The source of the radiance is always incalculably distant, and although he's always had the sensation of having walked eternally, he had never reached it. But he knows that there, at that point, is the source of all things, where all places, all times, become one. And he knows that when he reaches it, he too will become one.  Mother was taking him there.      —then he would wake with a jerk and a scream next to mother, who’d taken to sitting by his bed. She’d pat his head and tell him not to be afraid there is nothing to be afraid of it’s just a bad dream my love just a bad dream.      He'd never known how to tell her that it wasn’t the dream that had frightened him so, it was the leaving it…