with a slight tension as he approached. He too was searching for Feronia, his expression a mix of concern and curiosity.

“Maris,” Straton greeted, his voice a deep rumble that resonated with the forest. “I didn't expect to see you here.”

Maris offered a slight smile, her thoughts guarded. “Straton. It seems we are on a similar path.”

Straton’s gaze was intense as he studied her, searching for clues in her expression. “I’ve been concerned about Feronia,” he confessed, his tone carrying a hint of frustration. “She has withdrawn from Mirathrend’s Mirror and remains evasive. It’s unlike her.”

Maris nodded, careful to keep her emotions in check. “Yes, I’ve noticed her absence as well. But Feronia has always had her own way of doing things. Perhaps she is dealing with matters that require her full attention.”

Straton’s eyes narrowed slightly. “And what could that be? She barely acknowledges the events surrounding Kaylynn Deverell. Is her focus solely on the heir, her beloved protégé?” When Maris remained silent, he continued with a different tone. “And what of the Deverell children? Kaylynn and Garrett – how do you find them?”

Maris paused, considering her response. She knew Straton was fishing for information, trying to gauge how much she knew or suspected. “They are promising,” she replied vaguely. “Kaylynn’s spirit is strong, and Garrett… well, he has both drive and potential. Feronia’s blessing upon them is far-reaching.”

Straton’s lips curved into a knowing smile. “It seems one of my Oberst children is quite taken with Kaylynn,” he remarked, amusement in his voice. “Their bond has grown quickly since his return. What do you think of Lance?”

Maris arched an eyebrow, intrigued by the conversation’s direction. “Your watch has always been vigilant and your blessings strong. Lance, like the other Obersts, is skilled in politics and military tactics,” she replied evenly. “The families we watch over are all intertwined, Straton. Their fates have been linked for generations.”

“Indeed,” Straton agreed, his tone becoming more serious. “It’s in our best interest to work together. But Feronia’s behavior troubles me. She favors young Garrett, as you and Eloquen have your chosen protégés. Yet her silence is… unusual.”

Maris nodded, though she kept her thoughts to herself. Feronia was a friend, and Maris wasn’t about to betray that trust. “Perhaps,” she said carefully, steering the conversation away, “we can cover more ground if we continue our search alone. I will let you know if I find her.”

Straton regarded her for a moment, weighing her words. Finally, he nodded. “Very well. But be cautious, Maris. The weakened walls between our realms expose us all to forces we may not fully understand. I advise you to remain vigilant and not stray from your watch over your mortals for too long.”

With that, the two guardians parted ways, each heading in opposite directions through the otherwise quiet forest. As Maris continued her search, the shadows grew thicker around her, the air heavy with the scent of earth and ancient wood. Her thoughts were a whirlwind of concern and determination, her resolve to protect the O’Cean family and their lineage stronger than ever.

Maris moved swiftly through the forest’s untread paths, her senses alert to every shift in the air. The ancient trees towered over her, their branches leaning closer as she passed, as if listening to her unspoken fears. The silence was unsettling, heavy with tension that made the hairs on the back of her neck prickle. As she pressed on, a part of her couldn’t shake the feeling that something was terribly wrong – something that went beyond Feronia’s troubling absence.

The realm itself felt different, as if holding its breath, waiting for a storm to break. Maris couldn’t tell if it was the weakening barrier between realms or her growing unrest, but she quickened her pace, her heart pounding urgently. Her thoughts flickered to Eloquen, who remained vigilant in his marble palace, watching over her charge on her behalf. Straton’s words echoed in her mind, his concern now mirroring her own.

She needed to find Feronia, and soon. The fate of the families they had sworn to protect could hang in the balance, and Maris could not afford to fail them. Her steps grew more purposeful as she emerged from the forest towards her next destination, the weight of her mission pressing down on her with every step.

Meanwhile, back in the celestial expanse of his marble palace, Eloquen remained seated by his grand fountain, the serene waters reflecting the distant mortal world. His attention was divided between two lives that had become so intertwined – Adeline O’Cean and Eric Landin. The fountain’s magic allowed him to observe them both, yet the limitations of his influence weighed heavily on him. The bond between Adeline and Eric was strong, but as time passed, the strain of their impending separation became increasingly evident.

Eloquen’s gaze softened as he watched Adeline stand alone at her bedroom window in the O’Cean estate. The setting sun cast long golden shadows across the grounds, bathing everything in a warm, melancholic glow. The twilight hour brought a stillness to the world outside, but within Adeline’s heart, a storm raged.

The family, along with Eric and Kaylynn, had just finished celebrating her birthday – a bittersweet affair tinged with the knowledge that soon everything would change. Her father had given her the details to access her trust fund and contact Legacy Partners Realty, information that would set her future in motion. Adeline had nodded along, feigning ignorance, agreeing to visit the realty office in the coming days. She had kept silent about the other trust – one managed by Nathaniel Descott, a secret she was determined to keep from her family for now. Her father was already burdened with her mother’s declining health; there was no need to add more to his plate.

The house was peaceful, but Adeline’s mind was a whirlwind of unsettling thoughts. She replayed her last conversation with Eric, the memory tinged with unease. They had been busy rearranging her studies in Golden Rivers, a task that had consumed much of her time and energy. Between her duties at the office, her constant presence by her mother’s side, and the precious few moments she shared with Eric, Adeline felt stretched thin, her own desires pushed aside.

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Her grandfather’s connections had secured her entry into Golden Rivers University, and Eric had kept his promise, coaching her through a difficult discussion with Harvard to postpone her admission. He had been patient, supportive, and understanding, yet as much as Adeline appreciated his efforts, a deep-seated fear gnawed at her. Would their love withstand the miles between Golden Rivers and Cambridge? Could daily calls, texts, and weekend visits truly bridge the growing chasm between them?

Turning away from the window, Adeline’s gaze fell on her desk, where her laptop sat open. The screen’s glow illuminated an email from Kaylynn, reminding her of the sleepover they had shared at the Deverells just weeks ago. It had been a rare moment of respite, but since then, they had both been too busy to catch up properly. Kaylynn was preparing for her move to the UK, a transition that would take place in just a few days. With Lance still stationed there and a week off to spend together, she had moved up her departure date to join him before he returned to his base and she started her studies.

The thought of Kaylynn leaving filled Adeline with a sense of impending loss. Everything was happening so quickly, too quickly. Adeline felt as if she were being swept along by a current she couldn’t control. Flipping through the photos Kaylynn had shared, Adeline’s heart tightened with nostalgia. Memories of their carefree, laughter-filled time together seemed distant now, overshadowed by the responsibilities and uncertainties looming ahead.

Swallowing the lump in her throat, Adeline wondered if she was making the right decisions. The two people she depended on most were about to leave her, and she would be left to navigate the challenges of Golden Rivers alone. The thought was terrifying and lonely, a contrast to the life she had envisioned for herself.

Eloquen watched her from afar, his heart heavy with the knowledge that some trials could not be prevented, only endured. He could offer no more than his silent support, a presence Adeline could not feel but he hoped might somehow reach her in moments of doubt. As the sun dipped below the horizon, casting the estate in twilight’s gentle embrace, Eloquen watched as Adeline closed her laptop, turning her attention to her blinking phone.

“The real challenges are only just beginning,” Eloquen whispered, his voice a soft echo in the quiet of his marble palace. He shifted his focus from Adeline to Eric, allowing the fountain’s image to ripple and change, revealing the room of the young man whose heart was so entwined with hers.

Eric lay in his bed, the room dark except for the soft glow of his phone screen. He stared at the ceiling, his mind racing with thoughts of Adeline, of the future that seemed both so close and yet so uncertain. The phone rang, and his heart quickened as Adeline’s voice came through.

“Hey, Addy,” he said, a smile tugging at his lips despite the weight in his chest. “Did you enjoy your birthday?”

“I miss you already,” Adeline replied, her voice filled with a longing that mirrored his own. The simple words wrapped around his heart, squeezing it tight.

Eric chuckled, though his heart felt the same ache with her words. “Should I come back?” he teased lightly, though part of him meant it.

He could almost see Adeline shaking her head, her laughter soft but resolute. “Nah, I’ll see you tomorrow. It’s just a sleep away,” she said, but a slight tremor in her voice betrayed the strength she was trying to muster. “I’m just looking at the bracelet you gave me…” Her voice trailed off, the significance of the gift hanging between them.

Eric’s voice softened, filled with all the love he felt for her. “No matter how far apart we are, I’ll always be there for you. I love you, Addy.”

There was a pause, and Eric knew she was trying to hold back tears. His heart ached, the distance between them suddenly feeling insurmountable. Every fiber of his being wanted to be with her, to hold her, to chase away the fears that clung to both of them. But he knew that soon, even if he wanted to, he wouldn’t be able to rush to her side.

Eric’s mind drifted to the preparations he had made to keep her safe. He had asked Nate Descott to keep an eye on her, to inform him if anything changed. He had spoken with Dr. De Kure, Adeline’s grandfather, who had assured him that he would always look out for her. But despite these reassurances, Eric couldn’t shake the unease gnawing at him. He wished he could rely on Kaylynn, but she had her own path to follow now – one that he had helped set in motion. He couldn’t burden her with his worries when she was about to embark on her own journey.

“Eric,” Adeline’s voice broke through his thoughts, soft and filled with a vulnerability that made his heart twist. “I love you so much. I don’t know if I can handle you leaving.”

He closed his eyes, taking a steadying breath. He wanted to tell her everything, to share the fears and doubts that gnawed at him, but he couldn’t. Not when she already had so much to carry. “I know,” he finally said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I’ll miss you too, Addy. But I’ll call you every night, I promise. We’ll text, email… it’ll be like I’m not even gone.”

Even as he said the words, they felt hollow, as if he were trying to convince himself as much as her. He knew the reality would be different, that the distance would test them in ways they couldn’t yet imagine.

“We’ll both be busy,” Adeline continued, her voice growing steadier, though he could hear the undercurrent of sadness. “I don’t want to keep you from any opportunities you might come across.”

Eric’s heart clenched at her words. She was always thinking of others, putting their needs before her own. He worried how much she felt she had to be so strong, that she couldn’t let herself put her own desires first. Even now, instead of asking him to be there for her, she would rather see him pursue any opportunities he might come across. “Addy, you could never hold me back. You are my strength, my partner. I want you to know that I’m here for you, to support you in everything you do. Don’t worry about me missing out on anything. You’re what matters most to me.”

Silence stretched between them, thick with unspoken fears and the weight of what was to come. Finally, Adeline spoke, her voice softer, almost fragile. “I’m scared, Eric. I’m scared that the distance will change us, that we’ll drift apart. I can’t bear the thought of losing what we have.”

“You won’t lose me,” Eric said firmly, his voice laced with determination. “This distance – it’s a test, Addy. We’ll get through it. Our love is stronger than this. I know it is.”

Adeline sighed, the sound heavy with the exhaustion of carrying so much on her shoulders. “I want to believe that,” she whispered, her voice tinged with doubt. “I really do.”

Eric swallowed hard, wishing more than anything that he could take away her fears, that he could promise her everything would be alright. But he knew the only thing he could do was be there, even from afar, and hope that their love would be enough to bridge the distance between them. “I love you, Addy. More than anything. We’ll make this work, I promise.”

“I love you too, Eric,” Adeline replied, her voice breaking slightly. “I’ll hold you to that promise.”

They lingered on the line, neither wanting to say goodbye, both knowing that when they hung up, the reality of their separation would sink in even deeper. Finally, after what felt like an eternity, Eric spoke, his voice low and tender. “Goodnight, Addy. Get some rest. I’ll see you tomorrow morning.”

“Goodnight, Eric,” she whispered, her heart heavy with the weight of unspoken fears. “See you tomorrow.”

As the call ended, Eric lay back in his bed, staring up at the ceiling once more. The silence of his room pressed down on him, the distance between him and Adeline more palpable than ever. He closed his eyes, trying to hold on to the sound of her voice, the warmth of her love, as he drifted into a restless sleep filled with dreams of what the future might hold.

Eric awoke the next morning to the soft light of dawn filtering through his curtains, the peaceful silence of the early hour a stark contrast to the turmoil of his thoughts. He lay still for a moment, his mind drifting back to his late-night conversation with Adeline. The ache of their impending separation lingered like a bruise that wouldn’t heal. But today wasn’t just about him; it was also about Kaylynn and the rapidly approaching moment when she too would leave Golden Rivers behind.

The next few days passed in a blur as the reality of departure settled in. Eric spent his mornings with Adeline, accompanying her to the office or sitting beside her as she worked through the logistics of her life in Golden Rivers. They talked, laughed, and shared small, stolen moments that felt even more precious.

But beneath the surface, tension simmered – a strain neither could ignore. Adeline’s anxiety about Kaylynn’s departure was palpable, and Eric did his best to be there for her, to support her in ways that words alone couldn’t. He watched her try to be strong, to put on a brave face, but he saw the cracks forming, the strain of holding everything together weighing heavily on her.

The day of Kaylynn’s departure came sooner than any of them wanted. Adeline had spent the night at the Deverells’. The morning was filled with hurried goodbyes, last-minute packing, and an emotional farewell on the private airstrip. Adeline clung to her best friend, her heart breaking with the thought of Kaylynn being so far away. Eric stood by, offering silent support, knowing that his own departure loomed just around the corner.

When Kaylynn’s plane finally took off, the weight of her absence settled over them like a thick fog. The drive back to the O’Cean estate was quiet, each of them lost in their thoughts. Adeline stared out the window, her hand resting on Eric’s, finding some comfort in the warmth of his touch.

Over the next few days, Eric did everything he could to be there for Adeline. He helped her with tasks both big and small – from office work to entertaining her mother – anything to keep her mind off the looming goodbye. They spent their evenings together, sometimes talking late into the night, other times simply sitting in comfortable silence, savoring the last moments before everything changed.

On his final night in the city, Eric took Adeline to his family’s private beach for a quiet picnic dinner. They talked about everything and nothing, avoiding the topic that hung between them, unspoken but ever-present. Long after dinner was finished and the night sky had gone dark, Eric pulled Adeline close. “Addy,” he began, his voice low and filled with emotion, “I’m going to miss you more than words can say.”

She looked up at him, her eyes shimmering with unshed tears. “I’m going to miss you too, Eric. So much.”

They clung to each other, as if holding on could stop the inevitable. When they finally parted, it was with a reluctance that left their fingers trailing in the air before they returned to Eric’s SUV. The drive back to the O’Cean estate was silent, every unspoken word hanging heavy between them. At the doorstep, they lingered, the finality of goodbye looming. Eric leaned in, his kiss soft but filled with everything he couldn’t say, trying to convey all the love and reassurance that words couldn’t carry.

“I’ll call you as soon as I get there,” he promised, his forehead resting against hers.

“I’ll be waiting,” Adeline whispered, her heart aching with the thought of letting him go.

With one last look, Eric turned and walked away, every step feeling heavier than the last. As he drove back to his family’s estate, the city lights blurring, he knew this was just the beginning of a long, difficult journey. But no matter what, he would hold on to the hope that their love could withstand the distance – that the bond they shared would remain unbroken.

The next morning, as Eric boarded the private jet that would take him to MIT, he couldn’t help but glance back at the city he was leaving behind – a city that held so much history, so much of his heart. And as the plane took off, he closed his eyes, the image of Adeline standing at her window, watching him go, etched into his mind.

“Soon,” he whispered to himself. “I’ll see you again.”

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